#annatime

i really ought to read more hmm what i think of as society novels, from the 1930s-1950s, which ofc doesn't fit with the 70s/80s vibe of the fic but ... well, it's tagged anachronisms isn't it? and while i want to be frank about sex and sexuality and gender + the complexities of gender in a world compliant w/ omegaverse, there's a kind of melancholic energy + a viper-mean edge inherent to pre- and post-war society literature. so dawn powell, nancy mitford, etc.

the ancient anxieties (i.e. wips untouched for years) mean i worry a prolonged absence from fleafic will mean i shan't return to it. i AM resolved to return. but naiffic is consumptive at the moment i think in part because i feel much freer with it; i can play more with form than i can in fleafic. but at the same time, fleafic is more heavily stylized, and in general heavier, and although it makes for slower going (as a writer) it is also more satisfying; the conclusion of each chapter of fleafic feels like a relief, not of setting down a burden, but of having said something i wanted very much to say.

i don't want to be TOO light with naiffic but i want the weight to go largely unnoticed, if that makes sense.

finished a chapter on monday for fleafic

tuesday had to warp speed complete an entire group project on my own because my partner flaked entirely & then it wouldn't export in time to submit (had to e-mail everything to professor)

UNSTOPPABLE DIARRHEA FROM HELL FOR DAYSSSSSS

canvas hacked

finals ??? ambiguously postponed

canvas back up

have not written since monday until today

farting like a demon

i now have a final a day thru upcoming tuesday lol