#ask firefly

100% yes

just having a really sad few days, i was away walking and camping last weekend and adjusting to college life after that has been really difficult, also i like a boy and am lusting after another guy and its a very frustrating time

I desperately want to go back to Iceland, Id love to spend a season in New Zealand and I want to travel throughout Scandinavia :) and no not really, there are some people I don’t talk to as much as I used to but no one that I don’t talk to at all that I wish I could.

I’m not sure I have any major regrets, lots of little ones like “oh god why did I say that” “I wish I hadn’t worn that” etc but nothing huge, which I’m grateful for. Biggest cause for optimism long term is my faith, and short term is knowing I get to spend a whole summer and possibly longer with a group of incredible people in an outdoor centre in Scotland, doing what I have wanted I love with people that inspire me, in a beautiful location :)

Honestly its a toss up between my first kiss, which was in a park aged 13, and it was sunny (doesn't happen lots in wales, it’s a big deal) with my first boyfriend, it was so full of innocence and excitement,  and this guy at college who’s not someone I want to date at all, but we kiss sometimes and it’s beautifully meaningless, neither of us want to date each other or sleep with each other, in the Killer’s words, it was only a kiss. This was an interesting one to answer because so many of my memories of kisses are surrounded by feelings of guilt, or not wanting to be there, or pressure to have sex, but those two are two of the few that really aren’t.

I’m not really a poem kind of person, I prefer novels really, there are a couple of poems out of the ones we studied for GCSE English that I loved but I don’t remember then names of them. I haven’t been on many official dates but I think my ideal would be baking cakes or cookies with them, watching a film and having snacks and tea and talking about weirdly deep stuff or maybe just what our fave marvel films are?

I’ve never heard of that before, I’ll have to look it up. I’m not sure there are any items I couldn’t live without (aside from food etc), but my 3 most treasured things are probably my laptop, phone and headphones, because they allow my to read books, talk to people I love all around the world and listen to music.

I’m not sure, either that I’m constantly assuming they all dislike me and scared of them rejecting me, or the fact that I have asperger’s syndrome, as I only tell that to people in my life I really trust (and tumblr)