#aug7

We only dated (or, went on dates, that is) for a short time. So it’s very hard for me to understand how when I see your name pop up on social media, it hurts a little bit.

Like a weight on my heart.

Maybe it’s because of the way it ended. The idea that there could have been if it weren’t for long distance lingering over our heads.

So now I’m stuck with what if’s and what could have been.

And if I’m being honest, I’ve been a little upset about it. Angry. Confused.

Upset with God. He could’ve made this possible, easily. So why not? Why all the confusion?

Angry at China. Yeah, is it possible to be angry at a whole place? Because it feels like I am. Because that is where I know I need to be, where I know my purpose is. But why is it so damn far away?

Confusion with the idea of maybe the right person, but the wrong time.

But then it hit me the other day. Out of the blue. The only way I can describe it is that is was a whisper from God.

My timing is never wrong. My timing is always perfect.

And in that, I find peace.

Knowing that even though I have no idea why this is happening the way it is... He knows. He know what I need and when I need it. It may never include you again, or it may. But I know He has a plan.

And His timing and His plan is far better than anything I could ever hope or imagine.