#arfika

  Kambaku life  :) Spent 4 months at this amazing place, with horses, German tourists, namibianer, wildlife and crazy beautiful scenery. Today, I was also aware that I am surrounded by dangerous animals too .. a snake attacked me and Anna when we were out riding, it attacked for it ended up between our bikes and felt threatened. But oh, huh afraid we became. My heart was beating 110 .. However, this has happened more times in the last week. Mommy do not be alarmed now. I FEEL GOOD! Happened just fly by one of the horses and access the electrical wire in the stable. El wire in the house is not at home, here are the 280 Wolt.And you fly ipricip away. But I learned a lesson! Will never touch the wire and will definitely not ask a horse that has not been ridden for 2 months to gallop out in the bush. He got the spins and bent by me, yeaha.  The days roll on, working tok much as we are only two in the house and there have been very many equestrian guests. It's very fun and try to see it as a mega workout when the body begins to speak up. To ride 5 training horses every day plus two 1.5-hour rounds in the bush with the guests it takes. But as I said we are going to ride for 5 months so this is the start of good training. Should not really complain, today is my day off, bike, swimming and computer today ..  Working with German tourists are not always easy. You know, they speak German .. many of them prefer not to speak English, so when eating dinner with German guests can make a crazy, twice last week so I sat for 3 hours and tried to understand me in German. One wants and not be rude and say: COME ON CAN YOU PLEASE SPEAK ENGLISH, I TAKE NOTHING!! Finally, I did it anyway, but they speak English for two minutes and then the amazing German again. Can not describe the frustration I felt during those 3 hours. It is so very unpleasant and rude to totally ignore that one at the table do not understand, I felt totally handicapped Now I truly know how frustrating it is to not make yourself understood .. In combination with this, it's one of those incredibly harmonious environment . To ride out with guests in the bush and eating breakfast is so cozy and quiet and still. Show guests are also very fun and beautiful course, it's not all that are rude and only speak German.Last week I was invited to a family of 8 people, I was their ridguide. It was fun!  Yesterday it rained for the first time in a week, oh eh rain. I took a shower in the rain and it went up to shampoo your hair. Think again, because people thought I was crazy, hahah.Especially the two kids who basically moved in with me and Anna. Today was cleaning the little 5 year old girl all over our apartment. I do not know why but thanked her very much, she seemed to have fun. Do they hang with us because their father was angry at them and hit them the other day ... It's ok here :/ It's something that I find it extremely difficult to understand and accept. But something I learned during this month here is that you can change but you have to do it gradually and with respect. Even when it comes to horses and stables. The boss is difficult and must be taken with soft hands, Kritsy (the other stall girl), I have begun to understand me and she's finally starting to accept me. Very nice!  Both brother and mother have filled in last week! Lots congratulations! : D If approx. One month will also have a new little creature into the world, a little sister or little brother. Feels strange not to be at home but promise to send pictures, dad and Anna!  Warm hugs! Two weeks left until I go on to Kenya and Loved Children! 

Ok, now ive got all of ur attention because this tittle.. Jgn senyum2 dulu buat para pervert yg baca ini.. This is just my another sarcasme post.. Bbrp mlm yg lalu gw terlibat BBMan seru bersama seseorang.. Kurang lebih seperti berikut.. She: "anyway, Fika pernah bilang ke gw, tp maaf ya punteeeeeeen bgt, ini mah omongan orang gila." Me: "..." She: "Haekal mungkin mau sama lo krn lo mau buka selangkangan." Me: "hmm.. Berarti dia selama hampir 5 tahun, buka selangkangan dong?" She: "hahahahaha" Kaget pas tau ky gt.. Sebegitu kotornya otak di balik jilbabnya.. -sigh- To Arfika Lubis: Tolong hormati jilbab lo. Cuci otak lo. Tanya hati lo dan jawab jujur.. Apa Haekal adlh cwo ky gt? Apa Haekal pernah minta buka selangkangan lo? Apa Haekal bukan cwo baik? Krn Haekal memperlakukan gw dgn sangat baik, sopan, bertanggung jawab. Haekal bukan cwo yg sering lo obral ceritanya ttg cwo cuek, taunya hanya senang2, ntn konser, dan hal2 ringan lainnya. Dia lebih dr yg lo tau selama hampir 5 tahun. Dia pria dewasa dengan masa depan cerah. Status hampir 5 tahun yg slalu lo gembar-gemborin dan lo banggain itu terlihat kosong. Diawali dgn ke-agresif-an lo buat dapetin Haekal. Menyatakan perasaan duluan via inbox Friendster yg jwban dr Haekal pun menyedihkan bgt buat lo. Dia ga merasa hal yg sama seperti yg lo rasain. Dia bertahan selama hampir 5 tahun dlm kekangan lo, sepertinya krn kasian aj.. Sampe dia ketemu gw dan merasa dia ga bisa kehilangan gw.. Baru 1 bulan jadian, gw udh dikenalin ke org tuanya. Gmn klo lo? Stlh brp lama jadian baru bs kenalan ma org tuanya? Kebetulan ulang tahun gw bareng sama Bang Rino. Jd ulang tahun gw dirayain bersama keluarga besar Haekal. Begitu jg ulang tahun anggota keluarga Haekal, ulang tahun Kak Hamra, bang Merza, papinya, maminya, omar, dan Mika yg waktu itu dirayakan bersama keluarga besar Aceh dari pihak mami dan Papinya Haekal, bisa lo Byngin betapa ramenya keluarga Aceh yg berkumpul, dan maminya Haekal sendiri yg memperkenalkan gw ke saudara2nya. mereka undang gw makan bareng. Sudah sering gw mkn bareng keluarga Haekal. Ga hanya ulang tahun, perayaan lainnya pun gw diundang, kaya misalnya pas Papinya Haekal lulus s2. Gmn dgn lo? Brp kali lo mkn bareng keluarga Haekal? Entah sejak kapan dan kenapa maminya Haekal mulai sering kasih gw hadiah.. Beliau sering bepergian keluar negri untuk pengobatan.. Dan pulangnya selalu bawa oleh2 buat gw (Haekal sendiri masih takjub). Gw dikasih gelang, chocolate, sendal, macem2 deh.. Tau ga bagian terbaik dr lo dpt oleh2 dr seseorang tanpa lo minta? Berarti mereka memikirkan elo dimana pun mereka berada.. Kak Hamra jg beliin gw belt lucuuu bgt pas dia sekeluarga ke Thailand.. Gmn dgn lo? Fika.. Gw dan Haekal sedang menyusun masa depan, doa2 baik sangat kami hargai.. Mungkin telat jg mslh selangkangan ini gw bahas krn lo ngomongnya pasti udh lama.. Tolong dijaga mulut lo, jaga otak lo. Biar ga malu2in jilbab lo.. Thx

