#andy barber

Steve 

"I’m going to fucking kill those mother-fucking assholes!" 

I watch as our president stalks into the clubhouse, rage radiating from him. I can only imagine what he is going through. I was terrified when Ang was pregnant with our babies. The thought of something happening to them, something out of my control, would make me feral as well. I shudder at thought. I can't think or voice something like that. I would make Andy even angier than he is now.  And an angry Andy is a dangerous one.  

"Son," Atlas approaches, "what happened. How is my baby girl? Is it the bambino? Is there a problem?" 

Andy paces around. "No, they are fine, thank-fuck. Lloyd Hansen, that deranged asshole, went into the dressing room with my Angel and threatened her. I’m going to kill him." He stalks to the gun cage.  

I grab him before he takes two steps and hold him back. "Easy, Ghost. We can’t just storm in."  

"The fuck I can’t!" He fights my hold until Ari and Curtis stand in front of him. "Move, that’s an order," he growls out.  

Atlas grabs Andy by the shoulders. "Prez, we get it, but you have to think about Maddie and the baby. Who is with her now?"  

"Couple of prospects, Doc," he says, chest heaving. "I wanted to get some stuff for her and me so I can sleep there."   

"I’m going to head over then," Atlas says grabbing his jacket. "I can call her mother if you want."  

"Yeah Pop, I haven’t had the chance yet." I feel him relax and let go of my hold as Atlas embraces Andy.  "I've got her, son, Atlas says quietly. Andy nods and Atlas pats his shoulder before waving at us and he's out the door.  

I turn and look at Andy. "What are your orders Prez?" I asked him. The rest of the officers stand and wait for Andy to speak.  

Andy 

I look at my brothers, men who are ready to lay down their lives for me and my family. I put my hands on my hips and bow my head, trying to think. "We have to be smart about this," I say out loud. "We have to bring Maddie home and she cannot be stressed."  

"I can watch over her when you are gone, Ghost," Curtis offers. "She can hang out with me in the kitchen in a chair."  

I look at Steve. Besides Doc, he would know if it would be safe for her. He nods. "Ok, we can do that. I’m going to purchase a new chair for her so she can be comfortable. Fuck," I rub my face. "I don’t know what else to do."  

"We’ll take care of her, Prez," Steve says, hand on my shoulder. "The girls won’t have a problem helping out."  

"We can also move your room to the one downstairs in the back," Jake offers. "You know, Atlas’s old room. We can get it cleaned up for you and Queenie. Then we don't have to worry about stairs."  

"I’ve already looked into security," Ari starts. "We’re adding cameras to the back door and garage and Tek and I have upgraded the system. I would like to give Maddie a panic button. Something she can wear around her neck, in case she falls or an intruder.  I can sync it to all of our phones."  

"Yeah," I breathed. My men had really thought through everything. All the things I didn't. "Thank you. Let’s do all of that. I need to get some stuff for her and me while I stay in the hospital for her. Whatever the cost, it’s approved," I tell Steve. He nods, understanding that I am leaving him in charge of the club.  

I walked out and went up to our room. Sitting on our bed, I looked around. She’s only been here for a few months, but the space has changed.  It wasn’t just a bed where I could fuck around. No, it was more than that. The picture of us on the nightstand. Her sweater hangs off the back of the door. I get up to touch the softness. Her perfume is in the air. My Angel made this space our little home.  

My chest started to hurt and I stumbled back to the bed. My knees hit the side, but I didn’t sit. I just slide down to the floor. The pain in my chest overwhelmed me and I started to sob. I had everything on my mind. My woman, my baby, the secret about Maddie’s parents, Bucky and whatever the fuck he thinks he is going to get away with. Tear after tear rolls down my cheeks.  I haven’t cried in a long time. I’m the head of this motorcycle club. The head of this family.  I’m supposed to be strong. 

I’ve never felt so vulnerable in my life.  

Lloyd 

I whistled as I walked into my house, punching the code to turn off the alarm. Today was a good day. I sat in my chair and looked at the bank of monitors. I smirked at the one that was pointed right at the beautiful woman in bed. Paying off the nurse to plant a camera was genius. Of course, it was. It was my idea.  

She slept so peacefully in the hospital bed, her bump more pronounced than before. I understand the pull that Ghost and Phantom felt with this girl.  This little Angel is in the middle of hell and she has no idea that she is in so deep.  A sigh slipped past her lips, and she turned to her side, her long hair disheveled around her, covering her face a little. But now, I could see her ass and tits better. I groaned at the sight.  

The kiss had been too quick, but it was delicious.  I wanted to keep her taste in my mouth forever. I can feel myself hardening in my pants. That is a problem. Wish that she could take care of it for me.  I see a slight smile cross her face and I can’t stop. I unbutton my slacks and drop the fly down, allowing my hard cock to jump out.  The first stroke makes me bite back a moan. I’m rock hard, painfully so.  

