#aotending

Firstly, i wanna say that I got involved with AoT during one of my best and at the sime time one of my worst year. It was 2017, to be more exact, January 2017. During that time I was in conflict with myself, and I had to struggle not only with my eating disorder* ( it's the first time I talk about it, and at the time no one knew about it ) but also with family problems. AoT, for what dumb it could sound, was ( indirectly ) the only refuge I had to escape from that reality, so it was like kinda of a support for me, and now that it ended, I feel sad. I feel sad 'cause this ending represents for me not only the end of an era, but also a break from the girl I was during that year of my life, the girl that I'm still trying to re-find and I'm still chasing. So I can say that this means I have to move on and be focused on the person I'm right now, but it's fucking hard. Right now, the only thing I surely do is thanking Isayama for this masterpiece: you made us cry multiple times, sometimes you fucked our minds, but above all you made us fucking patriotics for an island which not even exists. And I love it. So, from the bottom of my heart, thank you Isayama.

*if you're currently struggle with some eating disorders or depression, please ask for help. During that time I didn't and it was one of my biggest mistake. You mustn't feel ashamed of asking for support and help because it is for your own sake. Remember that you count. Please, don't be afraid.

Ok now, LET'S TALK ABOUT THE CHAPTER!!

When I first saw the scans my reaction was like ISAYAMA FUCK YOU GO TO HELL but then I decided to re-read the chapter multiple times and I just arrived at the conclusion that there couldn't be a more suitable ending for the story. To properly explain my POV I will schematize my thoughts. So:

1. Eren's sacrifice : i have to be honest, i never liked Eren. I've always seen him like psychopath, but the fact that he made all this mess only for the sake of his friends touched me. He wanted the war to be over, but above all, he wanted his friends and the girl he loved to be safe. I've always thought that the conversion he had with Armin ad Mikasa ( the one of I'VE ALWAYS HATE YOU MIKASA to be clearer ) was made up for a reason, and the reason was he become the villan of the story in order to proclaim his friend the real hero. The thing which made me really upset was that he killed almost 80% of human kind. I can't find a logic explaination for all this violence. But the thing which triggered me the most was the fact that eren already knew everything from the beginning: he saw past, present and future, he saw literally EVERYTHING. The only part I didn't understand was the part when he said that Berthold mustn't die that time, and so he literally made the smiling titan kill his mom. WHAT. THE. HELL.

2. Eren's reincarnation : I've always knew that that fucking bird was hiding a more profound meaning, and looks like I was right. And for the ones who still believe that eren could survive, i made a theory: eren didn't want to survive. Eren wanted to seek freedom. But this to me sounded like an order, and obligation Grisha made to him. In fact, if you see the scan where Grisha holds baby Eren, he says "You're free". To me this words sounded like "You have to be free", and so Eren had one goals, freedom. Which he could only seek in dying and reincarnate as a bird.

3. Armin's evolution : i don't have to say much, just what a character he became. My boy.

4. Mikasa's sacrifice : my poor girl. She is part of the characters who suffered the most. In the end, she was the one who had to make the right decision to save the world. She sacrificed her feelings towards Eren, setting her free from the Ackermann's curse, and killed the only man he ever loved. Only because of ymir and her Stockholm's syndrome for Fritz and this was one of the things pissed me off the most: ISAYAMA YOU REALLY BASED A WHOLE STORY OF GENOCIDE ON YMIR SUBMISSION ON KING FRITZ???? WTF?? AND SHE HAD TO WAIT JUST FOR MIKASA TO CANCEL TITANS CURSE??

5. Levi and his vision : i have nothing to say. i think it was the best moment of the entire chapter. I almost cried. My boy. I've always loved him. HE CRIED FOR THE FIRST TIME I CAN'T HANDLE THIS. I know he'll carry a lot of grief on his shoulders, but I'm glad he survived. I would be more pissed off if he would have been die in the last chapter. So, I'm glad for him even if I know he is gonna suffer.

6. The others: i think that everyone will carry their own grief, much or less more. Everyone will suffer for a long time, and this is ok. Attack on titan is not based on a soft story, so i think it's more than legit.

I just wanna add one other thing. This one. Isayama already know where Eren had to rest. I have no words.

And last but not least...