This Shadowed Land
Chapter 9: The Hardest Goodbye
A/N: Artemis struggles to say farewell to two of her nearest and dearest.
Warnings: discussion of death and fascism, the eternal difficulty of getting oneâs cat in a carrier...
August passed, as it always did, but this year, the world shifted with each day. By the end of the first week of the new Ministerâs reign, the Muggleborn Registration Commission was fully operative, the office being run by none other than Dolores Umbridge, a toady witch who had previously campaigned against the rights of werewolves.
Artemis had to avert her eyes each time she passed her in the Ministry buildings. Sheâd become almost used to the deadened look of those working for the Ministry under the Imperius Curse, but the fervent look in Madam Umbridgeâs eyes chilled and nauseated her. Umbridge was not acting of her own free will, she was relishing in her new role. A new pamphlet warning against the risks Muggleborns posed to the magical community was being printed, and new laws curtailing the rights of Muggleborns were being passed each week. By the end of the month, Muggleborns were no longer allowed to purchase wands, open a bank account at Gringotts, or be featured on Chocolate Frog cards.
Though the Prophet did not report it, the international magical community was in uproar. Artemis had learned from Murphy McNully that in protest of the Ministryâs new legislation, the Ballycastle Bats and Kenmare Kestrels had left the British and Irish Quidditch League, leaving the Department of Magical Games and Sports confused as to whether they should change the leagueâs name. Furthermore, several countries had refused to participate in the following yearâs Quidditch World Cup if the British countries were allowed to compete.
The support from overseas was being well-used by the Order of the Phoenix and their allies. Fleurâs parents had managed to help several Muggleborns, Penny and her family included, escape to France within days of the Death Eatersâ coup, and Charlie had put them in touch with a network of international dragonologists he had been cultivating in the past two years.
But it wasnât easy. The Order was low in numbers, and increasingly, Muggleborns were panicking and acting on their own before they could be reached. Many had already signed onto the Muggleborn register for fear of what might happen if they didnât, and others had simply gone missing. Only days after Remus had returned home to her, Tonksâ father had disappeared into the night, refusing both to sign the register or hide overseas in safety while others suffered. And he wasnât the only one of Artemisâ friends to vanish. Barnaby Lee, though not a Muggleborn himself, had not returned home from work the previous Thursday. His wife Ellie had sent her apologies into the Auror office every day since.
âItâll be his dadâs doing, I bet,â Tonks said to Artemis on the sixth day of Ellieâs absence. She was less withdrawn now that Remus was back with her, though still paler than usual. âItâs a shame. Ellieâs good craic. Now the only person I can rely on to be any fun around here is you.â
Artemis was quiet. Tonks frowned at her.
âDonât tell me youâre planning on leaving for Romania with Charlie tomorrow.â
âNo,â said Artemis, quickly. âI havenât got any plans at all.â
It was a lie. She had been planning all month, ever since Tonks had explained how people had managed to escape from Azkaban in the past. Sheâd passed her plan onto Kingsley, and together, they had refined it into something that actually stood a chance of working. In less than a week, she and Kingsley would enter Azkaban prison for the first time. Only Kingsley would leave. Artemis would become yet another missing person. No one else would know where she was.
Except, perhaps, Tonks.
âYouâre kidding,â she said, her eyes widening with realisation. âYou canât seriously be thinking about going through withâ â Artemis shushed her, and she lowered her voice â âwhat we talked about the other week.â
âIâm not thinking. Iâm doing it.â Tonks opened her mouth as if to argue, and Artemis crossed her arms in front of her chest. âIâm going to do it, Tonks. You canât talk me out of it.â
âI wasnât going to.â
She was lying, Artemis could tell. Both of them were quiet for a few moments.
âHave you said anything about it to Bill and Charlie?â Tonks asked, eventually. Artemis shook her head.
âBill would definitely try to talk me out of it. And CharlieâŠâ
Charlie knew her well enough to know when her mind was made up about something, knew better than to try and change it. If anything, he was likely to try and help her. Maybe that was why sheâd delayed telling him about it until now, the day he was due to return to Romania. She didnât want him to help. She wanted him to go back to the safety of the mountains and spruce trees and alpine meadows, that wild beauty to which he belonged. She wanted him to leave, and she didnât want to have to say goodbye.
But she did have to say something to him. And with his Portkey leaving that evening, she couldnât put it off any longer. She left work early â it was hardly like they could fire her, she had plans to go missing next week â and travelled with Fergus the cat to the Burrow, only to find it eerily quiet. Mr Weasley was still at work, Mrs Weasley was not home, and all the other boys had moved out. Only Charlie and his sister Ginny remained, along with the ghoul in the attic, who was still dressed in Ronâs clothes.
Fergus gave a doleful miaow as he padded hopefully into the kitchen, found it empty, and followed Artemis upstairs. On the first floor, Ginnyâs bedroom door was open, and the youngest Weasley was sitting on her bed with a Muggle musical headband on, staring out the window.