I let my mind drift to the little Angel. Her soft curves, beautiful eyes, and lush hair. Goddamn, I wanted her. I could feel the heat building in my spine. I was close., oh, so close. I remembered her little moan and I stroked once more. My cum covered my hand and dripped onto the floor. I sucked in air to try and calm my heart. Fuck, I need to have her. I need to breed her. I want to raise her baby as my own.  

Make her completely mine.  

Atlas 

As I walk down the corridor of the hospital, I think back on my time with Lia. She had bad flu once and was hospitalized. I remember being terrified, sitting in the chair next to her, watching her breathe as she slept. My heart started to race, thinking of my daughter, lying in the hospital, scared and worried about her baby.  

Her baby.  

I felt the smile grow. My little girl was going to be a mom. She and Andy were already growing their family. The love that they had was fast but so was mine and Lia's. What I saw told me that it was real, true love.  

I thought about the times when I'll hold my grand baby, when I get to take them to play. Work on a bike. I was going to be a grandfather and I couldn't wait. 

I was going to be a grandfather. Technically twice.  

Well, that’s gross  

I shook the thought away as I approached Maddie’s room. A nurse walked out and closed the door. "Is Maddie ok?" 

She smiles. "Are you family?" 

"I'm her father."  

The nurse nods. "She’s asleep, I just checked her vitals."  

"But, she’s ok?" 

"Yes, she’s doing ok.  Baby is doing great. Growing exactly like we want them to. You can go in and sit with her. She’s been drifting in and out. I know she’s been anxious."  

"Thanks," I looked at her name tag, "Lydia."  

"No problem." With a smile, she walked away. I nodded at the prospects sitting by the door.  

"Has Doc been by?" 

The blonde one, Johnny, if I remember correctly, nods his head. "He was here when Prez was here but hasn’t been back. Said he would be here closer to seven."  

I looked at my watch. He was due in half an hour. "Alright, let him know I'm here."  

"Yes, sir."  

Right as I was going to walk into the room, I felt my phone buzz. I looked and saw that Lia was calling me.  I had left her a message to call me. "Hi Lia."  

"Atlas. What’s wrong?"  

"Nothing, we just had a situation here." I didn’t know how to tell her this. "Everything is ok, but..." 

She cut me off. "Everything is not ok if there is a but, Atlas Montgomery." She had me there. "Tell me what is going on."  

I clear my throat. "I need you to come down to King Family Medical Center."  

"What? Why?" 

"Maddie was admitted with high blood pressure. She passed out and they are keeping her overnight for observation."  

Lia’s voice make as choked sound as she asked, "The baby?" 

"The baby is ok. At least, that’s what the nurse said. I’m waiting for Doc to come by with an update. Andy should be back by then with Maddie’s things to stay the night. He’s really upset about this."  

"Ok, I’ll be there in about an hour." She pauses. "I’ll let David and Daniel know."  

It’s silent for a moment. "Have you told him about me yet?" 

She sighs. "Yes. He’s not upset because it happened so long ago. I explained what I did and the misunderstanding that we had. But he doesn’t want us to tell her yet."  

"The fuck? What gives him the right to make decisions about my daughter?"  

"He is her father as well. He’s the only father that she has ever known."  

I snort, "Yeah, thanks for that." 

A sob comes through the phone. "Don’t be cruel, Atlas. I said I was sorry."  

"Sorry doesn’t change the fact that I lost the opportunity to be a father to my daughter for 27 years. Sorry doesn’t change that another man raised her. It doesn't stop the fact that I want to be a part of her life. She is my daughter, Cecilia."  

"I know that." Lia’s voice is small. "Maybe if you and David met, you can see that he’s a good man and he loves Maddie so much."  

"I’m happy she had a dad. But I want her to know that she was wanted by me too. That I wanted to be her father and marry her mother a lifetime ago."  

"I know you do. But I have to think about my family."  

"And I am thinking of mine. She is mine. We have to tell Maddie."  

"Tell me what?"   

I spin and look at Maddie in the doorway, hand on her belly, eyes wide with fear. I hang up on Lia. "Maddie, sweetheart, shouldn’t you be in bed? My grandbaby needs their momma to be strong." I take her hand a guide her back to bed.  

"No," Maddie stands her ground. "what did you need to tell me?" 

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The flight in the private jet back to Boston is the first time you’re confined to a space alone with Andy since the morning after everything unraveled at the villa. The two of you had orbited around each other, and he’d only forced your company for the social engagements. It had been shocking, and you had expected there to be some point at which he’d demand an interaction.

But he hadn’t.

Even the morning of your departure, there’d been a note left on the kitchen counter that there was business associate he and Lloyd had to take a meeting with, and so he’d see you on the tarmac.

He hadn’t taken any meetings for nearly seven weeks, so why he had one on your final day seemed like an excuse, but one you were glad he’d made.

You keep to yourself for the first hour, blanketing yourself in music and noise-canceling the entire plane. The flight attendant brings you food; you turn it down. Andy doesn’t even look up from his tablet or whatever he’s staring at. You’re astounded by the discipline, the sheer restraint. Seven weeks of being together—sleeping together, eating together, sometimes not even breathing unless the other was in the room—and now you’re basically anonymous passengers to each other on a plane. You should be grateful for the reprieve, but it makes you feel something worse than anger. It’s a fatigue that’s half heartbreak and half relief, an exhaustion so deep it feels stitched into your bones, making it hard to want anything at all—not even vengeance.

