#anthony post

So. Anthony, if any of you remember my posts about him from around December, ended up ignoring me and blowing me off, right? Well. This happened tonight:

I'm at Walmart, when I get a text from an unknown number. I ask who it is.

Ding ding. Its Anthony.

He proceeds to tell me how he fucked up and he needed to explain what happened and why he stopped talking to me and so on.

And, by now, I'm sure all of you know I am with Dustin and oh-so-happy and completely falling for this cutiepie superdork. 

See, Anthony added me on Facebook a few weeks ago out of nowhere. He would never add me before, because, see, I'm almost never on FB because I can't stand it. So my grama is always on it. She's my FB secretary. Posts funny things for me, tells me when friends comment/message me, she even posts SuperWhoLock for me. Doesn't bother me in the least. Well, Anthony never added me because he didn't want her seeing it and "not let [me] hang out with [him] anymore." Which, grama already knew he smoked pot, it doesn't bother her. But anyways, back on topic.

He always tends to text me when I'm with someone, and right after I'm NOT with that someone. I guess tonight he wished to remind me of his existence.

He proceeds to rant about how we need to talk because he needs to tell me why he did it, that he wants to be friends, that he fucked up when he let me go, he's never fucked up this bad before, etc. I'm just amused through the whole thing. Like. Really now. You're JUST NOW realizing all this?

Anyways, long story short, I told him he didn't owe me an explanation. Shit happened, I'm over it, I'm with someone I really care about now. Yes, we can be friends, but I will not do anything to compromise my relationship with Dustin.

He started getting real upset, since I wasn't going for it.

I also congratulated him on his upcoming baby.

Oh yes. That happened.

See, his crazy ex (who he never was broken up with, by the way), is knocked up supposedly by him. And he's SO HAPPY about his baby and his beautiful fiance. You go. I kind of figured that would happen if he stayed with her.

So, basically, he's trying to "fix things" with me while he has his pregnant fiance at home. Um. That's good and all. But. No. Just. No. If you're happy with her, stay with her. But if he's already trying to get with someone else, he can't be too happy.

Not to mention, I don't want baba mama drama. Especially from someone I'm not even with. She freaked out when we were talking at a public choir concert in plain sight in front of her. Nope.

Then, when I got perfectly frank with him. I told him that he had his life, and I had mine, and we just didn't fit into each other's in that way. Friends work out, but nothing more.

He flips. How he wanted to date me and he wanted to be more but crazy shit like the baby happened and blah blah.

Once again I was brutally honest and laid it all out. How I did care for him. How I wanted more. That we all have problems, but it still wasn't right to treat anyone how he treated me. How I was there for him anytime he called, and then he repays me by blowing me off time and time again. That, yes, I was miffed, and had the right to be. And now I moved on.

He writes he is sorry, that he hopes to see me in person one day so he can explain himself fully, and that he will text me at a better time.

And that was that.

It made me laugh a bit, it annoyed me, but oddly enough, it didn't make me angry. I'm completely happy with Dustin. I don't regret what happened with anyone I've ever been with. It's all been a learning experience. Harsh ones, but I needed them. 

I feel bad for him, in a way. Because he will never be happy. He cheated on his girlfriend, now fiance, with me over and over again. When he said he wanted to date me, he was still with her. Apparently, he cannot be happy with her, or maybe with just one woman. Maybe with any woman. I hope he finds his happiness one day, I really do.

I have mine. I know I've said this a good amount of times, I realize I rant about the guys I'm interested in a lot. But. I do feel like there's something in Dustin that I haven't encountered before. Something great. New. A calmness, laid-back energy, but can still give you butterflies. There's something so new and I wish I could explain it, I wish you all could meet him, see him. You all would love him. I know I do.