#awkwarddating

"I'm so glad you decided to make funny faces at me from the back of the bus that day pulling out of school.  I was shocked when you recognized me in the hall a few days later- when I actually worked up the nerve to start a conversation with a stranger I had a crush on for years.

It makes me smile looking back at our past, knowing at that moment - somehow, this was suppose to happen.

Lots of people were hurt in the process-many times- ourselves But it's not important anymore. Because, this isn't changing.

When you love someone so hard, and so much, there's just nothing that can change what happens.  I am overly jealous of people you say I have absolutely no reason to be.. But it's hard not to think how far we would have come if we both got the nerve to stop being stupid and be honest with each other years ago.   I love that you don't take it to heart, as if I'd think you'd ever want any of those other people back over me..  I know it would never happen.  And that is not a personal dig at anybody, but we wouldn't be together if it was suppose to be any other way.  Nobody has any idea how much this love means to us, I don't know if we even have it figured out yet. We have so long to find out.

I think about it every once in a while -

If you hadn't plugged in your phone at 2 AM the night after Halloween to see that you never sent me your brother's address, we could still be going undiscovered.  ( contrary to other's belief )

Or if you hadn't been annihilated, we wouldn't have awkwardly had our first sleep over, on your Dad's couch after smoking a cross joint.. With your feet on my lap until I realized the chair was open. And I will never let you live it down.  I think of it every time I look at your brothers old pillow- will your best friends green hair dye mark after he sadly lost the costume contest.

I love that our first kiss after 4 years was on 11/11/2014

And I love that you were so nervous to lean in to kiss me, after being denied before I'm glad you still tried.

I Love Our History, and I love our stories without each other, because there will only be more with each other to come.