#angry prayers

.....the creatures YOU’VE made have abused and mistreated me and my peers without cause. I DEMAND justice for this. See that their actions do NOT go unpunished. If u want me to place my trust in you, here I am, demanding my blessing like Jacob when he kicked your ass in the desert till you granted him his wish.

Grant me the peace that I am long owed or I will take it by any means.

And don’t even try to send me to Hell if it exists. Because I will not go and you won’t make me because I have put up life’s bullshit and I DEMAND my place at your side because they say you are good.

Sometimes when we pray, we are angry with other people. On other occasions, we pray because we are angry with God. How should we manage our angry prayers?

Sometimes when we pray, we are angry with other people. On other occasions, we pray because we are angry with God. When Jonah prayed, it was both. After delivering what may be the shortest and most successful sermon in preaching history, Jonah prayed an angry prayer in which he took God to task for his mercy and then begged for death.   You might think that Jonah would be happy. Instead, the…

I feel like you deceived me yesterday. I made a mistake and owned up to it. I felt like you wanted me to apologize. So I took your advice and went to apologize. After that, I went to calmly explain my rationale to whom I offended. I never made excuses for my behavior. But the one whom I hurt took it in a different context and made it all about themselves. Worse yet, I never got to fully give my account. Instead, I walked away more disappointed than how I was before.

And you know something.......I blame you for it. I blame you because you wanted me to go and repent for my actions. And I did just that. I apologized. But instead of forgiveness and reconciliation, I get thrown into a worse darkness.

Today, things never got better. I’ve made errors in judgment at work and now I can’t forgive myself. Today was just salt on the wound you wouldn’t allow to heal.

Why should I trust you anymore? Why should I continue acknowledging you, observing your religious seasons your people created in your name?