"Alex has died." Sherlock was pale, her face blank.
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He could deal with this in a number of ways, really. None of them good. He wouldnāt shoot Sherlock for this. Not yet at least. Either way, it was probably good that she was the messenger. Or bad. He wouldnāt have reacted well no matter the way the news was delivered.Ā
Silence.Ā
āWhat did you do?ā Find someone to blame, that was always the first step. Find some way to cover what could easily become a nagging guilt that if heād been there she might have survived, if something had gone different, she might not have died. Sebastian didnāt have regrets. Heād tell anyone that. However, he didnāt lack the capacity to have them entirely.Ā āWhat did you fuck up?ā Ignoring the fact that Alex was entirely capable of getting herself killed on her own.Ā
God. Fuck. She was the only blood family heād cared about for the past while. And heād beenā¦himself to her, but that didnāt cover the fact that sheād mattered.Ā
āIf you donāt leave right now, Iām going to shoot you.ā
He needed to have her gone. Alone, it would be alright to grieve, hidden away from anyone who might ask him how he was doing, what he was feeling. It was supposed to be a private thing, so he could still do his work. He just needed time to withdraw and give up the illusion that everything was fine for just a moment. But only he could know that.















