been having a lot of character ideas and ideas for new ones and not really doing anything but write. i miss drawing thooo but these days my art feels kinda cheap and unusable. i dont think ive gotten worse but ive gotten kinda too obsessed with making the correct forms and lighting instead of making things that are fun or interesting for a story. just yesterday i made a pretty good portrait of one of the characters from the pitt i like, but that was just...it? good attempt at forms, lighting, all that stuff, but nothing in it that reminded me oh yeah this is why i like this character. i think this is how im approaching my ocs as well. i post about them and i save little pictures that remind me of them but i dont go further. my way of going further used to be roleplaying and having fun exploring what they'd be like when i test out what dialogue or characters they would react to, and now that i dont have that it's kinda like im looking for another challenge. i cant just say hey, this is whats happening, it has to feel earned. the medium has to reflect the story im telling. i just havent found it yet
