#anemonia thinks

I've figured his facial changes out. They were bothering me too much (yes, I know the models are based off two different people, but I needed to differentiate since that's a video game and I was tired seeing people saying his face didn't change much).

(Rus version under the cut).

What do I mean? Imagine, you are running your own laboratory, which goal seems nearly impossible but most noble to say the least: to defeat death itself and grant people the right to die not when "the time comes", but whenever they actually feel ready to. But of course achieving it could not be easy or ethical; logically, you have to interact with dead bodies, experiment with them (and living beings too) in many different ways, probably not all of them being socially acceptable, and most morally important: your ultimate goal goes against the nature laws themselves. Obviously, it may fascinate someone, but a lot of people won't like your and your partner's actions, including the government. The scandal eventually heats up so much that your life's work is threatened with being cut off entirely (with you probably stop being a celebrity and a genius and turning into an enemy of the people).

And then, like a gift from God personally, you receive a letter from some town in the middle of nowhere, casually saying there is an immortal man living here. And so, you are standing on the enge of the abyss; your life's work is about to perish, and only a miracle can save it. And couldn’t an immortal man be the very miracle that would certainly open everyone’s eyes to the reality of your theory and make the greatest scientific breakthrough of the century? Of course, in despair, you will immediately leave everything behind and rush after him like a drowning man after the last straw.

And then everything collapses again before your eyes. The immortal man died along with the one who wrote about him, and you haven't even got a chance to speak to any of them, and the people around you seem to be starry-eyed, AND by a complete accident you are now stuck in this godforsaken place because it was suddenly revealed that they died from a terrible mysterious disease. You are a doctor, a scientist, a bachelor of medicine, and you are the one who has to deal with this now. What? You don't want to? You ask people when the train arrives? Oh, what a shame, but now you have no choice: the government has dropped on your shoulders the lethal weight of the responsibility for every death and every wrong event in this town under the auspices that if you manage to defeat the disease, then MAYBE your life’s work will not be turned to dust. You may not have planned to fight the unknown plague, but now you have to do it.

See? And that's just the start of his plot. He almost impulsively arrived to the Town-on-Gorkhon because he needed to save his idea AT THE MOMENT. Before it gets shattered to pieces. He never wished to fight The-Most-Horrible-Pathogen-To-Ever-Exist, no, he was aiming to meet a literal living miracle.

He did not succeed. Neither he met the immortal man, nor he defeated the plague, and it remains unknown if he at least saved his laboratory. He lost a lot, a LOT. In fact, he only won in what he initially did not and could not count on (the Polyhedron turned out to be a new possible source of human immortality, but could Daniil have thought about it himself?)

That's the metamorphosis. He loses everything he had before he sees the light at the end of the tunnel. His ultimate goal of defeating death may not have changed, but his beliefs and methods did, as he was forced to watch his work burn before getting a chance to start anew. He has to accept what he initially rejected and turn his mindset on 90°. His arc is about a defeat, a search, a metamorphosis and a BITTER victory. Yes, Daniil Dankovsky is a loser, but have you seen what he achieved by the end? And yes, Daniil Dankovsky is a winner, but have you seen how many defeats precede this?

Initially this text was going to be much more... filled with resentment and anger for all the misconceptions I saw about the Bachelor, but turned out to be a much simpler analysis on his character arc, which I've seen being mashed with dirt by many people in the community. Hope you enjoyed.

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I... didn't really like Pathologic 3 Quarantine. It's mainly because of the disgusting optimization (yes, even worse than Pathologic 2), where you twitch sliders and graphics parameter values, but nothing changes globally: 5 FPS on medium textures and 7 on very low ones. It gets to the point where you play with a picture on the level (or even worse) of an extremely mediocre mobile horror straight out of 2010s, glued together shittily on Unity, and at the same time everything still looks like a goddamn slideshow. Ngl, playing like this is physically painful. I even felt sensorily overloaded at some point of playthrough due to the very poor picture aligned with very low frame rate. Also, in many segments of the game it felt like I was playing Silent Hill instead of Pathologic, it was so bad to see more than a few steps away. I don't know if there should be fog there or if it's just me.

I know that it could be a weak computer (and I really do have a brick, far from the most powerful device, there's no point in denying it), but it shouldn't play at the slideshow level, should it? There are games of the same engine that play more pleasantly with the same graphics settings. I'm inclined to think that something is wrong with the models and lighting settings, probably (this is a whole horror story: the rays live their own lives).

Another minor detail: Daniil Dankovsky feels different. I can't say exactly what's wrong (at least not right now), but the feeling is strong. And I still think I like the Classic Bachelor more, although time will tell. (Before anyone wants to write about the duckling syndrome - no, I don't have it. I found out about the Classic later than about the remake.) I know that the developers directly said that the global idea of the character has not changed, and I kind of believe them (obviously), but there still is a feeling that he is... out of character somehow. Let me repeat: this may be my personal first impression, which may change later, but if you also have this feeling, please share.

Oh, and his dialogue with Seraphima about his wife and marriage with work is funny, that's what I liked out of everything. And also Daniil's thoughts about the dinosaur in the hallway of the Academy. Now I wonder what kind it is. (Upd: that's not really a dinosaur. That's a Gastornis.)

Pathologic 3 Silent Hill reference confirmed.

The graphics... don't match the FPS you get from setting them. It reminds me of old indie horrors.

Aroace Daniil confirmed and a dino Gastornis.

Not much else to say, though the new mechanics are interesting.