#atmosphericlight

   Oh!!! Aurora! Thank you so much!!!!! I’ve stopped getting into the habit of joining these kind of positivity memes, buuuuuuttttt.....

   If you’re reading this!!!!

   I hope the day is going well for you! If it’s not, I hope things will change for the better soon. All of my followers are such amazing, creative people and please, don’t ever forget that!!! Your faves love you so, so much and nothing on this earth but your own decision would ever pull them apart from you....and even then, you’ll always hold a special, personal space in their heart and mind.

   “Oh man, that’s an amazing question! I’ve done a lot of traveling over the years, been to a lot of regions... Hmm. A favorite is hard to pick, but I guess if I had to say...

   “I’m pretty biased towards Johto. It’s not only beside my home region of Kanto, but I’ve also enjoyed all the places I’ve been to, as well! Top favorite spots are definitely Ilex Forest, Ruins of Alph, Goldenrod City, Lake of Rage, Ice Path, Blackthorn City, and- of course- Ecruteak City. Along with the Bellchime Trail, of course.

   I’ve been watching...so many Fallout lore vids by Oxhorn.... So I’ll talk about the loveliest synth in the Commonwealth~! ♡

   Stars above, he looks amazing like that...

   When I first was getting into Fallout, well... As usual, I was late to the hype. I’d even watched from afar the hype of the release of FO4! Though I missed it then, Fallout gave me a genre I originally wasn’t very interested in: post-apocalypse scenarios.      I never liked zombies- they either scared me too much or didn’t interest me at all- and the crumbling remains of humanity were cool, but lame compared to the colorful fantasy worlds I involved myself in. (Pokemon, Yu Yu Hakusho, Legend of Zelda, Invader Zim, etc.)

   Along with it, I was immediately enchanted...by Nick Valentine. How could I not?! His detective aesthetic (and lifestyle), along with his voice (as usual for me), his learned past, and...oh. My. Gosh. His humor. The “Bomb Story” is my favorite line from him and so, so funny. It makes me laugh every time I watch it~

   ...Of course, Bethesda was rude enough to not make him a romance option. While eventually I warmed to another romance option in the same vein (hi, John Hancock), but I was still definitely bitter over Nick....but hey, isn’t that what self-ship is for? ;>

   And so-! A friendly carrot of poly was made! John and Nick are pretty good friends, messing with each other on occasion and bonding over being the two most hated races in the Commonwealth. (Ghoul and synth solidarity.) And it’s a blast getting to roam with ‘em on rotation...or hang around home all together and have fun! Though Nick and I casually roast John and his chem addiction... We’re nudging him to ending it, but. We’ve got patience and pushing someone has done nobody any good, y’know?

   The days have flown by so fast.... I can’t believe it’s already time?!? Few more hours and we’re gonna be officially married, like...... Wow.

Nooo don't feel bad about that!

   slkgjfdksl, logically...I know I shouldn’t? But I also know I’ve been silent as hell on here with nothing to say for it. Inktober fell out, I don’t have the specific energy to keep up with Spooky Self-Ship even though I really wanted to try and get into that this time....

   I’ve been...mostly just existing?? Which should be fine, but if I don’t have anything to show I’ve been doing something I just end up feeling.....bleh. Which is where I’ve ended up here.

   No energy to do anything for self-ship content aside from talk about it, it’s unfair of me to ask people to drop energy in on that (in regards to ask-begging), and just....yeah.

Send a 🏆 in the inbox for an excuse to gush about any F/O

   It’s funny to think that.....all it took for me to get into Sally Face was being bored on YouTube and having time to spare. And to meet such a delight of a fictional man that I- the local scaredy cat- would even brave a game of horror, spooky stuff, and quite some gore/blood, just to keep going. To learn more.

   Falling for Sal was natural and easy. Didn’t even know how wrapped up I got into him until.....I just was. Blinking back to earth after chapter 4 and murmuring, “oh.”

   There’s no words to describe how I love Sally or how much. It’s really like falling for your best friend; that friendship just....boiled over at some point. Went from “he’s so precious! I want to protect him and help him find ghosts” into “I...really, really like you. More than I thought I would. Is it really okay if we hold hands?” He’s a reminder to myself to not care about the thoughts of others, and be happy just.....being me. 

   If I want to bind my chest, hide my hair, and be masculine, then he’ll be more than happy to find a summer dress and maybe braid his hair a little. Maybe he’ll teach me how to and we’ll laugh when I goof it up. If I get sad because I take it as him laughing at me, he’ll tell me how proud he is in a soft voice. Ask me to try again. Turning the instructions into a song that I’ll mutter to myself as I try to make it happen this time. And it probably won’t be perfect still, but I’ll get praised for it and flush in embarrassment.

   He makes me ramble like that! Ache to be soft! Want quiet moments with him and feel at peace in whatever we do.