#anon update

Chapter two of Dès Vu (my gimmickverse fanfic) out now! Currently, @its-target-official and @walmart-the-official are still the only ones in the fanfic.

List of people to be added next:

@yes-im-youtube-kids @officialtinder @time-traveler-that-fucked-up

I’m the same anon that submitted this post and I have an update regarding this situation.

(obligatory I am a nonbinary transmasc individual)

I’ve finally decided to cut off this relationship entirely. I waited for a long time bc I wanted to believe this person wanted to change after we had a long convo, but months later it almost feels like things got worse. they continued to share posts demonizing masculinity, saying transandrophobia isn’t real, and belittling the experiences of transmasc people. but the real nail in the coffin that made me finally hit the point of no return for this relationship was seeing them share a post using a derogatory term for transmasc people. that finally broke something in me that made me realize I don’t have to continue being around someone who thinks so little of people like me and my community. I avoided it for so long because I knew there’d be fallout in our friend group, and I’m dealing with that now, but I don’t regret it and I’m not sorry for doing it. luckily I also have people in my life who are being incredibly supportive while I deal with having to handle conflict, something I’m notoriously terrible at haha

thank you to the people pointing out in that post that I don’t have to be friends with someone who believes terrible things about transmasc people <3 I’m hoping now I can dedicate my time to finding communities that value me and the complexities of my identity.

But I have been nonstop ill. Over a week or so I had an epsiode that left me going to bed early because of intense headaches from how I would get up fast and I would have to lay down. Even sitting I got the headaches. I also suffered from constantly needing more and more food and getting light headed and dizzy and feeling like I can barely move. I found salt has helped me but it’s not always enough.

I went to the doctors on December 6th and discussed everything. It wasn’t exactly good news. I have an enlarged left ventricle. That mitral valve does not want to work as fast as it has before. I’ve always had cardiac issues but it’s getting worse. I kept getting asked if I was anemic. I’ve been told to change some of my lifestyle choices and I’ve working on it.

But I did get blood work ordered and I did it today. I just checked my results and looking at everything it’s mostly like anemia. Therefore I don’t have an exact treatment plan yet. I’m going to try to start writing again. I might start writing for Astarion. I’m happy to have some answers but with answers it comes with changes.

I'm so glad you're doing better! It really makes me mad when people feel bad about the kind of media/characters they enjoy. It's fiction for god's sake, let people have fun.

You also don't need to write anything if you don't feel like you're up to the task (although you can certainly try!) but you can definitely indulge in reading aus! I've recommend NisrocChico's "Was Not the Hero" fic before, so here it is if you haven't come across it.

After the last fiasco I decided to block them so they couldn’t view my lair or possibly buy my dragons and...

Just wow...

They actually messaged me about it. They wanted me to unblock them cause they had gotten enough to buy one of my dragons, they wanted them for thier lore idea. I just told them no.

As long as I still have the dragon it’s mine and I can have a say in who buys it.

and we’re finding more and more things in common.So She’s expressed interest in getting to know me better to possibly form into a relationship. To be completely honest I squeed a bit.because she’s really cute and sweet. I really jut want to lay my head in her lay and nuzzle into her tummy and hug her. 

since she’s 5′3 and I’m 5″8 so I’m about 178cm and she’s about 160 something. cm high so I’m to tall to be her little spoon. So we settled on I’d rest my head in her lap and she’d pet and stroke my hair >///<. kind of surprised I spent most of the day just talking to her. We’re getting to know eachother more.  We have a fair bit in common but I don’t know how t talk to people, but the thing is I’m fine with just cuddling upto her and just being her cuddle bun. Soo yeah, a little advice on how to talkto people especially crushes would be grand. ^_^