#ayalynn

1.How many pillows and stuff do you sleep with?

lets see i have three blankets and two pillows but i usually end up throwing off most of them in my sleep so like one of each

2.What’s the best pet youve ever had?

i've had so many pets and ive loved them all uhhhh pixie and finnian were the sweetest most ugly lil' flat-faced (jk they were adoable) kitties ever and i loved them (we had them at seperate times and both times my mom sold/gave them away lmao)

3.why did you get a tumblr?

i thought it would be fun..

4.whens the last time youve gone to a theme park? hmm i think it was busch gardens and that was years ago

5.whats the best school trip youve ever been on? in eighth grade we went to seaworld and rode a bunch of rides and spent the night in this underground animal exibit area. there was a polar bear sleeping right in front of me it was rad

6.whats your favorite restaurant, fast food or otherwise? there was this thai restauraunt we used to go to and i also like this biscuit place in nc 

7.have you ever been to any other countries or states?

actually yeah. i lived in germany for 3 years and we traveled around europe a lot so id say that's the most interesting. i've been all the way from florida to washington and north carolina to california and other states in the us and well yah ive moved a lot

8.the mountains or the beach? mountains (skiing is so much fun wow.. and i rlly wanna learn to skateboard)

9.whats your favorite season and why?

hmm spring, probably?

10.whats your favorite article of clothing? 

my grandma-style cat bag.. but im too cool(much of a wimp) to wear it anywhere

11.whats your favorite pastime?

its not really even a pastime (also as i wrote this alex turner said pastimes in crying lighting woah), i'm just a full time piece of shit

Questions for you tagged people:

1.  what's something that makes you upset?

2. do you ever want kids?

3. whats your favorite beverage?

4. what bands have you seen live?

5. what are some bad habits you have?

6. how many tabs do you have open at this very moment?

7. do you have a current favorite song?

8. write the first line of the 57th page of whatever book is nearest to you.

9. what's the last text you sent/recieved?

10. Do you have a favorite animal?

11. name something you cannot stand.

tagged:

dxzed-and-cxnfused , fullspice , ayalynn , notdrunkbeenharpooned , 

With tumblr mobile being the only thing I can really use to keep my blog in check, keeping tabs on things becomes very difficult. And I am not always able to keep things running smoothly.

But I have noticed that like a large handful of you reblog just about everything I post. I dunno why you do that :0

But I just wanted to say I know who you are, I love you, and I think you're great. And even if you aren't doing it like intentionally which I would hope was the case (cus I'm annoying aha) It really makes me happy. Like srsly omg I'm like tickled Piglett pink ^_^

Thank you babies~

And to all of you who follow me and pay attention every once in a while, I love you too. Of course I do, you're all my babies~ precious babies :3

Also! To all my newer followers, who have followed within the past.. I think like week?? HI OMG HELLO. :3 You are NOW MY BABIES MUHAHAHA.

Also, shout out to Justin for helping me by finding somewhere that was actually selling it!

I live in Orlando and I couldn't afford this 3DS until two days after it came out (And those of you who tried to get the Pokemon 3DS after it came out will know) and they sell out FAST! We were sold EVERYWHERE! Justin called soooooo many places looking for it and we FINALLY found one an htour and a half away from my house. They told Justin they'd only hold it for me for an hour and Taylor and I picked up out shit and left. We got there and both our phones were COMPLETELY dead (meaning we had no way to find our way home) and after some begging the people at GameStop gave us some really, really vague directions on how to get home.So feeling victorious after getting my 3DS we went to a pizza place and met a cutie patootie of a waiter and chatted with him and bought some food. Originally we were going to get some Starbucks but we walked into the wrong place (they were next to each other and we were distracted, haha) After some smart maneuvering by myself on the road we finally found I-4 and got ourselves home.

Here's a picture of our victory

So I got a bunch of new followers recently, and I haven't had time to get to a computer and check out anyone. So I just wanted to say hello, my new darlings :)

Yea last year my birthday was a disaster but at least it was fucking acknowledged by my friends. I’ve never felt so ignored in my life, and that’s on any regular day. Maybe I should just fucking go live in a cave without any Internet or phone service or postal codes or anything so I can save people the trouble of letting me know they didn’t completely forget to pretend to care and wish me a happy birthday even though I really try hard to make sure people know I give a shit that they exist. Like I don’t expect anything okay I really don’t and like i dont expect people to remember something like a birthday and i dont even care if you remember but dont tell me but like…I just… I want people who I talk to on an almost constant daily basis to at LEAST fucking call me, text me, SOMETHING. My FUCKING INTERNET FRIENDS TALKED TO ME FIRST AND NOT PEOPLE I WENT TO SCHOOL WITH (except for three people which I am very greatful for and love very much thank you) OR GREW UP WITH OR TALK TO ALL THE TIME OR NOTHING. HOW CAN YOU EVEN MAKE UP FOR THAT. LIKE HOW DO I EVEN HANDLE THAT WHAT DO I SAY OR DO LIKE WAT.

