#astatatsu

all things considered, you might be one of the only few people who can get tatsumi to stop working and relax.

it's something that is so ingrained into his being–the need to be useful, to not be a burden–that he is willing to neglect himself to the point of exhaustion just to make sure he isn't putting extra pressure on others. it may be a byproduct of his experiences overall, and reimei did nothing to help that awful habit.

it may have even exacerbated it, honestly.

he needs to be productive, lest he falls into a vice of his–overthinking.

he knows, theoretically, that trusting his own thoughts is a mistake. because no matter what direction his thoughts lead, he will always, always be the villain in the end.

oh, he knows what people see him as. kazehaya tatsumi, the idol. kazehaya tatsumi, who is a genius. kazehaya tatsumi, who people can look up to. kazehaya tatsumi, kazehaya tatsumi, kazehaya tatsumi. and he feels like a fraud, because that's not who he is. he wishes he could give up all pretenses and simply be the tatsumi seem to love so much.

asta's tatsumi, he thinks sometimes, in his most desperate moments. that's who i want to be. asta's tatsumi.

it's why he puts so much effort into your dates.

a time when he can just be himself. a time when he can be with you. his asta. he needs it to be perfect.

of course, you're bound to pick up on his anxiety and that moment when you take his hands in yours, that beautiful smile on your face–one that he's come to cherish–as you tell him, i'll love anywhere we go, anywhere you take me. because it's you who's with me, tatsumi swears his heart stops.

he doesn't need to be perfect, is what you're telling him. he just needs to be himself.

and so those outings are born.

outings where, if you're seeming too stressed or exhausted for his liking, tatsumi drags you out to do something. window-shopping dates, café dates, library dates–you name it. it might be with the rest of alkaloid, or it might just be with you two, but no matter what, you can guarantee that he's always by your side.

you come to adore these moments of fun.

he would follow you to the ends of the earth, tatsumi thinks, but it's nice to be the one leading sometimes.

and when tatsumi's mind keeps spinning and spinning and spinning and he's near either a breakthrough or a breakdown, seeing you smile and offer him a hand as you tell him, let's go do something fun, okay? is a blessing.

he thanks whatever deity was lucky enough to give him you, and prays he's never foolish enough to let you go.

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