#ask phii

6: do you like originals or remakes?originals by far,,remakes kinda irritate me? i like them but they get dull rly quick for me after beating it as opposed to originals since they offer new stuff always and its just more fun for me, i love the nostalgia but it gets old fast;;

12: what was your first level 100?

the first one w/o my brothers help was probably? my braixen to be completely honest? i was never too into leveling them up super high when i was younger? my first one with my brothers help was either charizard or mew.

34: do you remember your first pokemon's nickname, if you nicknamed it? 

oh my god this was my childhood too? its so devastating to learn that there are dozens apon hundreds of people who feel/felt the same. i was always envious of white girls with blond hair and blue eyes and "fair porcelain skin"? like that was all i wanted bc i never saw things saying brown hair, skin, and eyes were beautiful, not in dolls, cartoons, songs, movies, n o t h i n g!!! let alone being bullied by racist white kids wasn't enough, media never helped me to see myself as beautiful, ever. i didn't learn to love myself and my gorgeous skin, dark eyes, and kick ass hair till my late teens? and i still struggle with it today? like white people don't fucking understand how devastating it is to want to kill yourself as a child because you don't look like what everyone else thinks is the only way to be beautiful, and they never fucking will!!! being made fun of bc youre dark or have darker hair growing in places that aren't """"""normal""""" (im looking at you white girls who make fun of ppl with dark lip hair/dark arm hair, i fucking see you and i fucking hate you) it fucking sucks. its soul crushing bc you cant control it, esp not when youre young. but no? kids dont see color!! not at all!! they cant tell!! fuck off. kids are smart and they pick up on that shit. just because you mayostains dont notice because you're fuckin everywhere, doesn't mean children of color dont, bc they DO. it breaks my heart when my little cousins talk abt wanting lighter hair and eyes bc they're not reassured by media (directed at their demographic EVEN) that they're beautiful just the way they are, brown skin and all. and ill fucking fight you if you dare say that they don't notice and representation doesn't matter bc it does, more than you'll ever dream to understand, you ignorant sacks of birdshit.

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