Attack on Titan / Shingeki no Kyojin
So i've been thinking a lot about this.
For context i'll say that I've discovered AOT back in 2010 or 2011 when it had less than 20 chapters. And until its end at 2021 I've kept up with it every month. It was amazing. In the beginning the ugly drawing style made it very hard to read and understand. More often than not I had confused characters with each other (Isayama either got better at drawing in later chapters or got assistants.... who cares). But it was THRILLING so I continued. The premise, the plot, the mysteries surrounding the walls and the titans. It was right up my alley. So for 10-ish years every month I kept up with the manga (I jokingly called it "that time of the month").
...The ending made me drop it like its hot.... while it continued to circulate in my brain as a background process occasionally letting itself be known. I stopped keeping up with the anime, I stopped looking up new material like spinoffs or additional storilines. I have a lot of conflicting thoughts about AOT and for a long time, until recently, those thoughts were only in my head, confusing and frustrating me further. I say "until recently" because I had the chance to rewatch the entire thing again with a very smart and intuitive friend of mine and that experience made me realize some things, one of which is... I have to write or speak my thoughts to make sense of this anime. So thats what im gonna do. The ending was BAD. The ending ruined the whole amazing experience for me, and I cant get over it even if it has been 4 years since. I say 4 years because I havent touched AOT after the manga ending. I couldnt. It frustrated and disgusted me. And for a long time I kept thinking that im overreacting or exaggerating... I couldnt get over it. However, this recent rewatch as well as ACTUALLY VOCALIZING some of my thoughts and dissatisfaction with this anime/manga made me realize that no, it really was bad... Im gonna be writing about my own personal feelings and experiences regarding AOT.
