@azhefaâ,  cleaning out my drafts
â Â loving you is like having my heart just out in the world. Â outside of my body walking around. Â every time i see you hurting, Â it kills me. Â â
she might not always understand the things that go on when it comes to him and his head â- each time she thinks sheâs close enough to crack the code thereâs another wall thatâs swiftly built in itâs place.  but little by little, she finds her way in.  little by little, he stops building walls to keep her from looking in and seeing. . .  ( what was it?  what couldnât she see?  was it to protect her or to protect himself? )
but tonight words of a different tune are sung and it leaves selene, once all too vocal and opinionated, silent.  she takes it in;  each word and syllable spoken to her and lets it resonate.  she was wrong.  she was so entirely wrong before, and she allowed herself to believe the lies that were instilled for as long as she could remember from her time on the ark.  youâre nothing. youâre broken. youâre unloveable. your mother didnât even want you. . . what makes you think anyone else would?
her hand reaches for his own,  her fingers wrapping around his wrist before she places his hand over her heart.  â you feel that?  thatâs because of you.  regardless of the hurt and the pain. . . thatâs for you. â  her gaze tilts up, finally matching his stare before her hold softens, just slightly, on his wrist.  â you can trust me to take care of yours.  i wonât let it run.  wonât let it be taken for granted.  please, roan, ai niron â- let me love you the way you deserve to be loved.  the way you love me. â













