ok i lied here are more text posts because im still going through it and im on a heavy dose of ativan but i straight up just wanna be loved lol where is my cute wife who sends me texts during the day bc she wants to talk to me, or cant wait to see me, or misses me when we are apart, or doesnt love sex more than she loves me, or makes me a priority, or actually shows that she likes me as much as i like her without me having to guess?
Will i ever reach a point where i no longer have to beg for every single scrap of love im offered? Where I find someone who doesn’t get sick of me after awhile?
I don’t want to go into my thirties alone and i love my friends and im grateful for them every single day but its simply not the same, especially if said friends are in relationships themselves.
I’m just praying so hard that this time next year I am not in the middle of the worst depressive episode I’ve ever experienced and I have someone who likes me best
I can’t go out of this decade the same way i went in. Then what was even the point at all?