#aspirants

(Below is an extract from my 9th grade (2016-17) report card)

From then on, my life began revolving around that idea.I let it breathe in my chest,I let it settle beneath my bones.

On 3rd November 2025,

My phone screen glowed pink and all I saw was a blur of the word "successful" before I crumbled to the floor in tears.

"Were they tears of happiness or relief?" 

To be honest, I still haven't figured it out.

But what I do know is, every minute I spent chasing this dream, was absolutely worth it.The high hopes, the fall from grace, the hiccups, the devotion, everything was worth it.

And the only thing I know for certain is this:

"What a privilege it is to fall in love with a dream, to be consumed by it, to tend to a heart that cracked under the pressure of carrying it and slowly watch it come to life by your side."

Grateful to everybody who believed in me.Grateful to everything that brought me here.

One chequered flag down, here's to a million more!

Thank you to everybody who followed my journey through this blog.

@kookiepixel @rosesrded @amanifestingmaven @moonlight-n-moondust @stargazerbibi @cravingstudyvalidation @esperaticoax @luckyprincesscat and many more..truly sorry to all the other names I missed.

Vexana and guinevere aspirants

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DAY BY DAY IT'S INCREASING 

         IT'S AN ENDLESS WAR MY FRIEND

                 THAT HAS NO END. 

IF I WANT TO SURVIVE AND TO BE FIT 

       I'VE NONE OTHER OPTION THAN 

COMPETE. 

THOUGHTS OF GIVING UP OR GIVE THE LIFE A FULL STOP,

         TANGLING IN MIND 

   WHAT WILL I DO  IF CAN'T CRACK,

             WITH THIS LIFE.

DAY OR NIGHT,NIGHT OR DAY

         HAVE NO IDEA, 

COUNTING THE NUMBERS DEDUCTION

Just posting this for roleplay-reasons as quick reference!