#antisisyphos

Sure

i am a bee

bee

im a bee

im a bee

do you think im a bee

i think i might be a bee

pretty sure im a bee

but maybe im a flower

and the bee is there to carry

the flower from place to place

plants dont have true sense

but flowering im pretty sure

feels great to flower

fitting my body into a whole

but im not sure im a flower

can a bee just decide its a flower

just a bee all the time

bees are good so its a good choice

but flowers are good too

in the bee part of my soul

there is a bee bee

and in the flower part

there is a flower flower

the bee bee is at ease in the flower flower

but the flower flower finds it difficult

to find the bee bee

when bee bee is the bee flower

and flower flower is the bee flower

flower flower finds its friend

and bee bee bee can be found

in flower flower

in bee bee

two flowers meet and kiss and the flower bee

bee bee

in the flower part of its soul

and the flower in the bee part

another happy bee to join the flower flower

flower flower

flower flower flower

and bee bee

bee bee flower flower

flower flower flower

flower flower flower flower

bee bee flower bee bee

flower flower flower flower

bee bee flower flower flower

flower flower flower bee bee flower

flower flower flower bee bee flower

look! here comes the bee bee

bee bee flower flower flower bee bee flower

flower flower flower bee bee flower flower

flower flower flower bee bee flower flower bee bee flower flower

bee bee flower bee bee flower flower flower

flower flower flower bee bee bee flower flower

flower flower flower bee bee bean flower flower bee bee flower

two flowers meet and kiss and the flower

Okay, here's an attempt at the requested thing (tentative title: "Nothing To Fear But Sexual Subtext Itself"):

I'm a tree-growing institution

that I truly am.

I'm not a tree-beast, I'm a tree-bean;

I grow trees -- for a living.

We've got forests of trees,

We've got forests of pomes,

We've got trees which won't get lonely

and grow into a home.

We know the seeds inside our pomes

are ready for new shaping.

We know the pomes inside our trees

"Frank-less" is not a word I would have used, but this is a good question.

I've been thinking about my own reactions to Frank's sudden disappearance, but there are probably many others just as reactive as me, if not more so. There's nothing I can do to help you or anyone else, I'm afraid.

I will say that I'm sorry that the response to my post about Frank's demise was a call for encouragement. That post was written in the moment and could easily be misinterpreted.

I thought it would be interesting to share that I'm a bit lost right now, a bit unmoored. Frank is a thing I've done every day for the last six years or so, and I have created a lot of relationships with Frank-related people, as well as habits of behavior that have been shaped by the non-Frank elements of the tumblr ecosystem. Losing Frank puts me in a space where I feel lost and anxious and over-stimulated. I don't know how to get out of that space, or even whether there's any getting "out of" that space. All I can do is wait to see how it resolves itself.

This is a temporary thing, and I don't know if it will have lasting impact on my life, but for now it makes me feel adrift, and I apologize for not being a more complete person while I deal with this. Hopefully I'll get used to my new circumstances soon enough that I'm able to be back to the regular Sisyphus post schedule.

Yes, but only if you're both okay with this. It's just a case of evaluating the risks on a personal level and coming to an informed agreement.

One thing to keep in mind is that controlling for other factors (like your own choices), relationships with a very unhappy/unstable/tumultuous past are probably significantly worse than ones without. You're multiplying risk factors if you get into a relationship with someone who doesn't know what they want, who needs stimulants to function, whose stimulant of choice is heroin, etc.

That said, I don't know that much about heroin addiction, and I don't know how you're supposed to do it in a controlled way (not an easy question to answer). Maybe it is that bad.