#angeline.

It’s been a long while ago since I wrote my last letter to you. I have earlier written about a boy who wanted me to save the date, I have written about pain, anxiety and the sense of not belonging anywhere. I never used the same name in every letter in case anyone I knew would find out about these letters.Charlie I’m 20 now. Charlie I have felt so much pain these last years and I can’t believe I’m still alive to be honest.  I have grown as a person. I feel like I know my value. The dark thoughts come back now and then, but I feel more alive than ever. I have come to the conclusion that the darkness of me will never go away, and I don’t want it too either, to be honest. Without the darkness and the pain, I wouldn’t see the beauty and the light in the world. This will be my last letter to you Charlie, and I wanted you to know that I was in a bad place when I first started to write to you, and you helped me. When I’m older and live in a beautiful house with the love of my life, I will look at my planted wallflowers and think of you. You saved me Charlie. Thank you for everything.