#artisansoup

love

because i wont

have i ever mentioned to you

past

because i wont

have i ever mentioned to you 

truth

because i wont

these are fragments of myskin

burrowed in

have i ever mentioned to you

fear

because if i haven't

you'll see it

 every day when you look at me

i wear it like a cloak

i bathe in it i walk in it

i have terrors burning the bottoms of my feet like coals

struggling to find ground

i can't find roots 

my tree doesn't grow anymore

because 

i'm scared of every leave

my branches twist like omens

sometimes i can't see the sun

sometimes i need some space 

because i can't breathe

because i might just be there now

floating.

growing.

it's something i've done a lot of

but it's all been internal 

sometimes my bark looks

like it could build bridges

stretching into your life

instead of walls

closing me in

sometimes my heart pounds

love through me until flowers grow

instead of leaves

and i think maybe 

i wont leave

maybe i'll fall

down the rough roots

maybe they'll grow strong

maybe with them