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hiii. today i called another doctor and she said i could shadow her. so I’m going to see her tomorrow morning. i think I’m gonna work on my personal statement again starting tomorrow bc i really need to get that out of the way. its stressing me out. and that way i can send it to teachers and they can write my recommendations already. today i went to see dr. zafar qureshi. he was alright, but doctors only come in on saturday which is the day i volunteer, so I’m gonna shadow a nurse practitioner for now, which is okay, bc I’m still gonna hopefully shadow the doctor tomorrow and someone from baptist. i tried doing mcat stuff today but it really isn’t happening. i wake up at noon and then i feel lazy. i think haroldo is right, its bc my day to day habits are so bad. i don’t eat all day then i eat a lot and then i just sit or sleep. i need to exercise to keep my body moving so that i don’t feel so stressed and depressed all the time. i just don’t know how to schedule that in. like should i treadmill, or take a walk outside, or do indoor exercises? ill look into it once my application for med school goes in. I’m tired now. ok bye af.

i got a little cheesy in the early morning and posted a collage on instagram of sophomore year with qbic. i miss the simple life. i miss my friends.  today i slept in a little and had a really crazy dream: it was at a school, but it didn’t look like my school, like it looked more futuristic, where the hallways would be like up in the sky, or like really high up and there are like glass walls so you can see everything below. and basically i think the plot of it was that someone was trying to kill haroldo, which was like a catalyst for something else. and i kept trying to save him, but it was like in a time loop, where events would keep happening until he died. and i knew that he would die when he was at this restaurant and after he ordered something. and there was this bad guy that kept trying to get in my way of saving him and it was super frustrating. and there was a game at the school that everybody came for and i think it was baseball but I’m not sure, but i was somehow sitting next to donald trump and he tried to feel me up and i freaked out and left and then the bad guy was winning and he knew he was winning. this part i remember more bc it was towards the end. he sent me to go get him food from the restaurant haroldo was supposed to die in, so like i knew it was about to happen, so i ran to the restaurant, which was also up in the air and i passed by him and he was still alive so i tried to stop whatever was going to happen. for some reason i had a plate in my hand and then i saw the bad guy at the bottom of some stairs and i threw the plate at him and it didn’t crash like it was supposed to, it bounced off the stairs and it didn’t break. and thats when i woke up. it was a really really weird dream. idk. after that i called the doctor my dad recommended me to talk to and she’s a professor at devry university, so when i called her she was about to go to her class, and she told me she would call me at her earliest convenience. she never called me back. i also got the email back from baptist giving me all the info for the application packet. i have to see a doctor to say that i got all my vaccinations, so maybe ill be seeing a doctor for the first time in like 5 or 6 years. idk if I’m gonna go to dr zafar qureshi tom. i probably will just to have more options. then i continued with going over the mcat exam i took over the weekend, still not done dammit :| at 6 ish i talked to my mcat tutor for the first time. he was really nice and told me to work on my diagnostic exams and to take another practice exam this weekend. he said the best way to study is to practice a lot so thats basically all I’m gonna be doing. chambers still hasn’t emailed me back, i asked to meet with him this morning sometime this week. its very annoying :| and then i randomly decided to go to the nova iftaar today. it was great i had a lot of fun. i didnt dress up that much, but it was just fun to see my friends. the last time i was out of the house was for maahins graduation last week. and the last time i saw my roommates was the week before that. ill see them again next week twice tho, so its all good. okay I’m done bye af.

I was inspired by @issaclinic to write daily tumblr posts. Maybe it will help me write my personal statement for medical school, which I kind of need to finish up soon.. I thought about an idea to write in it this morning, about how when i was really little, like 5 or 6, my mom was making ikea furniture and she was so tired of it she accidentally stabbed herself with a screwdriver really nastily and i thought she was gonna die. I didn’t understand what was happening and honestly I felt guilty for not being able to help, just like out of being extremely empathic at that age for your parents when you completely depend on them. I also specifically remember not knowing what gauze was until that day. So maybe I could write about that instead of my moms pregnancy. I have a lot to do in a really short amount of time. first i need chambers to get back to me on my thesis so my grade can change already, ill email him tomorrow probably asking to meet. and i need to figure out which school i want to apply to, and then fill out my transcript and get my committee interview. marisol and francesca already had their interviews so i feel really behind. my main focus is my statement and my mcat since those are things i have direct control of, and I’ve been calling doctors to shadow too. pediatric associates has really shitty human resources. I’ve called like 10 times and left 2 voicemails in the past 2 weeks i think, and they never pick up or reply. i filled out an application for baptist hospital. i really don’t want to work with dr. qureshi bc he was an ass to me on the phone, but better to have some experience than none, so i see him on wednesday. i have to miss the nova iftaar tom bc i have a meeting at 8:30 with my mcat tutor, right after i break fast. i feel really bad that my parents are paying a lot for a tutor that gives me 10 hours of help. i really miss haroldo. i don’t like talking about it a lot, so i haven’t mentioned it to my friends that much bc then i feel a little needy. i don’t say it to haroldo either lol, or i say it indirectly. its kind of our inside joke that its gross to be mushy with each other. so if he says i miss you a little i would just reply “ew. why would you even say that. i barely know you” and its funny to both of us for some reason. i don’t know but i like that were unorthodox. i talked to him on the phone today for like 20 minutes, he didn’t sleep much last night and was really busy today, and he left his lab not too long ago (~12 ish). but he was telling me all about his project and where it could go and he was so excited about the science and the experiments and about his lab meeting with other students who were accomplishing so much. it made me feel a little stupid bc he’s surrounded by so many amazing people and i feel like I’m not doing shit. but at the same time, the way he gets so excited makes me happy because he;s literally the definition of a science nerd. which i love. sorry i talked a lot about him. except I’m not that sorry, it makes me happier :D i also talked a lot to POOP today. its always like when one of us gets busy, we don’t talk for a really long time. but we’re still a tight family. love you q and k :) ( @sacahoewea ) I’m also really happy @renatabonelli talks to me a lot this summer. she’s so funny :) even though she annoys the crap out of me :) yes bitch I’m talking about the picture you screenshotted of me and she knows that the pics i have of her are not even that bad most of the time because she looks flawless -.- im gonna try to finish me before you by tomorrow but we’ll see bc I’m exhausted okay I’m tired of writing now. bye af

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