#andzar

And it started all over again.

The story. Today was the big day. He said that he just arrived in Jakarta. And my heart stopped beating, my stomach shaked and i thought, "Oh My God. Is this dream or what" and today was the longest day ive ever been like, i keep watching my clock and biting my lips and breathed heavily and the time's coming and i walked down the stairs.

And and there he is.

With his favorite shirt and he was looking at me. And though we've been together for more than a year, we've been in a lot of date, and nights and romantic words and stuff but i could felt myself flying. Paralyzed. In this paradigm that wouldnt sets me free.

"Hi," he said.

I dont dance. I dont sing out loud. I dont laugh too hard. I dont play ‘Catch-Me’ like kids. I dont over-playing anything. I dont care about anyone. I dont wait for anyone. I dont embarassing myself. Basically, I used to be a leader. It makes me a calm, organized and controlled-emotion girl. Until he came.

Suddenly, my straight-school-life turned into a dazzling life which was really undescribeable feeling. He taughts me that there’s a wonderful world out there, that life isn’t just maths or biology or physics or pascal or newton or anyone. He taught me that life could be so much easier when we acrossed it with dance.

He opens my eyes that there’s sooo much sprinkles and miracles in every way of life—even in maths. He lives his life with bless and laugh which is infected to me. So I live a very different life now, with new side of view, new hope, new motivation, and, with him.