For the last week you’ve harbored the exhaustion of wanting something you’re ashamed of wanting, the kind that makes thirty-five thousand feet of sky feel like the bottom of the ocean.

Even now, you think about calling your mom or calling Thea, and you can’t stomach it. You don’t want to be the fool who messed up again, and you know neither of them would let you feel that way, you do know that. But you still can’t stomach having to talk about everything that’s happened.

You look up at the roof of the cabin when the familiar ache at the back of your throat gets worse, when you realize your vision has gone blurry at the edges. You let yourself cry only once at the villa. You don’t want to be crying, and you certainly don’t want him to see it, but of course he does.

You feel it before you look up—the cabin contracting, his attention shifting from deliberate absence to something still and fixed. When you look over, he’s there, eyes on you, not bothering to look away.

He’s not glaring. He’s not smirking. He’s just sitting there, hands braced on his knees, head slightly lowered, as if he’s waiting for a verdict or maybe for you to say something—but you have nothing to say to him, not right now, not ever in a way that wouldn’t cost you more than you can afford.

You press the heels of your palms into your eyes until you see stars, then look away, back to the window. Nothing out there—just black, the kind that makes you feel like the plane is standing still, like there’s nowhere left to arrive. The hum of the cabin fills in around the edges. You. Him. Whatever it is you’re going to have to figure out how to carry when you land.

He does finally speak, somewhere over Newfoundland, in a tone so flat it could almost be the engine noise.

He says your name. Not Mrs. Not wife. Just your first name, like it’s a code word or a trigger. It floats across the cabin and you can feel it snag deep in your ribs, a sudden, sharp tug. You keep your eyes straight ahead.

“I know I can’t fix what happened in Italy,” he says. His voice is calm—not soft, not kind, just controlled. “But I want to know if you’re coming back to Boston as my partner, or as my hostage.”

You laugh, a sharp, biting sound that comes out before you can stop it. “Was there ever a choice?”

He lets it hang. The cabin is silent but for the white noise of engines and air rushing past aluminum. Quite reluctantly, you look at him. He’s leaned forward in his seat, elbows braced, hands locked tightly together.

“I need you to understand something,” he says, and the rattle of the cart in the galley is the only sign the world is continuing outside of this conversation. “The life we’re going back to is not going to feel like that house.”

“You made that abundantly clear,” you say, “You told me yourself—liminal space, not real life. Isn’t it a relief to get back to the world you designed?”

He doesn’t answer at first. He lets the words pool between you, absorbs them. His stare is unwavering, stripping away the distance between your seats, but it’s not cruel—if anything, it’s the most exposed you’ve seen him outside the night he gave you his mother’s brush.

“No, it’s not a relief,” Andy says finally. “It’s a liability.” He stops. Inhales. “You’re a liability.”

You did not expect those words, and almost lands as an insult, but instead you’re almost proud—finally, something true and ugly, not polished for effect. “I’ll try not to be,” you say with a humorless smile, but the ache in your throat is getting worse, and now it’s not from fatigue.

He sighs, and you hear the edge of human tiredness in him, not the constructed fatigue of someone performing the part. “I know I was ruthless with you. I know what I am.”

The questions of why did you do any of it, then? why take the risk? why force me? why pretend? swirl in you like a storm, but you don’t let any of them out in this moment.

Instead, you venture, “Do you want to know what I hate the most?” You give him a look so sharp you hope it draws blood, but you’re too tired for real malice. “I hate that it was good. I hate that you were better than I expected in ways that made me want things I couldn’t have. I hate that you made me want to stay, and then made it impossible to stay.” You take in a deep breath and then say the worst part. “I hate that I’m heartbroken.”

Andy absorbs this. He doesn’t try to talk you down or walk back the truth you’ve lobbed at him. He just rubs a hand over his bearded jaw, and when it drops away, you see the faint trembling in his fingers.

“I didn’t want it to end that way,” he says at last, staring at the tabletop between you like it might yield the correct answer if he keeps staring. “I thought if I took you far enough away, surrounded us with something perfect, we could…” He searches for the word, but even he doesn’t seem to know what shape to give it. “It doesn’t matter.”

You almost want to ask him what it was supposed to be between you, but what does it matter? How are you supposed to trust any of it?

Andy turns his head, gaze fixed on the oval window, the blue-white arc of the jet’s wing. “I can’t shut it off,” he says after a long beat. “I thought with you, maybe—” He stops. “I wanted to.”

You blink, not sure you heard it right. Maybe he’s angling for sympathy, but the words don’t quite land that way; they’re surrendered, not given.

You almost say, I wanted that, too. But the words feel buried under the weight in your throat. You’ve been in almost this spot with him before, and you won’t give him another soft admission this time.

You remember the reverence in his voice one of those blissful, happy nights in Lake Como, a tone you’d never heard before.

