#artf

right, art?

Artfight attack for @artofeden / @returntosunder

Eden belongs to....the ppl up top

I've been writing since 2010 (which was back in high school for me) and I've gathered a ton of experience in writing for myself and sharing only a select few of pieces. I even went to college for creative writing and later joined a co-working space to learn the business side of it. That went completely bad, but I'll save that story for later in the week.

The one thing they don't teach you whither it's business or in the creative field is to understand what you're trying to do and why. I've seen plenty of online YouTube coaches with plenty of advice on how to start a creative business, but for me, the trouble lies much deeper.

What am I doing? I'm not just a writer. I'm not just an artist. I don't just have these skills in code and accessibility that I still want to use. I have an interest in mixing genres (particle sci-fi fantasy, and cosmic horror) formats, styles, mediums, etc. I have an interest in TTRPG, video games, 2D animation.

I struggle with all of it except for the story aspect. I see the story as clearly as watching Studio Ghibli or Sailor moon on the TV. Critical Role or Devil May Cry even!

I've done so much writing, prep my first book, plan my illustrations, yet something is missing. I know what it is and I see it when I watch "Howl's Moving Castle" and yet I don't like the aspect of developing stories just to heal. I don't fully understand how my extremely horrifying story that is dark, dangerous, and highly emotional can still have cozy moments that heal.

I have asked for help from many people and they all seem to think I'm asking basic questions about how to start it. It's not that. The question goes so deep that I can't describe what it is anymore.

It's like I'm missing a bit of nostalgia or something for the old 90s books and cartoons, but I don't understand what to do with this feeling in my work. Understanding what I'm trying to do and what is missing is a key component for me figuring out what my next steps are. Perhaps I'll figure it out with this Tumblr blog.

The start of my 2023 artfight thread!