#atr110

first of all if you haven’t checked out the booklet, then please do, it may not be quite as fancy as the one i made for that aqua mix a while back but it’s still, good, okay, it’s good

anyway uh

general facts are that the soshad mix has been in the making for Two Years, since my first semester of college, and it’s gone through... a lot? there have been a lot of songs that have come and gone, it was pitched as a “happy soshad mix” that i never fully intended to make---or at least didn’t see myself making before ATR ended because i didn’t think

they would be a thing, before ATR ended

but uh then sora demanded ch110 happen so it did

and uh

yeah

section 1: start

hiding is a song i stole from the last soshad mix for part 2, because “if you give a little so will i” was a thing that mattered then, but it still matters now, you know? hiding is a good thing for the Start of them becoming friends, because it’s the agreement to work together towards something better.... and that’s where they start

who is in your heart now? is... a song i kinda wish i’d found when making the DI soshad mix because its’ VERY MUCH re: “shad having a crush and not knowing what to do with it”, though actually i think it’s probably for the best i didn’t find it until making it’s about choice, because it’s a happier song, it’s kind of an acceptance? augh it’s become a Big Shad Song for me.... 

just, agh, some of these lyrics

do you ever feel like falling / for someone you never thought of falling for?

all your friends and foes they thought they knew ya / but LOOK who’s in your heart now

it’s so good and so him....

bonus here’s the art that got slapped on this for the booklet

which is........ a callback to atr99, the bit where sora’s heartspace drops a pillow into existence for him and he’s like “fuck you” but takes it anyway, because it smells like sora, and,,,, yeah :’)

((the colors are absolutely symbolic))

section 2: realization

crush is kind of... generic, but i needed something for the mess that is atr103-110, that is sora realizing oh god i’m in love and then having to, yanno, Deal With That, and this song makes me tendo.... also “the possibility that you could ever feel the same about me / is just too much, jsut too much” AUGH end me, 

and the lyrics “why do i keep running from the truth? all i ever think about is you” is... very... sora post atr103 aslkdfjlsjkf, and also a callback (admittedly to a shad lyric) in a later song, we’ll talk about that, we’ll get there

OH FUCK ME and “it’s a chance we gotta take / because i think we could make / this into something that’ll last forever” is very VERY adjacent to sora’s confession in atr110, isn’t it? oh boy it is........ aaaaaaaaaaaa

delicate is like, not Perfect, because the main story of hte song isn’t them, but the chorus makes me tender constantly so i had to keep it. sora wondering if this is okay, if this is too soon, it’s delicate, it’s delicate, ....but i like you

also the fact that “my reputation has never been worse so / you must like me for me” being a line from shad just fucking WRECKED me when i realized it, hhhh

black butterflies and deja vu is one of the songs off this album by the maine (lovely little lonely) which i... listened to basically nonstop while writing atr107, the album made me kinda tender and this song in particular becuase it’s Very Sora Themed, like, being about how much he loves shad but how much he can’t / is terrified of saying it...

for the booklet i ended up giving half the song to sora and half of it to kano becuase i thought that was good too, becuase kano being just as fucking baffled by how much he loves sora, paralyzed by his love and his fear of bieng in love that it’s hard to speak is... it’s good

a lot of this song is good alskfjslkjf jsut check out the booklet, the lyrics are all so good

the sora art is for this song but also for This Section, which is more about sora realizing oh fuck i’m in love than it is about kano realizing that, because kano... has known he’s been in love for a while. his is more about accepting that its’ okay.

section 3: confession

aquaman is a Big SoShad song i’ve had under my belt probably the longest of any song in this mix (other than hiding).... the lyrics that get me the Most are “you see the thing you’ve been chasing honey / you’ll never find it wearing a life vest / you gotta risk your neck / know in your heart it will be worth it”

because the Big Thing about them / the confession is sora going no, look, if you want something good out of this then you can’t keep shying away from it, is about kano gathering the courage to accept this... it’s........ a good song...... it always makes me emo about them....... gets on my fucking knees......

the art i dropped here in teh booklet is the art i used for the cover, but it’s... it’s art of the confession, it’s like, Literally I Took Lines from atr110, it’s the moment where Sora grabs Kano’s hands and tells him do you want this? then choose it. who cares if you don’t deserve it. and aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

best worst mistake is a song that i wanted to shy away from due to the title and That Phrase being like a big thing for, them, ((though for the record: the characters in the musical have been like, Together for three years and are just kind of terrified of taking it further, from the context)

and like it’s... a song I Had To Do becuase it’s so very VERY soshad, it’s very Sora Tells Kano He Has To Take A Risk, while Kano Being Terrified Of Doing So

and the banter between them moving into the confession.... it’s good

aquaman is the leadup to it, best worst mistake is the actual confession, i choose you (the next song) being the affirmation of the confession,

anyway the best lyric in this song is “it’s not that i don’t love you, becuase i don’t not love you, and it’d be a lie to say i’m never sometimes always thinking of you” its just... so Very Kano

i choose you IS HERE BECAUSE THEIR CONFESSION IS SO CENTERED AROUND CHOICE LIKE, I COULDN’T NOT, YOU KNOW??? their thing is about choosing each other, choosing love instead of choosing to be scared, choosing love instead of shying away from it because they don’t “deserve” it

section 4: triumph

this section is about... the aftermath of the confession, and what it means for the two of them, which is a lot about kano actually but you know what that’s fine

drummer boy well i found most of these songs on accident (as you do) but it is very shad centric, because the whole message is “what did i do to deserve you?” and if that’s not his contstant mood re: sora i don’t know what the fuck IS

it’s a triumph because it’s “what did i do to deserve you?” but it’s not lamenting, it’s a celebration. i don’t deserve you but i have you anyway. good. SHIT.

open up the sky isssss a sora song that alright is only halfway adjacent, but it’s like. i mean his entire thing through 103-110 is him bottling up his feelings (i even, uh, put cloud related metaphors in 103 and clear sky metaphors in 110 just to tie into this song a little ALSKJDFLJS)

anyway just “i’ve tried to explain away what i’m feeling / but i wont’ be the one who never tried / so open up the sky”....... sora stopping bottling up his feelings and letting them out is a thing, so here’s a song for it

kaleidoscope another song!!! about shad!!! fucking basking in how good sora is too him and how much he thinks he doesn’t deserve it but alright!! guess he has it anyway!!! you keep turning, you keep turning my life around is.... exactly what sora keeps doing for him. so. will smith poses

it’s a reflection between what his life used to be and how much better his life is now that sora’s in it, and also like, how much better it is now that he... lets himself has it. instead of shying away from it. nods.

never stop - for the record, i was going to put in the wedding version initially (two years ago) but then i went. no. don’t they deserve something a little more triumphant.

so in goes the original

it’s just... yano.... a triumph....... a declaration of love........ tosses out sappy confetti.........

no okay the chorus is kind of Fucking Loaded with soshad shit, especially since “i’ll never stop choosing you” is a line and their whole thing is About Choice, there’s also “you are my life i don’t deserve you / but you love me all the same” (kano mood) and “i’ll never get used to you” (kano mood)

it’s a good song........... they’re a good ship...........

my boys who have come so far and whom i love,