“I like us here,” he’d murmured into your ear.

And you, caught in the spell of it, had admitted, “I do, too.”

“I’ll be in New York for the next week. Maybe two.” Like he’s talking about going out for a carton of milk. “There are things I need to set in order since I’ve been gone.”

Everything inside you wants to spit something cruel, but you just nod, keeping your eyes fixed on the window. “You’ll have Shep and Mark. I’m not leaving you unprotected. But…” he pauses. Sighs, the word dissolving before it’s fully formed. “You can do what you want with the time.” You wonder if he thinks this is a kindness. If he expects gratitude. You say nothing. The silence endures, painful, invasive. He says, “I’ll be out of your way,” again, softer, and this time you almost believe he means it as penance.

You land at Logan airport. The customs officials board the plane and clear you for re-entry. The black Range Rover is waiting on the tarmac, backseat climate-controlled and softly lit, Mark up front, Shep waiting with the rear door open, his posture all respectful deference and zero curiosity.

Andy doesn’t make a show of seeing you to the car. He simply helps load your bag in the trunk and shakes Shep’s hand as if he’s passing along a charge. There’s no hug, no goodbye, but there is one last look. Short, and with a nod. Then he’s on the phone before you’ve finished getting into the back seat, and he’s striding back to climb the stairs into the plane and leave you for New York.

The city’s lights seem surgical after weeks of olive oil and sun, a whole different wavelength—unfamiliar, then familiar, because Boston is still utterly, inescapably home. The perimeter of things you have to face here is coming into focus, and beyond the ache in your ribcage and the hollowing exhaustion, there is a brittle sense that you are braced for it. At least some parts are. The rest is raw and soft and probably always will be.

You expect the house to be cold and dark, but you forgot that Andy’s people would keep the mechanisms of daily life humming and stoke them back to full life for your return. The lights are on, the entry immaculate, flowers everywhere.

The re-entry is a shock to the system. You wander upstairs and stand under the shower’s sterile, even heat, so different from the sun-warmed water at the villa. You let the cold marble chill your feet, a grounding sensation, and watch condensation erase your reflection in the glass.

You are halfway dried off and dressed in a robe when you hear Shep’s voice through the hallway, relaying some detail of tomorrow’s schedule to Mark—something about groceries and deliveries and your standing appointment at the studio. You almost want to cry at the normalcy. The urge to resent Andy for anticipating all your needs, for giving you back this version of your life like it’s a favor is strong, and yet it’s a relief to not have to fight for things to start up again.

You are almost ready to crawl into bed and lose yourself in a marathon of whatever the algorithm serves you, but there’s a knock at your bedroom door. You’re so unused to being summoned that your first thought is that you imagined it. The knock comes again, firmer.

A voice follows: “Ma’am?” It’s Shep.

You cinch the robe, open the door. Shep stands there, hands folded in front of him, gaze respectfully averted.

“Shep, you really can’t keep calling me ‘ma’am.’ You’re, what? Eight? Ten years older than me? It’s weird.”

He gives a short, almost silent laugh. “Forgive me. It’s not a matter of age. It’s just—never first names, not in this line of work.” His words settle with a gentle finality, as if he’s stating one of the few things in his world that is simply not negotiable. You want to argue—tease, even—but there’s a dignity in Shep’s posture that tells you he’s not performing. It’s not subordination, but a kind of personal code. “If you don’t want ma’am, I can use Mrs. Barber, or an equivalent. But never your first name. That’s not respectful.”

You almost smile at this. “Fine,” you say, “ma’am if you absolutely must. But you can drop the tone like you’re addressing the principal.”

He nods, a fraction less rigid. “Understood.” The corner of his mouth lifts, just barely.

“Is this just a courtesy check, or?”

“No, there’s a small matter that needs your attention down in the kitchen.”

“Alright, give me just a moment.”

He nods, and you close the door. You throw on leggings and a cashmere sweater, not bothering with makeup or anything else, and head down the wide staircase, following Shep. “What about a nickname? Like my security detail codename! You have those for us, right? Like the Secret Service?”

“Your codename on the records is ‘Mrs. Barber.’”

“That’s lame,” you huff. “It literally couldn’t be anything more interesting than that?”

Shep’s shoulders hint at a shrug, and the movement smooths out his usual ex-military stony bearing. “He insisted upon it from day one, ma’am, but we all would have. Codenames are for assets, not family. You’re not an asset.”

“I might as well be,” you mutter. But you drop it as Shep steers you into the kitchen, where the lights are bright, the air is flush with the smell of American fast food, and two figures you’d know anywhere are such a profound relief you could weep.

Your parents are standing at the island, your father in his battered Red Sox sweatshirt and your mother wearing a navy cardigan you would have called “teacher-core” if you had the emotional bandwidth for jokes. She’s unpacking a paper bag from Shake Shack, a guilty-pleasure custom sandwich in each hand. Your dad is setting out cartons of fries and the crinkle-cut pickles that only your mother will touch, and both parents look up in the same instant when they see you.

