#athousandtimesover

I learnt there were countless things you didn't like. Since when did I become one of them?

And silence is always the worst. Worse than anger, worse than harsh words, worse than everything that can be said. Words are forgotten, can be erased, silence moans loudly and pulls away every heart string and rings through even without the words.

Sometimes you'll look around and see that you're the one person who's helping everyone smile, but at the same time you're the saddest of everyone. It's at times like this that I want you to think about all the times that you've helped someone smile or laugh. I want you to think about all those days that you could have walked past a crying friend and not said a word. But you did. And this is when I want to tell yourself that you are the person who has been blessed with the courage to help. And you will never be sad. Ever.

Her eyes conveyed much more about her than her words ever could. Maybe that was her mistake. The fact that she could mask all her emotions behind those eyes. Her fears, her smiles, her worries, her happiness, her sadness, her love and everything in between. And yet, she could put together an array of words to make everyone around her feel together.

One day you’ll look at a picture of me and think that all I did was hurt you. When you do just remember that I never meant to hurt you. The only reason I did hurt you was in order to protect you from worse. And when you bump into me years from now and look into my eyes, you’ll find the same love that you find in my eyes now. Please remember.