{ in the waaaaay beginning, horuss didn't really have any feelings or thoughts to damara at all. she was just simply a rustblood to him that he didn't see why he should even care about her feelings which is why he had no qualms in seeing rufioh while he was with her. it wasn't meant to be anything serious but once it became that way and she found out he didn't care about whisking him away from her.

he felt more entitled to filling his own quadrants anyway, because he was so higher up on the spectrum and so he felt as if he was better than her. that hasn't changed.

he didn't feel threatened by her because he had what he wanted. it's not really until he lost rufioh that he started to form more of a disdain toward her especially after learning that they were getting to be on good terms. he felt threatened and he now he feels like he took advantage of that and used everything that she could to get him to snap.

oh man damara

he used to really dislike her, mostly out of jealousy for the way she had with cheering john up right after they would fight. after talking it over with john, though, he started trying not do dislike her as much. to make john happy or something