Shitty Nights and Shittier Decisions
Word count: 930 Not ship centric but Winterguardian and Avabishop mention, NOT SMUT Yelena was one to drinkânot just drink, but drink to pass out, drink to forget, and drink to numb whatever was left of her tired body. However, when Bob came into their lives just over seven months ago, she stoppedâto the point where Alexei saw her aversion to vodka as âconcerningâ. It made her laugh now, but to him it seemed genuine at times.
It had been a tough missionâAva was still on edge when they played high frequency, Walker was pissed at Yelena for some part of the mission going wrong, and Bucky was annoyed with Alexei over some relationship issues. So, when all of them returned to the Watchtower, Yelena felt that nagging urge. ââŠdo any of you want a drink?â she asked, going into the cabinet to look for Alexeiâs vodka. âLena! My savior,â her father responded with a smile, already getting the glasses. She smiled, only slightly, because her father was happy. âDonât drinkâwe canât really get drunk anyway,â Bucky insisted, but Yelena poured him a glass anyway. âGoodâso you donât have a limit.â Bucky just smirked, taking his glass. Walker just took his, seemingly annoyed, and Ava took hers with a bit of concern. âAdmittedlyâIâve never drank before,â she told them, to which Yelena nodded. âI figured. Just donât have too muchâI donât know what atoms do under the influence,â Yelena joked. She assumed Bob was already asleepâafter all, it was two in the morning. She grabbed her glass and collapsed on the couch.
âSalute,â and down the hatch it went. Ava took a sip and shrunk back, rapidly blinking.
âUghâhow can you drink that? It tastes likeâeugh.â She pushed the shot glass to the side, watching as Yelena poured herself and Alexei more. John watched them.
âTheyâre Russianâitâs likeâa cultural thing,â he said, taking small sips. Bucky nodded as well, swirling the vodka in the glass. He didnât want to drink itâbut he sipped anyway.
ââŠthe serumâs only supposed to *enhance* our systemsâby a lot, obviouslyâbut we could get drunk if we tried,â John pointed out.
Bucky looked at him, deadpan. âYou wanna get shitfaced, Walker? Be my guest.â John looked surprised.
ââŠis this about the missionââ
âIs the sky blue, Walker?â he asked, grabbing a whole bottle of vodka. Yelena just smirked and chuckled.
âHeyâlook, I did what I was supposed to. Yelenaââ
âYelena was ambushed! She couldnât have given a signal if she tried!â Bucky insisted. âSome things have to be your fault, Walkerââ
âĐĐŸŃĐŸĐłĐŸĐč, calm,â Alexei warned, sighing softly as he drank the vodka. Tonight, it seemed the drink had calmed him down. Bucky whipped around to Alexei.
âStopâAlexei, donât call me that,â he growled before turning his anger back onto Walker.
âBucky, let it go,â Yelena responded. âWalker apologized to me on the jet. Itâs fine.â
Bucky just sighed, drinking more as Yelena got a new bottle. Tonight, he needed the alcohol.
âScrew thisâIâm going to bed,â Ava declared, getting up. âI am not in the mood to fight with all of you tonight.â
âAlrightâgoodnight, Ava,â Yelena said a bit too loudly, causing Ava to roll her eyes.
âGoodnightâand call Bishop tomorrow, she left a bracelet here,â Ava told her.
âGot it,â Yelena said, words slurring a bit as Ava left. Alexei looked her up and down, almost concerned as he took a sip straight from the bottle. âLenaâyou donât look too good. Are you okay, ŃĐŒĐœĐžŃĐșа?â Yelena turned to Alexei, a hazy look in her eyes. ââŠâm fine, Alexei.â As they continued to drink, Bucky and John looked up to the sound of shuffling down the hall. Bob. âHey Bobby,â John told him, eyes meeting the younger manâs, and he noticed instantly Bobâs expression. The look in the eyes, the stare, the confusion, the reaction to the smell of alcohol. âUhâŠguys? Maybe we should put the vodka away,â John surmised, turning to the others. Bucky put the bottle down. ââŠmight have gotten a bit too heated.â Yelena looked at them like they were nuts. âOhâcome on, itâs just some vodka. Itâs nothing important,â she told them, voice slurring slightly. Bob just sort of backed up at the sight of her. She sighed after the silence, getting up and taking the vodka with her. âCome on, Bob.â Bob reluctantly followed herâonly because he was worried about her. She walked into not her own roomâbut Bobâs. A softer, calmer place. She collapsed onto his bed. ââŠBob, why are youâŠlooking at me, like that?â âUhâlike what?â he said, clearly trying to deflect from the question. Yelena looked him up and down. âCome onâyou look sad. Tell me, Bob.â she insisted. ââŠwellâIâI just thought you said you wanted to be soberâŠâ he responded, looking away from her. Yelena sighed and sniffled a bit. ââŠitâs just hard, you know?â âY-yeahâŠI get itââ âAnd everyone here can be so annoying sometimes,â she growled. âWalker and Bucky and AlexeiâŠtheyâre all pains in my assâŠIâm supposed to be a leader, you know, but they all wave their dicks in the air and want to take it over.â ââŠI get it,â Bob told her slowly. Yelena sighed, ââŠthank you, Bob. For not being an idiot.â He was silent as she hugged him, briefly, before passing out in his arms. The next morning, she apologized to Bob profusely. Heâd tell her it was fine the whole timeâŠbut he didnât look at her the same way for the next month. In some part of his eyes, he saw more than just Yelena. In some scrap of his mindâŠhe saw them again. Yelena was sober for a long, long time afterward.












