#axtelier

Ironically in his sadistic consciousness, she is not a fantasy.She lives in the darkest depths of his mind that he keeps secured. Chestnut locks that spill over a petite frame; a flower he would pluck over and over till she withers in his hold and begs for him to touch her. And oh, he does touch her—fingertips that creep across the surface of her ashen skin. He inhales her scent like she’s roses, and those ruby lips invite his own. The interlocking of lips is desperate, the contact of heated skin driving him mad with fervor. When daylight breaks through the blinds, he’s sitting up on the edge of his bed, reaching for her, trying to touch her and suddenly she vanishes into smoke. She is no longer here, he reminds himself till the words cling to him like the cloying stench of cigarettes on fraying clothes."Shut the fuck up, you never knew her like I did. You have no idea."Ironically in his sadistic consciousness, they were real.

{ at least it wasn't as bad as the first time ;u;

being confident and passionate: for zitao, this doesn’t mean being confident in your looks, but anything you’re confident and passionate about. if he sees you’re passionate about how freaking delicious watermelons are and confident you know everything about growing a good one, then great. if you chatting someones ear off about a television show you just love and also analyze all the characters , that’s just fine. from personal experience, zitao thinks necessary for people to be confident and passionate about a subject because it’ll only help them get through rough times. his own passion is simply reading books, he throws himself into every genre there can be, and if he can read it and it’s interesting, then he’ll gladly spend five hours in his bed turning page after page. if someone else is just as confident and passionate as he is, then he can’t help but admire them.

“No, not really. People tend to voice out opinions out of jealousy, anger, selfish will to make others upset or hurt. You can’t tell easily if they state the truth. I rely on my own opinion. I have my self-esteem and I trust myself to the point of not caring about whatever people might assume about me. Of course, if someone is very close to me, their words mean a lot to me but it’s the matter of trust. I’m generally very honest and straightforward, able to admit my mistakes and not ashamed to admit who I am, that’s why other’s opinion is not relevant to me. ”

"I'm Sojin, I'm the art teacher, and you must be the substitute for the music class." Somehow, beyond reasons, she was able to smile despite her annoyed demeanor. Teaching third grade students fortunately had gave her the long patience that she has, and it's probably best not to start the hectic day with a fight. "Anyway, you should report to the principal during break and you should probably introduce yourself to the class" Sojin had then stepped aside to give the floor to the male.