âHey, Gin,â Artemis said, and Ginny removed the headband. The music continued to play from it as it hung around her neck, a womanâs voice singing an angsty tune. âWhereâs your mum?â
âGone to visit Andromeda. Sheâs worried about her with Ted gone,â replied Ginny. âSo sheâs taken her over a casserole.â
âRight.â Artemis nodded, though she was not sure what use a casserole was going to be in this situation. She looked at Ginnyâs Muggle music machine. âIs that Charlieâs?â
âYeah, I should go and give it back to him, really. Heâs upstairs packing now.â
âI can take it up there for you, if you like?â
Ginny shook her head and gave a mischievous smile. âIâm hoping heâll forget about it so I can just keep it.â
Artemis laughed and left Ginny to her moody music. One more flight of stairs up, she found Charlie in the room that he had once shared with Bill. A duffel bag made of khaki-coloured canvas with brown leather straps was open on the bed in front of him. As she entered the room, he turned his face towards her and gave her the most genuine smile she had seen in days.
âHello you,â he said quietly. As Fergus rubbed a ginger cheek against his shin, he dropped his gaze downwards. âAnd you, too. Whatâs Fergus doing here?â
âHeâs coming with you,â Artemis told Charlie. His eyebrows furrowed, and she sat down on the bed facing him. âCharlie, I need to tell you something.â
âAlrightâŠâ
âThereâs a job Iâve got to do.â
âFor the Order?â
âSort of.â Charlie looked unconvinced. âNot really. Well, no. Iâve come up with it myself, but itâs to help the Order. Kingsley knows about it.â
âRight.â Charlie paused. âAnd what is it youâll be doing? Is it⊠dangerous?â
âIâm going to be breaking Muggleborns out of Azkaban.â
A moment passed. Charlie breathed in.
âYes, then,â he said.
âYeah.â
He looked as if he were trying to solve a difficult sum. âAnd Kingsley⊠Does he think this is a good idea?â
âI had to talk him around, but he thinks itâs as good as any. It can work, and Iâm maybe the only person we know who can make it work.â Artemis raised her chin. âMy mindâs made up.â
âI can see that.â Another breath, then Charlie told her, âIâll help you.â
Of course he would. Artemis shook her head, but he continued before she could interrupt him.
âIâve been thinking ever since the wedding that itâs wrong, me going back to Romania, what with everything going on back here. This gives me something to do, I can stay and help you with this Azkaban thing.â
âNo, you canât.â
âWhy not?â
âWell, for one, Azkaban is full of Dementors and you canât cast a corporeal Patronus.â If Charlie was offended by the bluntness of Artemisâ comment, he didnât show it. Artemis carried on, âAnd anyway, you have your own stuff to do in Romania. Important things.â
âIâm not the only person who could get us allies. With the number of witches and wizards planning on leaving the country right now, thereâs bound to be plenty of people who could do a better job than me.â
âThatâs not true. Hardly anyone is as good at making people like you as you are. Besides, Iâm not talking about allies. Iâm talking about my cat.â She looked down at Fergus, lying on his side in the middle of Charlieâs old room, watching the end of his own tail as it flicked back and forth. âI need you to take him and look after him in Romania. Heâll be safer there than he will be here, where he might get lost or hurt or run into Death Eaters, and heâll be happier there, too. He was really happy when we came to live with you.â
Like Charlie, Fergus could belong in Romania. For now, and forever, if it came to that. They could keep each other company, out in the vast expanse of wilderness that Artemis had briefly called home. She sighed, and shuffled so that her back could rest against the wall beside the bed.
âSo was I, you know,â she said. âSometimes I think that might have been the happiest Iâve ever been in my whole life.â
When he spoke, Charlieâs voice was barely louder than a whisper.
âMe too.â
âI know it shouldnât have been, because of everything that was happening back home, but it didnât feel so real or frightening then. It feels real now.â
âYeah, it does,â said Charlie. He swallowed. âIâll take Fergus for you.â
Artemis twisted up onto her knees and wrapped her arms around him in a tight hug, which he returned after a few moments. The flannel of his shirt was soft and downy, and smelt like the honeysuckle tree in the garden.
âThank you,â she said, before releasing her hold on him. She looked him in the eye. âAnd, Charlie, if anything bad happens to meââ
Charlie stiffened and leaned away from her, ever so slightly. âNothing bad is going to happen to you.â
âYeah, but if it does, I want to sayââ
âDo you have a box?â
Confused by the abrupt change of subject, Artemis wrinkled her nose. âWhat?â
âFor Fergus,â said Charlie. âDo you have a box I can take him in?â
âOh, no. No, I forgot. But, Charlie, I really need toââ
âI think thereâs one in the broomshed. Iâll go and find it for you.â
Before Artemis could do or say anything to stop him, Charlie had risen from the bed, crossed the room, and left it. At her feet, Fergus gave a noise halfway between a purr and a growl.