For one sharp, embarrassing second you nearly cry. Not from homesickness, but an animal relief you didn’t realize you’d been holding at bay for weeks. You’re in your own kitchen, your parents are here, and you have never felt so much like a child in your adult life.

Your mother, of course, crosses the kitchen in three steps, gathers you in a hug so tight you hope your ribs pop. She doesn’t let go, not when your dad comes around to add his own arms, both of them holding you in a sandwich of warmth and cheap detergent and fryer grease.

She smells your hair, then cups your jaw with one hand, tilting your face to the light. “You look too thin,” she says, which is her form of ‘I missed you so much it hurts,’ and you almost laugh, because you know you undoubtedly filled out more with all the indulgent meals and sweets that you never worried about at the villa.

“Oh, she’s fine,” your dad says, and then to you, “You look great, kid.” He scuffs your shoulder and draws you in, rolling his eyes at your mother in the way of a man who has built his whole life around loving her, and of course you.

You mumble something about not expecting them, as you step back.

“Did we overstep?” your mom flusters. “Andy texted us yesterday that you were coming home but that he had to go directly out of town for a bit, and he said there’d be nobody here to greet you. I thought—”

“We didn’t want you coming home to an empty house,” your father finishes.

You’re hit with the double impact of their presence—the comfort of being known and the mortification of being inspected by people who will always see more than you want them to.

“You didn’t overstep,” you say, because you realize it’s the closest thing to relief you’ve felt since boarding the plane. “I just. I’m really glad to see you.”

Your mother beams. “You don’t have to thank us, dear. You know we’d walk through fire for you.” She is, as ever, immediately in motion, pulling a chair out and patting it, already unwrapping your sandwich, refilling your water bottle, doggedly ignoring the bags under your eyes and the maternal worry warping every word. “Sit, sit, and tell us everything.”

You sit with them at the kitchen island, because that’s what you’ve always done, and let them fuss and fill your plate and ask questions you are both eager and terrified to answer as you fill your stomach with food that feels like home.

You do not tell your parents about the end of what happened in Italy, but you do tell them every detail of the lake, the food, the neighbors, and Lloyd—your mother wants to know everything, leaning forward on her elbows, and your father sits back with his arms crossed and a look on his face like he can’t quite decide if Lloyd is the funniest thing he’s ever heard or if you’re making him up. You leave out his mafia affiliation, of course.

You focus on what isn’t hard to say: the meals, the wine, the impossible blue of the water, the way Andy cooked from his mother’s recipe book. You skip all the nights of the last week, and edit your time down to just sun and laughter and the gradual narrowing of a world to the shape of the villa.

You let yourself be cared for. With every bite of the familiar food, every casual question about their friends, the tension in your shoulders eases. They are a shelter you didn’t know you were desperate for. You watch them, these people who have nursed you through everything, and know their love could contain the entire ugly truth. But the words won’t come—not about Andy, not about a marriage that feels both forced upon you and chosen, the two truths tangled so tightly you can’t find the start of either one. Especially not now, with damage you haven’t yet found the language for.

When your mother’s phone lights up mid-anecdote with a call from one of her friends, she excuses herself with an apologetic grimace and heads down the hall. You expect her to linger in the mudroom or maybe stand in the foyer, but she vanishes properly, leaving you and your father alone at the island.

He checks to make sure your mother is out of earshot, then sighs and leans in, folding his arms on the stone counter. He’s never been good at letting silence hang, so you brace for the bluntness you know is coming.

He says your name, softly. “Level with me. Are you okay?”

You look at your father, and your first impulse is to say, yes, of course, because you always want to be his strong, brave little girl. But you’re beyond empty, and the real answer is floating so close to the surface.

“No,” you say. “But I will be.”

He tilts his head, studying you, and you recall, with a sick kind of fondness, how your dad has never bought a single lie out of your mouth, not since you were six and inventing elaborate reasons for missing homework. He waits. His face settles into something patient and unguarded, the same expression you remember from every hard conversation you’ve ever had at a kitchen table with this man.

You flex your fingers around your glass, smearing the condensation that’s gathered there, and then you admit, honestly, “I don’t know, Dad.” Your voice comes out calm, steadier than you expected. “This all spun out a little faster than I thought it would.”

He nods slowly, his eyes dropping to the Shake Shack wrappers between you. “Your mother threw a plate at me once.” He says it quietly, picking at a napkin. “1987. We’d been married two years. I’m not telling you marriage is hard—you know that.” He finally looks up, his eyes steady. “I’m just telling you it’s your choice. And if you ever needed to just… come home,” he gestures vaguely at the room around you, “you could. You know that, right?”

You force yourself to nod, not trusting your throat to work around too many words. “I know. I do.”

Your father’s face breaks into a tiny smile, and it’s the only thing that keeps you from falling apart entirely. He squeezes your hand, then clears his throat. “It’s better with a full stomach,” he says, gesturing at the wrappers, “and better with company.”

Your mother returns, phone call over. “You two didn’t finish all the fries, did you?”

You shake your head and say, “Wouldn’t dare.”

Your father passes the rest of his fries to her, and your heart thrums happily watching them.

