#arfx

I really hate when people switch up on me. Every time man. The second I’m getting a little comfortable, Life is like … BITCH YOU THOUGHT. This is why I don’t talk to people I keep to myself Keep it pushing Give no one my time Dedicate myself to me. Worry about me. Just do me. & not give anyone the slightest look Or give anyone attention

I don’t give nicknames to just anyone.. lol so if I give you one. Trust!

I took my time to come up w/ it & there’s more behind the actual nickname itself.

You won’t catch me calling anyone else besides YOU that name. Whether we coo or not? That’s your nickname, ain’t no one else gonna be called that.

I haven’t wrote in such a long time…

I think this week has probably been one of my most active never taking a break week, thus far. I have so many things going on right now that I haven’t taken the time to just sit back & think.. detox. Today was the first day in a month that I’ve taken a nap. I’m trying to write but at the same time I just want to shut down so badly.

Do you ever find yourself thinking but what you’re thinking about is thinking.. ever just randomly have this weird feeling. Where your gut knows before you even realize it. That’s been me lately. I hate being emotional but I must say at times, emotions get the most of me.

I think I’ve reached the limit. It’s not easily said or done. My mind is running a million thoughts through every second. I can’t even have tabs on my thoughts. Does that ever happen to you? Where you’re just living and randomly emotions takes over, just cry a little.. I haven’t wrote in so long and my first writing is dedicate to my frustration. Life man, life is what it is. It’s not difficult to handle but I’ve gone through such a transition last couple of months in 2016 - and the year 2017. I really don’t fucken know what to write, I have so much on my mind..

I just want to be left alone, I mean it. I can slowly feel myself shutting down.

I have to admit it scares me, because I know what I’m capable of turning into when that happens. I hate it because I just shut down completely.. there’s no control, no thoughts, just endless living.