#ask bindy

Here ya go! My snake shifting, poisonous, coffee loving artist!

Your incredible talent and compassion have come through personal hardship, but have resulted in feeling more comfortable with yourself today (or should because you are awesome). 💜

Oh my gosh you really love up to the first half of your url Gem 😭😭😭 it took me so long to post because I was too fluttery to reply

Talent is a tricky concept because we all have our skills, if you're talking about art specifically, I learned how to draw through doodling in class because I didn't give a shit about school after some pretty hard stuff happened, and didn't understand math or science (I started skipping school regularly in grade 4 and so I had no foundation to build upon) but now that I'm older and I have such a thirst for knowledge, I'd love to go back and soak up all that education that I missed. I guess I did get a hobby out of doodling though.

I had this really fucking stupid phase where I tried SUPER hard to be "normal" and I rejected all of my hobbies and interests because I considered them "weird" and was really uncomfortable with myself. I gave up fandom, drawing and lolita for an embarrassingly long time and I have no memories from that period so being "normal" wasn't super memorable for me.

As for compassion, I'm going to come off as really arrogant here, but it really sucks to care this much about everyfuckingthing tbh. I take things on that don't belong to me and I can empathize too easily, which means I give things I shouldn't give (and often end up regretting the things I've given for various reasons which is kinda shitty of me tbh.) Ask me how many stray people I've taken in over the past 8 years... I even got robbed by one of them FFS. There's been a lot of harm done but I never seem to learn or set boundaries on what I'm willing to do for people.

Despite being compassionate (to a fault 😖😣) you're right. I am really, truly comfy with myself these days. and I've come to accept who I am, what I like, and how I interact with the world and others. I do recognize that I have a lot of flaws though. I talk too much, I divulge too much ("I'm an open book" she says 😒) and I can be A LOT sometimes, but I do love with my whole heart.