The evening winds into a tangle of low, sweet moments—your mother gushing over some of the gorgeous kitchen appliances, your dad quietly snooping through the fridge and coming back with four pints of ice cream, and insists you all do blind taste tests until your tongue is numb and you cannot stop laughing.

Eventually the yawns win out, your mother shooing you off the kitchen stool like a child past her bedtime. You protest, but your body sags in grateful relief as she ushers you up the stairs. Your parents gather their things, making you promise to come by theirs Sunday for brunch and any other night you just want company while Andy’s gone.

Back upstairs, you truly internalize that you’ve never been alone like this in this bedroom alone before. It’s the same room, the same balcony view, the same walk-in closet and familiar textures, but no one was waiting, and no one will eventually join you.

Andy is not here. He is not coming—not tonight, not for a week, probably not for longer.

The actuality of it feels weirdly hollow.

You drift through the motions of bedtime. You try to read for a bit, and you’re sure you do, but the words blur and ghost by. Your teeth are brushed, your face is washed; you can’t quite remember doing either. You are so wrung out you can barely cobble together the will to change into pajamas. You settle for underwear and a t-shirt, and sink into the endless white of the sheets.

You fall into a deep, dreamless sleep, and when you surface again, it’s to a spill of midmorning light and an unfamiliar quiet. For a second you forget where you are. The confusion is clean, like you could be anyone and in any life, and you let it last until the dull ache in your chest has time to catch up, and you realize you’re in the bed, alone. You feel oddly rested. Not good, necessarily, but not the emotional hangover you’ve been battling back bit by bit each day, either. It’s as if your body has decided, somewhere deep inside, to metabolize all the heartbreak and embarrassment into a low, manageable hum now that you’re back in Boston.

You rouse yourself and stretch, expecting the sensation of Andy’s hand on your lower back, but there’s only the cool rush of linen and your own skin. You lie there, staring up. The ceiling molds itself around the sunlight in a way that makes you ache for the lake villa, for the slow, gold mornings that rewired you to want gentleness.

You get up, pad across the cold floor, and spend an aimless hour in the shower, letting the spray needle your scalp until your thoughts turn clear. You towel off, dress comfortably, and head for the kitchen, not even bothering with a bra or shoes because this giant house is where you live and you don’t care who sees you here.

After breakfast, you meander into your study, pleased to see your plants were well taken care of in your absence, but after only glancing at the elegant desk with your laptop, you wander back out and head upstairs again.

You settle for the easiest distraction: unpacking. You’d only pulled out a couple of essentials the night before, and the suitcases are still half-zipped and listing open on the bench in the walk-in closet, the contents slumped and jumbled, exactly as you left them in the haze of last night. You unfold a tangle of linen dresses, roll up the last of the swimsuits. The second suitcase ends up containing the soft things you’d loved in Italy and the handful of gifts Andy had forced on you (a silk robe, the ridiculous but beautiful leather boots, the scarf you’re embarrassed you already missed). You’re nearly finished when you see it: a heavy cream envelope, not sealed, with your name written in Andy’s all-caps print.

You pause, thumb knocking the edge, considering whether to open, wait for some future courage, or refuse to read it altogether.

You stand in the middle of the closet, the envelope dense with the weight of what it might contain, and make yourself hold it for a count of ten, the way you once trained yourself to resist the urge to scratch mosquito bites as a child. Then you set it on the bench, hands steady, and back away as if it might be hot to the touch. You busy yourself with the rest of the suitcase, but your eyes keep wandering to the envelope. Eventually, you give in—how could you not—and stalk out of the closet, grab your phone, and hit Andy’s number before you can change your mind.

He answers before the second ring is finished. “I was waiting to see how long it would take,” he says, not quite soft, but without the shield of irony.

You don’t let him steer any further, not this time. “I found your letter,” you say.

There is a half-beat of stillness, then, “You haven’t opened it yet.” Not a question. A reading of you, as accurate as it is infuriating.

“No.” You squeeze the phone tighter, shift your weight from one foot to the other. “I hate you for knowing that.” You mean it to land with more weight, but it sounds raw.

“I figured you’d start with a text,” he replies, “but this is better.”

You close your eyes and force yourself to inhale, to let the silence expand before finally finding the words you want. “I can’t believe you wrote me a letter,” you tell him, and now the irritation has a shape and a target. “You don’t get to be Mr. Darcy. You don’t get to drop all this on a page.”

Andy lets out a short, breathy laugh. “I’m not pretending to be noble or romantic, or whatever you want to call it. I wrote it because I thought… I thought it might be easier for you to hear without having to look at me. Or fight me. Or argue.” A pause. “And maybe as a showing that I heard you and that you can read it in your own time. Or you don’t have to read it at all. It’s your choice.”

You want to hang up, to tell him that nothing on a page can fix the fact that you’re speaking only because of a letter he left for you to find, like some reverse land mine meant to detonate all of your resolve. But you don’t hang up.