âExactly, Ferg,â Artemis agreed. She sighed loudly and used both of her hands to push her hair back from her face, her fingertips scraping against her scalp as she did so.
The evening sunlight was shining through the bedroom window, illuminating the twin beds and the walls behind their headboards. Even though Bill and Charlie had left home years ago, their old bedroom still had the same things pinned up on display: a little red and gold flag, an orange Chudley Cannons scarf, a few hand-drawn illustrations of dragons, one poster of the Weird Sisters, another of a Muggle lady in a gold bikini, yet another of the pyramids, and several postcards and white-rimmed square photos. Artemis half-smiled to herself as she looked around at the relics of a lifetime that felt far longer ago than it was.
Eventually, she decided that she should go and find Charlie, so she made her way back through the house and back out to the garden, where she found not only Charlie, but his older brother. The two of them were talking in low voices, and as they noticed her approaching, Charlie held up an old and battered-looking wicker cat basket.
âLook what I found,â he said cheerily. Beside him, Bill did not look at all cheery. He regarded Artemis with a look of anxious reprehension that made her stomach churn.
âYou told him?â she asked Charlie, who shook his head. âThen howââ
âTonks came to see me at work,â Bill explained. He took a deep breath. âArtemis, have you considered how stupidly dangerous this is?â
Artemis nodded. âYes.â
âYou realise that if you get caught, the Death Eaters know you have links to members of the Order, so youâll probably be tortured for information?â
âYes.â
âAnd if they realise that you know how to get out of Azkaban, they wonât be able to keep you there. Youâll be killed orââ
âI know.â
ââ worse, the Dementorâs Kiss...â Bill shuddered and looked at Artemis with pleading eyes. âYou need to think before you decide to do this.â
âIâve already thought, and I have already decided,â Artemis told him. âIt has to be done, and it has to be me who does it.â
âEven if it means you die trying?â
âArtemis knows what sheâs doing, Bill,â Charlie said shortly. He gave the cat basket to Artemis. âHere, we should get him inside before he realises that somethingâs up and makes a run for it.â
It was as if Fergus had heard and understood Charlie, for barely had he finished his sentence before the cat had stiffened, back arched and fur raised on end. In an instant, he turned tail and darted into the long grass. Charlie sprung after him and dove into the grass, emerging with his arms covered in scratches and a hissing, spitting, writhing Fergus held tightly against his chest.
âSwap.â Artemis half-threw the basket towards Charlie and held out her arms. âHe wonât scratch me.â
But Fergus did scratch her, again and again and again, as she tried in vain to get him into the Weasleysâ old cat basket. She was on the brink of crying when Bill pointed his wand at the now-feral Fergus, and called out:
âImmobulus!â
The spell hit Fergus on his flank, and his struggling movements became so slow they were almost imperceptible. While she had the chance, Artemis pushed him into the basket and locked the door closed.
âIâm sorry,â she whispered, stroking Fergusâ ears through the bars with a single finger. âIâm really sorry, Ferg. But you have to go with Charlie. Heâll look after you, I swear it. Iâm sorry. I love you.â
âItâs for his own good,â said Charlie, as Artemis backed away. âAt least this way he wonât hurt himself if he gets upset by the Portkey spinning.â
âI know,â she replied. She used the heel of her hand to push her tears away from her cheeks. âItâs just⊠I donât want that to be how he remembers me, thatâs all.â
âHeâll have forgotten about it and forgiven you by the time you see him again.â
Charlie was smiling his good-natured smile at her. It did not make her feel any better.
âWhat if I never get to see him again?â
âOf course youâll see him again, Artie.â
Artemis blinked back a fresh round of tears and shook her head. âWhat if we never get to see each other again?â
âWe will,â said Charlie. He sounded far more assured of it than either Artemis felt or Bill looked. âWe will see each other again. We are all going to see each other again.â
His voice was steady and his tone final. Both he and Artemis looked across at Bill, who rolled his eyes and let out a soft, resigned-sounding sigh. Artemisâ front teeth grazed her bottom lip.
âBill is just being cautious,â Charlie continued. âDonât let him scare you.â
âIâm not scared, Charlie,â Artemis said indignantly. âI mean, I am, butââ
âDonât be.â
ââ not the way you mean. I just wantââ
âYouâll be alright.â
ââto say goodbye.â
But Charlie shook his head. âIâm not saying goodbye.â
Artemis looked in disbelief at Bill, but he had averted his eyes. Charlie picked up Fergusâ basket in one hand, and wrapped the other arm around her shoulders.
âIâm saying see you soon,â he said. He squeezed gently. âBecause I will see you soon, I promise.â
Charlie had never broken a promise to Artemis before, but she knew that this time, he might have to. And she could not make him see that, because for the first time, he would not listen to her. By the time he and Fergus left with their Portkey, Artemis had given up trying to say any of the things she wanted to say to him, even goodbye.





