#archiveblog

Basically, I just wanted to explain what happened with my old blog, spamtsworld. I went to log into it last night and realized that I must've deleted it, and completely forgot. I also deleted my Instagram, which I too forgot about. I used to be relatively active in this community, but I often felt a large sense of shame related to my identity when I would see negative comments about Xenogenders online. I would go through phases where I was completely happy and secure in my identity to thinking that identifying with xenogenders somehow made me less trans and less of a man (despite this not being true). I am fully supportive of others who identify with these terms, it just seems I struggle with internalized shame/hate using these labels because of online discourse, which sucks. I found this community very accepting of who I am, and I still identify with xenogenders despite past me trying to hide or get rid of that part of my identity.

I'm not sure how active I will be, and I'm sorry for the long rant lol. I plan to use this blog to first archive the old labels I created, and possibly create new ones. As for now, my requests will be semi-open, it really just depends whether or not I feel like it.