#arbaeen2020

Sun, oct 4

1:48pm – 

رضاً بقضائه وتسليماً لأمره 

every single day, with absolutely no exaggeration, i have thought about you. My whole year, my years, have revolved around you, around coming to you. إنت أكبر حلمي. You are my biggest dream and i’ve wanted nothing more than you.

I have nothing to my name. No deeds worthy of being accepted, not mixed with kibr or shak or inattentiveness. All i have to my name are my countless sins.

All i have are these tears i’ve cried over you, and these are all i’ll be able to present in front of You, in front of Sayeda Fatima, in front of Sayeda Zaynab. See? I cried, I cried so much, i felt my heart would burst and i’d die if i couldn’t come to you. This is all I have.

But i understand that this is Your qadha, and I am content with your decree.

So this Arbaeen, all I’ll have is my bag of the dust of Karbala, and the love I have for you o Husayn, I will direct towards working for you. I wanted to come and the rest was your decree, all that was in my control was to want to come. In fact, even that wasn’t in my control. Thank you for turning my heart towards you. 

اللهم لك الحمد حمد الشاكرين لك على مصابهم 

الحمدلله على عظيم رزيتي