And then of all things, my FUCKING sperm doner decided that even though he hasn’t bothered to wish me a happy fucking birthday or you know, remember that i fucking breathe because of him, for the past 19 fucking years, he decided that he he is going to send me a poorly formulated and poorly punctuated short as fuck message on facebook saying something along the lines of “happy bday I love you and never forget you are always in my thoughts I wish things were different between us.”

and I’m over here like BULLSHIT YOU MOTHERFUCKER WHERE WERE YOU WHEN WE WERE POOR AS FUCK AND COULDNT EVEN AFFORD THE VALUE MEALS AT MCDONALDS. WHERE WERE YOU WHEN YOU DITCHED MY INVITE TO THE DADDY DAUGHTER DANCE. WHERE WERE YOU WHEN I WENT TO PROM. WHEN I GOT MY FIRST JOB. WHEN I NEEDED SOMEONE TO SLEEP WITH TO KEEP THE EVIL MOOSE AWAY FROM UNDER MY BED. TO LET ME READ YOU BEDTIME STORIES BECAUSE I LIKED READING THAT MUCH. WHERE WERE YOU WHEN I WOULD MAKE SKITS UP AND DANCE ROUTINES AND I NEEDED AN AUDIENCE. WHEN I NEEDED SOMEONE WHO KNEW WHAT THEY WERE DOING TO HELP ME GET PAST THE DAWN OF THE THIRD DAY IN MAJORAS MASK WHEN I WAS TOO SCARED TO DO ANYTHING USEFUL BECAUSE OF THAT DAMN MOON. TO TELL ME THAT DATING LOSER BOYS WAS BAD AND THAT YOU’D KILL EM IF THEY BROKE MY HEART WHICH THEY DID. WHERE’S THAT FUCKING FATASS CHILD SUPPORT CHECK I SHOULD HAVE GOTTEN BUT DIDNT GET A DIME OF CUZ YOU SOMEHOW FELL THROUGH THE FUCKING CRACKS OF THE LAW LIKE THE SNAKE YOU ARE. WHEN I NEEDED A DAD OR I JUST NEEDED SOMEONE WHO WASNT MOM. WHERE WERE YOU THROUGHOUT MY WHOLE FUCKING LIFE. AND YOU WANNA fucking tell me you wish it was DIFFERENT between us?

FUCK YOU, YOU ILLITERATE PIECE OF SHIT DON’T YOU DARE. DON’T YOU FUCKING DARE. I WILL BEAT THE SHIT OUT OUT OF YOUR PROBABLY DRUNK and HIGH ASS. YOU HAD ALL THE OPPERTUNITY. MY MOTHER NEVER KEPT ANYTHING about you from me. She told me Everything , right down to where you lived, who my other siblings were, and gave me their phone numbers and asked me multiple times if ans when i wanted her to call them for me. And she told me that it was my situation to handle, not hers. So I was allowed to make the decisions when I was involved. And that if I wanted you in my life or if you wanted me in your life, she would do what she could to make that happen so long as it was what I wanted. And I did want, and we tried. We really did.

BUT IT’S A TWO WAY STREET MOTHA FUCKA AND YOU NEVER WANTED TO BE APART OF THAT.

And the worst thing is I will never understand WHY.

YOU FUCKING NEED TO TELL ME WHY, not some stupid short ass FB message that you send to make yourself feel better, hoping it will compensate for an entire lifetime of JACK SHIT from your end.

And I told him as much in the nicest way possible except not really because he doesn’t fucking deserve my nice. And it was a lot shorter. Actually what I said exactly was If you really wished things were different you would have bothered to be apart of my life for the past 19 years. You would have tried to be there as my father. It’s not hard to forget I was on your mind when I was never in your thoughts to begin with. Don’t feed me lies just to make yourself feel better.

NO ONE fucking… Ugh just. I am so tired. And so done. Okay? I’m sorry for the long post just… Ugh.