#application blog

I probably haven’t been posting as much as I expected i would and the truth is I’ve had a rough few months.

Since June I had been preparing for my UCAT. I did 100 practice questions a day and full mocks at least once a week. I was dedicated to getting a high score and my hard work was paying off with scores about 2800 in my mocks and consistent band 1s.

Then about a week before my test I had a pretty traumatic experience. I won’t go into detail but it rocked me and I found myself really struggling. I wasn’t sleeping I found myself really stressed and anxious. This impacted everything including my UCAT.

The effect of the prior week came tumbiling down on me on my test day. I spent the morning sobbing and had a panic attack during my test. I managed to make it though but with a score in the lower percentiles. After that I really struggled to motivate myself and some of my historic depression has crept back in. While I appeared confident on the outside, on the inside I was devistated and convinced myself that my dream of studying medicine was over. This became even worse when my backup choice of paramedicine rejected my application.

I reached breaking point where I could either fall apart or pull up my boot straps and muck in. I chose the latter. While I haven’t been perfect I have tried to get myself back in track and focus on my college work.

Turns out my dream of studying medicine might not be over either. While I was secretly figuring out backup plans and getting myself mentally prepared for entering clearing next year universities were looking over my application. And Exeter has given me a interview!!!

I know I’m still far off from an offer so I don’t want to get myself too exited but having been invited for a interview has really given me a boost. For the past few months I have been all doom and gloom and finally I have a spark of hope!! It’s not until January so thankfully I have plenty of time to prepare.