#atomgods

okay so with fume and satan:

     -fumus made satanick, treated him like a brother n all that n kinda sorta raised him for the most part while also raising himself - the issue with this is that anytime that satanick did something fumus thought was unfavorable or annoying, fumus would hurt him. fumus found it hilarious after a point in time and just decided to continually do it, satanick not so much.     -satanick is the way he is because of what fumus put him through. satanicks sadomaso tendencies come from what fumus instilled in him as well as satanick feeling thats how love is to be expressed and found himself enjoying it, as well as being on the receiving end.          -this is an issue however given that satanick is incredibly fearful of fumus. it stems from the idea that if he does not express himself in the way that fumus likes or that fumus expresses himself, then he will get hurt again for it or that fumus wont “love” him anymore or simply discard him to the side. no this is not something that he publicly shows to anyone. no he does not show this to fumus either, opting to attempt remaining on his brothers good side. its an inner turmoil with satanick.     -satanick is one of the only things that fumus ‘cares’ about. a little more so than the angels hes made but not by much. its not even that fumus cares about satanick, its more of him being amused that satanick is so easily manipulated by him and gullible to the shit he says.

fume on mortality and morality:

Tell him that wasn’t--

Ven stopped the second he saw the Devil, staring blankly. He wasn’t supposed to be here. He was supposed to be in his own shit-hole world, where Ven never had to see him again. For a moment he felt sad, but he wasn’t one to dwell on such things, so he quickly replaced it with rage. There is no tearful reunion on his part. No showing that he missed his Father at all after running away from home as he had. Instead--

fumus life when he was younger was much more boring than the life he has now, if anyone asked him. the world was a blank state and he was getting used to the position of being god, so it was then he started learning how to create things. satanick was the first that he created, who was made the devil already, then taffy.

it definitely is something that i would like to explore a lot further since i never thought much about it, considering i never wrote fumus in his childhood very extensively, so what i mentioned above is pretty much the only thing ive really cemented. i think it would be fun and interesting to develop his childhood given the way he already is, it makes me think that his childhood could possibly have been the same or perhaps different. it all depends on what happens in the duration of being able to explore the idea.

meme. / FUMUS

     “Mm,” is the sound that escapes the God’s throat, followed by an exhale of smoke from his previous drag. Grey eyes fixate on the mirror image of himself, brows furrowing in thought. How odd, he thinks, that another of him would exist. It makes his stomach churn briefly for a moment, a burn rising in the back of his throat. To think that such a curiosity would be directed to him, of all people and beings… well, he really can’t complain.

     He’d be lying if he said he wasn’t as equally- morbidly- curious himself.

in a sense, yes. in terms of what kind of nihilism fumus would present, itd be in the form of existential, moral and metaphysical.

the existential and metaphysical all deal with that despite the fact that he is god, and the world is what he made it as well as in his own mind, a reality he can do as he pleases with it in terms of creating and destroying as he sees fit, there is no meaning to what he does as far as his own position goes if hes going to simply ruin it later. he makes something, he breaks it. he creates, he destroys. he builds, he ruins. its ebbing and flowing with him. everything is of his own doing. everything is simply because he thought. nothing has a real intrinsic value or meaning to it because its something he has done and therefore only exists because of him.

the moral nihilism is exactly what i explained before in that he doesnt inherently believe theres right or wrong, good or bad. it just is. he doesnt care to know whether something is wrong or good, right or bad. an action is an action, its everyone else that simply seems to view it as what they will and essentially try to push their thoughts and feelings onto him and his view of everything. which leads back into the existential and metaphysical of his thought where they dont matter and do not exist, therefore he punishes. he can do as he will because in the end, its nothing. thats all it ever was and ever will be but he has some sort of fun with it in the end. because there are endless possibilities of the things he can do, the things he can make and the possibilities of tearing it all down again and making it anew.