hi! long time so see!! how are you all? i feel like there’s some stuff we should chat about, don’t you?
let’s start with the elephant in the room, where did i go? well truth be told, i logged out and when i went to come back it was gone!
i was actively going through my blog and revamping everything. that was 100% what i was doing. i wasn’t hiding from anyone, i wasn’t hiding bad behavior. i was rebranding my blog.
now, let’s jump into the drama filled bullshit my name seems to be floating in right now.
i was in a discord group, ran by another blog where she posted updates on her wip’s and so on and so forth. well, there was a good group in there. i liked most of the people (i’ll get into that soon!). so a group of us, said fuck it we ball, and all bought tickets to rockville.
we all decided to spilt an airbnb. no biggie right. Gabi paid for it. I’ll be honest, she put it on her credit card (as far as i am aware, that is what she had told us.) and we’d pay her when we could. payments in chunks, or the whole lump sum.
i hadn’t paid yet. at that point, i had family discussing going also, so i informed the whole group chat that, and if he had chosen to go, i wouldn’t stay at the bnb. (cause id rather stay with family. someone who knew me, i knew them ya know?) no biggie, there were other girls who very easily could take my spot in that airbnb.
which is what kinda happened, i moved. i pulled out, i sold my ticket. no one seemed to be mad.
let me say this, i paid for my ticket in whole. my own money.
so, i have no proof, however from word of mouth, screenshots of a group chat i was in were shared.
tldr, i was talking shit. with 2 friends, who were also talking shit, about some of the girls we were gonna be going with.
which yeah, be upset. i understand. your feelings are valid, especially in that.
let’s remember, they were talking shit too. and it’s very clear on their current blogs, they still are btw.
which leads me into my next point.
1) i don’t send anyone hate, ive never sent them hate. quite honestly i wish them all the well in the world and i hope they have a fabulous time at these festivals. i feel like i should add, my other blog where i do post my wip’s are blocked from a handful of accounts. they have me blocked, i have them blocked. every blog i have (which this makes 2) @as-above-so-below1000 knows about and sees.
2) i don’t and have never stolen anything i’ve written. you can ask @as-above-so-below1000 who has seen my google docs! and i don’t appreciate that kinda rumor being spread, no one wants to hear that kinda rumor. no one. and if there was anyone who ever had an issue with what i posted, please reach out. let’s chat it out.
3) i’ve never sent myself anon hate, i feel like that should be self explanatory but unfortunately that’s a narrative going around.
4) if my blog wasn’t a safe space for you, i’m sorry. i never wanted that to happen. and if there was ever a time you felt my actions were not acceptable, i take full accountability because sometimes i did get heated and upset and post before thinking.
5) i will not ever apologize for calling out the bad behavior i had prior. i stand by the fact writing SA, not tagging it, blocking the person who kindly said this isn’t okay, and then never saying anything is wrong.
it’s middle of April guys, i left in January. it’s time to let things go. truthfully i am ready to let things be done. it is what it is. i want things to be done, this will be all im saying.
however i cant sit back and see my name on things i have no doing in.
i am not coming back, quite honestly these space feels very unsafe and kinda toxic and especially now. but please know, i never meant to leave. i wasn’t running away, there’s been so many of my old mutuals and followers who have found me and still interact and for you all, thank you.
