Infinity Wars Spoiler Warning
Can we please just talk about Loki’s flipping development here. Like, he went through everything in the first Thor movie only to fall into Thanos’ hands and be manipulated to do what he did (he was obviously tortured when he came through the portal) and then be offered a shot at redemption which he begrudgingly took in dark world bc as much as he wanted to deny it, there was still a part of him that loved his brother and he loved his mother so much that he was willing to do anything to destroy her killers but his power hungry intentions remained and then ragnorak where the jig is up and Loki finally chooses to do some good and then. Just. Flipping. Infinity War. Where Loki thinks he can still be cold hearted and indifferent towards his brother. Where he realizes he never truly was and the God of Lies’ attempts at a guarded expression crumble and he finally has to complete the mission Thanos gave him so long ago and give him the tesseract. Where he looks at Thor’s pained expression and knows what he has to do because he’s alone in this, there’s no backup and his brother has already suffered so much. Where, after experiencing long and drawn out suffering over the past years from the titan before him, the being who ruined his life, he makes a choice. Where he relies on his infamous silver tongue and quick wit, accepting his role as an asgardian prince and god of mischief. Where he knows how this will end because he’s seen it in his nightmares all too often. Where, before his final moments, he looks at Thor and he’s scared. Gods, he’s scared, but his brother needs comfort. He thinks how they only just reunited and he wonders how he could have denied loving his brother for so long. Where, scrappy and ready to die because if he loses Thor he will have truly lost everything, he calls himself the son of Odin in an unspoken apology to his brother so Thor will know long after he’s gone how much he truly loved him. He gives him an imperceptible nod “It’s alright, it will be alright, I’ve got this. We tried your way of fighting, now we’ll try mine. Don’t worry. Trust me”, a meager attempt at reassurance, but it’s all he can manage before going against every single instinct for self preservation that he’s built up over the movies because he’s got to try. Impossible or not, he needs to try. That dagger was a shot in the dark and he knew it. He knew exactly what he was risking, but he also knew of the inevitable destruction if he didn’t. Like in the past few years of his life how he’s experienced drawn out suffering as the grip of his destiny and previous choices slowly ebb away at his life, he’s stripped of his only abilities and dangles helplessly. He has nothing. No silver tongue when his throat is closing in, and no wit when his head is clouded with pain. His thoughts can only drift to how this is it. After everything, this is how it will truly end. Infinity War, where, after so long, Loki truly dies a hero’s death and Thor loses his brother for the third and final time.
