#aspiringvoiceactor

December 30th, 2016 This past month has been pretty progressive for me. I am almost at the point where I am managing my time better to get in practice every day (or just about everyday). But I am always thinking about, listening to, and reading about VO. This is also the time of the year where everyone publishes their New Years goals. Well I already have goals and I don't need a change in the calendar date to put that plan into action. I feel more pulled and inspired by the moon cycles and planetary happenings to establish and carry out goals. I mean I'll probably make a few like exercise more and feed my family less chips, but I already have the good energy flowing through me. On another note I'm about to enroll in an acting class next month and it's going to be really challenging because it involves possibly finding childcare for my son or taking him to his dad's work once a week for a bit while I go to improv class. My boyfriend has a lot of say in it, which sucks, because he's the one with the money. I feel like since I have no money I have no say. And as much as he is resisting the idea of having a stranger watch our kid for a few hours once a week, I feel like it's something we need to do. It's something I need to do. I can't just base my voice acting education on days where he can watch our son. It makes me feel trapped and very frustrated. Also he still doesn't believe I'm really in it to win it. So I think that's why he isn't supporting me really at all. He still thinks this is another phase, and I try to explain to him how everything before wasn't what my heart wanted to do, it was more ego, or him making suggestions. Which is ridiculous! He keeps suggesting occupations for me that are nothing I would ever want to do, and he thinks that's ok. Just typing this is frustrating me. So enough of that, how about something good? Like I think I figured out how melody works in reading commercial copy! One day I tried to read it a certain way and it all clicked ! I don't know if it is right because I don't really have anyone to talk to. And I was entertaining the idea of narrating teen novels. I still don't know where my voice fits in, but it's an idea. So I think that's it so far. I've been using my equipment for practice, and my son touched a button on my computer so now it will ony worn a certain way. Which is fine until I have to start recording for reals. I do wish everyone much peace and love and inner light. Happy New Year

December 9th, 2016 I've been posting less lately because I've been trying to use my free time for VO practice and being on social media really sucks my free time away. I was just listening to Rob Paulson's podcast interview with EG Daily, and she mentions how the universe listens to us. Right then it reminded me how when I first found out I was pregnant I had a co-worker who was really into doing local theater and it kinda reignited my love for it. He encouraged me to join and I told him in about 2 years I could probably do it (after my son was born and he was older). Well funny thing is here we are. He's almost 3 and I haven't done any theater but I have acting back in my life! So she's right, I put out there in the universe that I wanted to do something I really love with my heart and a few years later; like I predicted; here I am. Every day reading, listening, practicing, thinking about acting. :)

November 27th, 2016 Success today! After lots of frustration, confusion, and reading I got my recording equipment hooked up! I have a lot more to learn but I successfully recoding myself talking into my microphone and played it back on my computer. And I have to say I am pleasantly surprised to how my voice sounds! This is the little boost I needed. I can do this!

November 20th, 2016 I feel like I've been making some real progress when it comes to actually making time to practice VO. I don't know if I can say the same for my skills, but that's ok cause it is happening, just very slowly. I have a Twitter account now (@candacestarr ) and it been gaining a little bit of momentum lately which it's really cool to met other voice actors and feel a little more connected and a little less isolated. The thing that's been weighing on my mind lately is the actual title of actor. I know that voice acting is acting first, so I need to be a competent and skilled actor, and I know I need to take classes and practice and learn so I can become a better one. The thing is I don't know if I should call myself an actor (or actress)? I've been doing community theater and school plays since I was about 5. I done a few Shakespeare plays, plus had one of the lead roll in two community theater productions. I haven't actually been in a play for about 10 years. This summer I did take an acting class, which was amazing and felt so good to do. But other that I really have no training. I tried to take an acting class at the local college when I was 18. But I dropped out because I wasn't feeling the group. There were too many people who were just there for credits and didn't care about the art. I'm not exactly sure how good of an actor I am except for the reviews I get from patrons who have seen my performances and occasionally give me feedback from time to time. I know too I need to have the mindset of an actor to really become one, but when I think of someone who calls themselves an actor I think of someone who lives in LA, is actively acting, and has some experience under their belt. I don't think of an actor as someone who used to do community theater and took an acting class. The thing is I'm probably never going to live in LA. And I don't have the freedom in my life right now to pursue any theatrical endeavors. So what do I do to get to a point where I can call myself an actor? Is it when I book my first job? Is it after I take a few more classes? I really do feel so isolated where I live and it would be nice to have some real life friends who are pursing similar things. *sigh*

Novemeber 14th, 2016 This full moon has feeling really empowered and motivated, with a full happy heart to help lead the way. I do have those pesky distractions popping up, and I am making a real effort to ter and rearrange my daily life so I can accomplish my goals. The things that I really want to do (voice acting, yoga, healthy mind and body, essential oils, getting in touch with my roots) make me happy and make me feel good. Things like spending too much time on Instagram, negative self talk, worry, looking dumb shit up on the Internet. Those things don't make my heart and soul fill full and happy. I am trying to find this new path, a balance in my life so I can feel good every day about my actions.