“I might read it,” you say. You sit on the edge of the bed, the phone pressed to your ear. You don’t look at the envelope. “But since you might be listening, I’ll say this: I don’t care what you wrote. I need you to know it’s not about the letter. It’s about whether I can trust you to give me a real choice. A real relationship. Ever.”

Andy’s breathing is barely audible. “I know,” he says.

“I’m going to hang up now,” you tell him.

“Okay.” The word is a soft exhalation. Then he says your name, and you wait another moment before ending the call. “If you ever want to talk, I’ll always answer. No matter what.”

For those of you who were hurt/betrayed/livid after last chapter: I want you to know Andy doesn't get a quick fix overnight. I promise.

For better or for worse, because of how things combusted between them in Italy, our reader is going to be more assertive, more resistant, and hold her boundaries and demands more firmly. She still holds complicated feelings for him, but the feelings won't excuse or circumvent things anymore.

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The first one that popped into my head was:

Mostly because he’s Ransom. 🤣

But I feel like Ransom picks up on a lot of the vibes around him, and choose to poke the bear anyway 🤦‍♀️

But if he knew, and I mean knew that you wanted him, ohhhhh he’d definitely be playing hard to get (at first). There’d be a lot of “Awe Kitten!” When you’d try and make a move, where he’d pull you into a hug. Or my favourite, “sweetheart, I don’t think that dress is appropriate for family dinner.” When you’re wearing your best ‘fuck me’ dress.

But I don’t think Ransom has the willpower to hold out on you for very long. He’d maybe make you wait a few days before he lets you jump him. (And if it’s in the kitchen at his family dinner, all the better 😈)

But the man that I think could actually make you work for it?

Listen, the man’s a LAWYER. He can play games, and he’s an expert at mental ones. He’ll know probably before you even realize that you’re hot for him what’s going on. And despite the fact that he’s ready to plough you into next week, he’s also a man of ✨process✨ which means neither of you get laid 😭

But he knows, that the longer he makes you wait, the hornier you get.

The more desperate you are for him? Well Andy’s a happy man. Because even though he plays about being Mr. Respectable lawyer man, deep down? He needs you to be horny and desperate and willing to do the filthiest things to and for him. It’s what really gets him off. 😈

You have learned to read Andy well through the past weeks: the way he stands at a window, how he crosses the flagstone kitchen after lunch, the angle of his body when he sits at the enormous marble island, elbows planted, hands steepled. Today, there is nothing predatory in his posture—no sharpness, no smirk—but a kind of diffident calculation, as though he’s rehearsing a script only halfway written. Still, you leave him to reveal whatever it is he’s thinking about for when he decides to bring it out and present it to you. He remains contemplative all morning.

You are rinsing your plates after lunch, and you’re considering taking the walk down to the lake, when Andy finally says, “Wait.” The word lands with no urgency or demand, it is simply a marker before what he wants to come next.

When you turn, he is already moving toward the glass-fronted cabinet near the pantry—a section you have seen but never opened, because you’ve lived off simple meals through the early parts of the day—bread, figs, cheeses. And for the rest of your meals, at some point a private chef descends either to cook dinner or drop off dishes for the week, and occasionally Andy will drive you to one of the lakeshore trattorias and order for you in his fluent, unshowy Italian.

Andy returns to your side with an old, battered notebook in hand. He sets the notebook on the counter with both hands, a careful act. You recognize the reverence in his fingers, feel the slight uptick of gravity in the room.

It’s a spiral-bound thing, the kind you’d expect to find in a grandmother’s kitchen drawer—edges dog-eared, pages stained with rings and flour-dust, a dozen tabs made of masking tape and ancient Post-its. The front cover says, in an elaborate, feminine hand: FAMILY RECIPES.

You dry your hands before reaching for the precious tome. You flip through the pages, careful, running your thumb along the edge the way you might with old money or ancient letters. Most of the recipes are written in faded, looping script, others in blocky, penciled all-caps. There are short, cryptic notes in the margins—“add more lemon if not fresh,” “marinate overnight or don’t bother”—and the effect is of something not curated for show, but built up over years of trial and error.

You glance up at Andy, who is watching you with a studied nonchalance, as if he might bolt if you laugh at this offering.

You run your hand down the page, feeling the indentations of the pen, the grit of flour caught in the spiral’s seam. “Did you ever make these? Or is this… was this your mom’s?”

“It was hers. We made most everything in there at some point together.” He shrugs, not quite meeting your eyes. You imagine the blocky script then has to be his additions and annotations. “I thought it might be good to have a few things from home here. For the future.”

The word future lands heavy between you, but not unwelcome. He edges closer, almost bashful, as if worried that presenting this piece of his past is a violation, or an imposition, or worse, a vulnerability. You can hardly believe how tentative this moment is between the two of you, how precious and telling.

“Which do you like?” you ask, voice softer than you intend, but Andy doesn’t seem to mind. He leans in and flips to a page marked with a yellowing Post-it, the ink here a mix of bold and delicate: LEMON CHICKEN. There is a doodle of a chicken in the margin, and a note in a younger hand: “good for impressing guests.”

