#april2026

A belated blog for the last days of March and the first days of April. Starting out with a pic of a cute Korilakkuma dakimakura. I was 50/50 on keeping this or selling it, but someone bought it for an ok price so I decided to let it go, but I'm going to memorialize it here.

i’m scared because i know you won’t give up without a fight / which is the opposite of me / who will run at any sign of pressure / or push back

i’m scared because i haven’t stepped foot in that place since right after she died / and you completely gutted / all that i knew / while still leaving skeletons in the basement

i’m scared to face the person you’ve become / after anger has remade you into something / completely rotten to the core / someone i always feared you’d grow to be

i’m scared you’ll take this out on me / and hurt me in ways only you know how to do / sinking your venomous fangs deep into my soul / to test my shell that i’ve worked so hard to harden

i’m scared i’ll fawn into a version of me that hasn’t seen the light of day in ten years / maybe more / and give into giving you everything you can want and more / but not what you deserve

i’m scared i’ll have to face the consequences with your name written on them / because you would rather die / than be held accountable / for the sins you haphazardly commit