Oh… darn. Well, Mammon probably won’t be lenient or nice about it. He is that type of guy so whilst he’s a bit offensive, I hope it’ll be okay. I’m not personally mocking being plus sized or having AuHDHD, I just doubt Mammon would be nice about it at first— but anyway

Mammon- Greatest Self

Straight up… Mammon is pretty goddamn crude and a big selfish bastard. He doesn’t apologise for anything he does and he doesn’t regret being judgemental or discriminative since he only cares for himself

So, when he sees you… a ‘unappealing plus sized brat with a fucked up head’ that’s apparently his new employee, has him apathetic and disinterested so he doesn’t even care to be nice nor ease up his toxicity as your boss

Mammon didn’t really fear insulting your physical body or your psychological issues. He finds both of them very annoying and he cannot bring himself to be patient with you, so for the first few months he had you hired. He treated you badly…

However, for the first time in his life, the Sin of Greed… genuinely felt something bad for somebody else upon making his nasty remarks when he saw the way you were upset over him

Mammon doesn’t know why but he ended up changing his attitude with you since he couldn’t take the sharp stabs in his heart anymore! He can’t insult you without hurting himself. Eventually, he completely silences his bad treatment and tries his best to compliment you

Mammon actually really don’t believe that disorders exist at all and when you, when gaining back trust to your Circus-decored sin boss, explain what AuHDHD is… he does his end to not laugh at the nonsense and listens up. He doesn’t get all this medicine and this treatments yet he keeps trying to understand you anyway

Mammon likes his people attractive and thin and curvy. Whilst he doesn’t think plus sized is attractive at first, he also thinks that there is a POSSIBLE chance that a plus sized curvy person can be hot and eventually, he does view you that way… your plush curves is soft and squishable

Honestly, he thirsts over you like crazy. Mammon loves to kiss and suck your soft plus-sized belly and waist. Feel your bigger thighs and your nice thick ass… he loves the same you feel, you’re amazing and he basically pants over your body

This is a lot less sexual but romantic passion, Mammon doesn’t find anybody sexually thriving but romantically thriving. It’s why he likes your body, he likes to dress you up and put you nice clothing and shoes… oh, it makes him flutter!

Don’t worry, Mammon will NEVER let anybody insult your body or your conditions! He did previously but he doesn’t anymore since you’re now his beloved partner so if anybody even dares to make fun of you, he’ll devour them whole with no hesitation whatsoever

NOBODY hurts his beloved little kitten!

Mammon is the type of pampering lover, he enjoys giving you all kinds of wonderful presents and items pretty much 24/7 since his love language is in the form of ‘receiving gifts’. It’s spoiling but it’s his best strength, getting the best things since whilst he hates spending money. He’ll spend it on him and you

Mammon is not usually a patient man at all but he is always doing his best for you since he has some weird obsession over you that he can’t explain at al! He does his best to be patient with your conditions and understand your different attitudes aren’t intentional… even if your tones may offend him

Mammon may like you a lot but he is still a awfully greedy money-eyed prick so he’ll market you in whatever your best skill is so he can profit from it but he will gladly give you… a proportion of that income gain. He only slightly exploits you where he exploits everybody 100%

Mammon enjoys having you match him in clothing or accessorises! So, he likes to get you to wear whatever he is at the time, I’m afraid you’ll have to get use to this little cute thing until he gets bored of it… which will probably take some time so he’ll make you his Mini Me and admire how cute you look!

Mammon treats you like a Prince/Princess/Royal amongst the workplace so you get special privileges, and his employees do as you want when you want by his command. If you’re hungry, they give you food first. If you need time alone to handle your AuDHD, they are to leave right away

Mammon personally doesn’t think you need to do anything for anybody else so when you tell him, after a long day, about people saying you need to lose your weight. He’ll basically say; ‘you don’t need to change for anybody’ but if you ever want to change your plus-sized form, he’ll be there to support you… in the most Mammon way

Now. To top up your relationship with the Aussie Greed King, Mammon is not the most perfect boyfriend and he’s always trying to improve his ugliest traits to not hurt your feelings so he needs time but he does love you and he’ll show it

Hi there, self-diagnosed adult autistic/AuDHD woman here. 👋 I just published a poetry ebook. It covers various subjects and writing styles but mainly explores autism itself or neurotypical/societal opposition to autistics.

Here’s the problem: for safety/stress reasons, I can’t promote this book via traditional book promo methods.

I live with people in denial and I'm not "out" about being autistic IRL (for privacy reasons, I published under a pen name), so I can’t tell my neighbors in case word comes back to said people. For the same reason, I can’t locally advertise this book or do public readings. I need to be careful about how I even talk about it online.

This is where YOU come in.

Although I included retail links here for those inclined to buy things and support tiny indie creatives, I’m not specifically asking anyone here to buy this book. I get it. Everyone’s broke and/or only buys things they know they’ll like.

Instead, I’m asking you to do 2 things (yes, preferably both) that don’t cost a penny:

1) Reblog this post.

Yes, I said REBLOG. Tumblr doesn’t use popularity algorithms, so likes and comments don’t spread a post. Only reblogs can do that.

2) Request this ebook through your local library so you (and other folks!) might be able to read it for free.

Libraries have different procedures for book acquisition, so you’ll need to investigate that part yourself. In some cases, it’s as simple as logging into your online library account and looking for a book request button. Book requests don’t automatically mean success (library budget sizes and expenditure schemes vary wildly between regions, states, and countries), but requesting it is the first step towards giving it a chance to be available in your area.

And that’s it.

I’m not specifically asking anyone here to buy it firsthand. I’m not asking anyone here to even like the book or leave a review. I’m just asking for a chance at getting it into some people’s hands.

There aren’t exactly millions of books out there directly addressing the autistic experience firsthand. I’m just trying to contribute my own cranky little voice to a narrative that's still largely defined and controlled by outsiders rather than the people who live it every day.

To the best of my (admittedly crash course) knowledge, this ebook meets basic accessibility requirements, but please understand this is my first ebook and I'm human, so there's always a chance that it might glitch out on the occasional device.

If you’re still reading this, thank you.

(This book will eventually be available on many other sites and I didn't knowingly exclude any site or country when I uploaded it, but my distributor doesn't disclose their full list of retail partners, so I just chose the 3 biggest sites I currently have links to.)

Kobo

Lulu

Amazon

Content/trigger warnings (just to be really thorough):

Rare instances of swearing

General themes of depression and mental health struggles

1 instance of the word "rape," but in a non-sexual context ("Employment")

1 poem that broadly discusses suicidal thoughts ("The Opposite of Wrath")

2 poems mentioning injuries or body horror ("Self Reliance, Age Eight" and "Dream Transcription, Part Two: Drifting Further")