I both love and hate being arofluid and ace
like sometimes I'm completely aroace and feel guilty bcs I dont have the ability to love my gf romantically
but sometimes its nice to be free of that feeling bcs its super overwhelming sometimes
and then when im alloromantic its just normal and im like "huh maybe im actually just... normal? and not all of these things?"
then when im HYPERROMANTIC I cant stop thinking about her and everything and then im just sitting in my room feeling lonely and like the only thing that could give me any purpose in life is being with her but then it makes splitting (especially when it involves her) WAY worse
I made a playlist for it even
ive also found my music taste changes with it- like when im more leaning towards hyperromantic I tend to go for more stuff like STYXVII femtanyl and STOMACH BOOK but when im just allo I listen to pretty much just anything im in the mood for, but aro days i listen to mostly Yaelokre, Cavetown, Elio Mei, The Crane Wives, Fish in a Birdcage, etc
anyways I just thought id talk abt that bcs its been on my mind recently .^.
uhhhhhhhhhhh how do i tag this