So the power went out in the entire building except a small portion of lights in the room I was testing in. Then the ceiling basically started screaming, all of us in the exam room totally thought we were gonna die, me being one of them. I then continued to laugh like a mad man. The proctor then "shhh" ed us and we continued our test. Proctor was about to call time but then all of the lights went out... in the entire school district, town etc. We then sat there in the test room for the longest time ever, and then were moved to another building with Windows so that there could be light once again. We then began our second section of the booklet, free response. At this moment in time with all the worst things that could go wrong during this test went wrong, the hallway then began to fill with loud people, during most of the test around 80 minutes worth of this. No one could concentrate. It was fucking terrible. We finished the test and went to our fifth period class, this test was to approximately end at the end of 4th period we were about an hour and a half late. But there was one good thing since our English teacher knew that we would be missing lunch she bought us pizza and sent a note "power though" I am pretty sure it was a pun intended moment (she makes a lot of puns). Anyways that is how my exam went how did yours go?

This blog is kinda lame, but I just have so much respect for this character I just had to make a blog. Orr, that's his name, what's his game? Literally everything. Orr is the real hero of this story, he's the superman of the squadron. He's like Yossarians Oprah. At one point he is taking apart the stove, dealing with minute pieces of plastic and metal, and he makes the stove the best in the entire camp. His planes always went down, and he always saved his crew. ** SPOILER ALERT ** So Orr is so frickin cunning and clever. He uses his "humor" (chestnuts and crab apples) and his assumed ignorance to pull off the greatest escape in the entire book, and he's Yossarian hero. He was a symbol of hope. He was silly and stupid, but a lot of symbols can be silly and stupid, but it was a beacon of hope for Yossarian at the end of the book. He was always calm and collected, unlike everyone else at the camp, and he was really quick thinking. He also pretended to be stupid the whole time, just so people would assume his disappearance was just death. Orr was more than a character, he was a symbol, and an idea that everyone else wanted but didn't know was among them the whole time. Orr made it to freedom

The librarian didn't like us I guess. Oh well we tried.

What do you guys think you’d value most if you only have 30 years to live? It’s long enough to form relationships and real emotional connections, but is it long enough to be fulfilled? Is life as is long enough to be fulfilled? 

This passage makes me feel weird. I think I’m uncomfortable because it’s really real. The internalized homophobia is so evident here in the main character, David, and it is something that he has been struggling with since his early teen years. Despite the fact that Jacques himself is really annoying 90% of the time, I enjoy this small snippet of a scene with him (he immediately goes back to being kind of irritating after this). I just think the part about love is really nice to think about because most of the time we don’t feel love from others because we don’t let them love us. We shut everyone out for fear of them leaving not knowing that the act of shutting them out is what’s actually making them leave. 

I just left off on the chapter before they introduce Crake. HOPEFULLY, this is where the story will pick up and things will start to get more interesting. Please Atwood, PLEASE. 

And Mr. Bennett is more dumb because he is actually agreeing the the wishes Wickham has for asking for some money in order to marry Lydia. The only reason he’s doing it is because he doesn’t want to ruin his reputation and rather have his daughter marry a stupid guy like Wickham. Which I think is the dumbest mistake ever, because come on, MR. BENNETT ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND???

Another recurring theme is eating (or if you’re Marian, not eating). Ever since she’s gotten engaged to her lawyer fiance, Peter, I’ve noticed that there not only has been a shift in tone of the book, but in the beginning of the book, I noticed she was eating a lot. Like, I was thinking to myself: “Why does Atwood talk about eating so much?” It would really make me hungry. However, ever since Peter proposed to Marian, Marian has been going out to lunch and talking about her lack of appetite. Atwood writes “The waitress came. Millie ordered steak-and-kidney pie, a good substantial lunch. Emmy chose a salad with cottage cheese, to go with her three kinds of pills, the pink, the white, and the orange, which were lined up on the table beside her water glass. Lucy fussed and fretted and changed her mind several times and finally asked for an omelette. Marian was surprised at herself. She had been dying to go for lunch, she had been starving, and now she wasn’t even hungry. She had a cheese sandwich” (119). On the same page, she tells Emmy and Millie of her engagement, and she doesn’t seem that thrilled. I believe that Atwood is doing something with Marian’s appetite and the identity. I’m not incredibly sure yet, because she just starts introducing this layer to the story around page 120, so I haven’t really developed my thoughts on it yet. However, it reminds me of when we talk about getting married and taking your husband’s last name, and how it matters what you call “something”. Maybe Marian feels that by marrying Peter, she will lose who she is, or she’ll be less of herself? I’m not incredibly sure, but the fact that Atwood uses food/loss of appetite to do this makes me really hungry.