#ask march

16.) Did you learn anything about your sexuality this year?

Nope. It’s pretty settled.

17.) What are some hobbies that you developed?

I didn’t so much develop any new hobbies, so much as I rediscovered my old ones. My plants, for one. Oh, I had forgotten how much I love plants, how happy they make me. Hiking and running, getting that back has been a great joy. There’s something beautiful about running until you can’t think about anything but your lungs, your muscles. Painting again. I’ve never been particularly good, but I’m not particularly bad either. So far it’s been small projects, like painting a desert scene on the back of a denim jacket. The next project is painting a star scene on my black Chucks. I’m planning on restarting yoga and dance too, when the vaccine is more widely available. Getting healthy again has been a slow, uphill climb, but I’m happy to do it.

20.) How did this year treat you in general?

I’m luckier than a lot of people right now. I have a stable place to live, even if it’s not an ideal situation. I got a job that pays more than the one I lost. I’m being considered for an even better job that will pay me enough to have independence again, + health insurance. I’ve managed to avoid the virus, despite the fact I work in a grocery store right now. (Much as I am not a fan of this ‘small town’ thing, it does have the upside of not having really any local outbreaks, just a few cases) The chronic dry eye I was experiencing cleared up, and I was able to get contact lenses again, and they make transition lenses in my prescription now! Peripheral vision and sun protection!

And, while I know it’s a bit much, this marks a year and almost seven months sober for me. I maintained it despite a pandemic breaking out, despite unemployment, and again, despite my less-than-ideal living situation. There’s been moments of temptation, but always I had the voice in my head reminding me of how shitty it actually made me feel. It’s small, but I take a lot of pride in that.

4.) What was the biggest change you experienced this year?

Being able to experience actual happiness again. Like being able to feel it. I hadn’t realized how long it had been since I had been able to feel genuinely happy until during the summer, when I completed a five mile moderate-level trail, and was smiling without even realizing it. Everything inside felt different, lit up in a way I’d only had in like, short little bursts for a a very long time. But it was lasting that time.

10.) How was your love life this year?

7.) What’s one thing that happened this year that you want to change?

Let’s leave aside all the big ones, the world-changing things I have no control over.

I wish I could change my current driver’s license photo. I was stressed as hell over the whole issue and I don’t look like myself at all.

19.) Do you look different from the beginning of the year?

Yes. I look radically different. For one, I kept losing weight. I wasn’t trying to, but a combo of a better diet and a lot more exercise has gotten me back to my old size. I also found someone who could cut curly hair, after spending a long time growing my hair out from the hack job someone else did (BTW, “Of course I can cut curly hair” =/= “using a round brush to straighten it and then cutting it”). The woman who cut it this time knew what she was doing, and my hair bounced back, healthy and curly. I also dyed it so I’m a redhead. Being outside more and better eating has also improved my skin, and the redness I was worrying about has faded back to being just in my cheeks where it’s supposed to be. I look much healthier and happier.

24.) Who has made the biggest impact in your life this year?

7.) What’s one thing that happened this year that you want to change?

I wish I’d bullied you into writing this haunted house fic.

22.) Has your fashion style changed this year?

More like regressed. When I had gained weight, I starting hiding myself behind layers and layers. Now that I’m back to my old size, I’m back to colored/patterned tights, Star Trek-short skirts and shorts, and shirts that show as much cleavage as I like.

despite the combined efforts of working full time, going to school part time, starting a professional internship while decreasing my work hours, and diving into a backlog of studying for impending boards, I'm still alive and kicking!

f&s has never been far from my mind. it's something I well and truly want to come back to - but first, I need things sorted irl, and that's at least another six months of dragging myself (and my hopefully more cooperative brain) kicking and screaming through the trenches.

I have a couple of tattoos. I actually got my first on my eighteenth birthday. It's some flash art off the wall, about the size of a quarter, on the inside of my wrist. Because I was eighteen and dumb.

Omg I need to replay the christmas special weeps I love him so much I wasn wondering why he sounded so depressed???? The only times when he was depressed was when he got injured And the Christmas Dlc because he didnt have a special someone to spend it with

But thanks for telling me!!! I’ll see if I cant scout out that call.