Ava, how does it feel knowing that the person your son becomes when he blacks out is so self-destructive and suicidal?
"Like I'm failing as his mother. It's my job to protect him, to keep him safe, and how the hell am I supposed to do that when everything we try is like 2 steps forward and 3 steps back? How can I protect him from himself? How do I take that pain from him? I'm tired of failing him."

















