#ask-ash-jacobson

Wow. Just wow. 2013 has been quite an interesting year for me. Despite everything that happened to me, It's been really fun. 

let me start about my muse Ash Jacobson. Originally I intended for her to be a country oc. First attempt I wanted her to be more of a city personification than a country (;w; I don't know a whole lot of countries and If I did I'd do a lot of extensive research so I don't offend anyone!) First I intended her to be the representation of Tokyo. Well, that didn't go too well.....and plus I was in that otaku and what did they call people......weaaboo? Yeah I was that around my teen years and right when I started watching Hetalia. 

As I grew older and more mature (aka, this is where the mun gets a slap to the face and a huge wake up call to grow up) I stopped watching Hetalia for a bit, and moved to other fandoms like Bleach, Naruto, D-Grayman (oh what an anime that was....) But then my world fell apart. My grades in highschool were dropping and I was battling depression. I even attempted suicide a few times because I was bullied nonstop. I gave up writing, gave up creating new oc's and well.....life itself. It grew progressively worse too because I was threatened once or twice about being kicked out before I graduated. My friends left me, all except one who helped me get back on my feet. 

anyway, I went back to watching Hetalia close to the end of my senior year of high school, and I took a train ride to visit a childhood friend of mine. She was really into the show and I only watched a few clips (because really. five minutes wasn't enough for me) so I started watching more with her. The more I watched it, it made me laugh. It made me cry. it made me hate and love the characters because they're special and unique in their own way. So that's when I started trying to create a hetalia oc of mine once again. 

So Ash, originally was a random oc i came up with. Thanks to starting Hetaloid guides from my old account, AshFlames on Deviantart. She used to go by Rei, but more people started calling me Ash because of my username. So Ash was her official name. Then, I decided, 'What if she represents London?' (because I LOVE the UK and it's rich history and culture!) but I also loved Paris because of the architecture and art. but if I created an oc that's a country for both France and UK, I thought I'd be god moding her and people would dislike her. So I decided she would be human in a Hetalia Human!AU. The more I role played her character with others, the more I grew to love her not only as my oc but as a person. That's how I feel when people make these askblogs. Because creating that blog, au, and character is something people dedicate themselves and put so much effort and research into them. 

When I started this ask blog back in March of 2013, I was so nervous about posting anything so I remained anon. I didn't know where to start, or who to talk to. So I abandoned this account for a good three months (that and I was busy with school and looking for work) and focused more on my main blog, AshFlames. I also started looking at other blogs, and the more i read their storyline I fell in love with the artwork, and the plot so I started following them. Though I was too terrified to ask them anything but when I decided to 'man up' and send in asks, Not only did I get to know the muse, but the muns as well. I also got to talk to a few and I haven't regret it since. I even role play with a few and I just have so much fun. The more involved I got with this blog, I met so many lovely people and gained a lot of followers. But It's not the followers I want to focus on. 

No it's not. I merely wanted to do this ask blog in hopes I can improve my (lack of) drawing skills, as well as meet so many people. I love my tumblr friends and I love their muses. Talking to them, even if it's just a small paragraph just makes my whole day. 

So to anyone who reads this thank you. To anyone I've spoken to this year and got to know you, thank you for being my friend. Thank you for a wonderful year. Let's hope we can make 2014 even better!

With all my love,