There she is with another lie.. Menyebalkan memang, Allah masih ingin saya membuka mata lebar2 akan apa yg lo tulis di blog, dgn cara apapun, Allah menunjukannya.. Mau lo bikin blog baru kek, ganti alamat kek.. Entah apa rencanaNya selalu membuat saya membaca blog lo. Sudah lama sekali saya menahan emosi mencoba tidak terpancing dan tidak peduli. Terakhir saya berhubungan langsung dgn Fika, yaitu via SMS setahun yg lalu, saat ucapan selamat ulang tahun.. Dgn frontal dia menanggapi smua SMS saya (dgn cara yg tidak positif pastinya). Tp gw ga pernah ganggu lo lg sedikitpun, walau gw ditunjukan bnyk hal yg memancing emosi gw. Gw telan smua. Ga bersisa. Gw bersyukur lo pny pacar, gw berharap lo ga mancing2 emosi gw lg. Sampai saat ini. Lo asyik nulis nostalgi(L)a yg mnurut gw, elo emang udh mendekati kegilaan, krn isinya bnyk kebohongan. Lo bohong untuk menutupi kekecewaan. Gw sbnrnya kasian. Tp gw ga suka sama yg lo tulis. Berawal dr nostalgi(L)a part 4 yg kmrn lo posting. Emosi gw bikin gw mo muntah baca tulisan lo. Dan part 5 yg ga kalah memuakan.. Tp, lo tau apa bagian terbaik dari ini?? Haekal jg baca postingan lo. Gw yg minta. Hahahaha!! Dan stlh itu kita bahas smua kebohongan 1 per 1 yg lo karang. Kita berdua ngetawain isi postingan lo bareng2.. Gila. Memalukan bgt kelakuan lo.. Kasian.. You are so pathetic

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CindyAF

CindyAF

Siapa ya yg sms blg : "ass.ww hekal.. Ini fika. Apa kabar? Mmh.. Mungkin sedikit terlambat, tp ak cm mau km&cindy tau, ak udh maafin kalian. Makasih bwt pelajaran hatinya. Dan semoga msh bs menyambungkan SILATURAHMI :) itu aja. Thank." Saya ber-baik sangka saja stlh membaca nya dan sms2 slanjutnya ke Haekal. Kali aj lupa smlm saya menanyakan "U mean stay away from my life is stay away from haekal's life too, right?" Bukan berarti saya menyuruh anda mnjauh dr khidupan haekal. My back is not a voicemail. If you got something to say to me, say it to my face. Penjabaran cerita yg spotong2 bs mnciptakan makna berbeda. Saya bukan ingin masuk ke kehidupanmu, saya bosan krn kau terus2an mnciptakan image saya yg tdk sesuai. Saya sama skali tdk trganggu dgn anda, krn cara brpikir saya jauh berbeda dgn anda. Blum lagi smua hinaan, caci maki, dan umpatan yg anda dan tmn2 anda lakukan. Saya ingin menyadarkan anda bahwa anda secara sengaja atau tidak, sudah mncoreng batasan wanita yg berjilbab. Jilbabkanlah hatimu, sblm mnjilbabkan ragamu. Smua yg anda dan tmn2 anda lakukan, saya telan seluruhnya, tanpa kata. saya yakin tdk smua org bs menerima smua perlakuan itu dgn bijak. Toh smua usaha dan niat baik saya ditolak mentah2 oleh anda, bahkan anda mnyimpulkan alibi lain yg brtentangan. Saya beruntung sekali didampingi seorang haekal yg penuh perhatian dan pengertian. saya tidak butuh hal lain krn saya selalu bersama Haekal. tdk heran anda sulit melepasnya. Akhir kata, saya brdoa untuk kebahagian anda, apapun tanggapanmu ttg saya. Saya tdk pduli :) Regards, CindyAF