Andy’s finger rests there, but he doesn’t speak right away. Instead, he moves behind you, arms coming to rest on either side of the notebook, bracketing you in. His chin finds your shoulder. “We could try this one,” he says, after a moment. Another beat, and then, “It’s more complicated than it looks.” His mouth is close to your ear, but the games are absent; this is not a seduction, but something closer to an ask. You realize it is important to him, more than he will admit.

Your turn your head slightly so you can meet each others’ eyes. “For tonight?”

You see the exact second he wants to say, No, not tonight, but he’s set this gambit in motion, and a mafia boss won’t blink. “Tonight’s good if you’re up for it,” he says, as though it isn’t the most loaded suggestion possible.

You are up for it. And it’s the first of what becomes the everyday ritual of cooking something out of the family recipe book for dinner together.

The first day you attempt the lemon chicken, you are both so hyper-focused on the recipe that you forget to set the table, and end up eating off the kitchen island straight out of the pans.

The next night you try the thyme and basil roast pork, and the next after that, a tortellini in brodo that requires two hours of simmering and a phone call to Ugo for advice about the right kind of herbs to gather from the garden.

By the end of the week, you are inviting dinner guests—first just a pair, then a trickle, then somehow, the momentum of the lake and the villa and the rumor of a young American couple in residence brings neighbors out of the woodwork. There’s a widow from the slope above, her British accent perfection and her opinions more so, and the retired engineer with his grandchild, and eventually, a small parade of acquaintances who rotate through with bottles of local wine and offers to swap garden produce. The first time, you’re nervous, certain one or another of them will see through you and Andy, but the rhythm of food and small talk smooths everything while also seeming to stitch the two of you closer together.

If there’s one spot on the estate of this Italian villa that you love more than any other, it is, without question, the terrace that features a fine outdoor dining table intended for small gatherings of friends or family, nestled under a lush, vine-covered pergola looking directly over the lake. Now that it’s coming into late October, the evening temperatures of autumn are crisp enough that everyone is in sweaters, and there are heat lamps, but with the warmth precautions, it’s still pleasant enough to eat outside in the stunning setting. The space is illuminated by a stunning chandelier glass chandelier, augmented with strings of white lights threaded through the vines. It’s been the most enchanting place to host your new friends with your new husband in this new life that feels endlessly surreal.

The dinner table is big enough for twelve, but tonight it’s just eight. There is a bowl of lemons at the center, bright as orbs stolen from a still-life painting, and the smell of the lake is so clean and sharp you can taste it even through the heady wafts of roast chicken and white wine. Andy pours for everyone, moving around the table with a host’s grace that no one at the table would clock as anything but camaraderie, except you who knows that he’s a ruthless mafia boss back home, but even you question who he is now that you’ve seen so many new elements of him that exist here.

Tonight, the table is loud with stories and laughter. The gathering includes the widow, Sarah, with her foxlike charm and acid tongue; the engineer, Paolo, his wife, and their college-aged grandson, who is mortified by everything; and a pair from lower on the hillside, a married couple who bring a kind of Mediterranean tennis-pro energy despite clearly hating sports. There are also two empty seats for “a last-minute add-on,” as Andy puts it, and when they arrive, it’s a surprise: Sarah’s daughter, home from Rome, and her boyfriend, a Spaniard who teaches at the university.

You’ve come to relish hosting the rotating circle strangers-turned-friends you’re quickly building, but you’re still adjusting to the tradition of an Italian dinner party, which is as much about the relentless, cascading waves of conversation, as it is about the food. Here, no one is allowed to be quiet for long.

You’re impressed at the ease with which Andy navigates all pockets of conversation across the table, how deftly he manages the pivots from politics, to soccer, to the village gossip. It seems impossible, but he makes it look like he’s always lived here, always belonged.

You play the part too, trading stories, laughing into the night. When Sarah asks, point-blank and with the confidence of the terminally curious, “So. You two—how did this happen?” she makes a little waggle of her empty glass at your newly minted wedding bands. “You’re newlyweds, and you said it was a quick engagement, but what got you to that altar? How did you and Andy meet? You never told us the whole of that story.”

The table hushes, expectant. You’ve become aware how much you’ve inherited Andy’s ability to evade and deflect, to answer with a truth that is not entirely true.

Andy’s head cocks. He’s winding up for a deadpan lie or a polite deflection, but you’re quicker tonight, emboldened by the wine and the waves of collective cheer.

“Oh, it’s nothing as romantic as it looks.” You set your fork down, lean an elbow on the table, and say, “He extorted me. Threatened to ruin my life if I didn’t say yes.”

There’s a beat of silence, then the neighbors laugh—first a burst from the widow, then the rest, the sound rolling in like the waves lapping up against the property of the villa. “Honestly, I’m trapped. A prisoner of the fearsome Andy Barber.”

The joke lands, the table erupts in laughter, but Andy is not among them. His mouth approximates a smile, sure, but there’s a sudden, unmistakable torque to his jaw that tells you he in no way appreciates your antics. Nobody else catches it, and then Paolo is recounting his own disastrous engagement story for the benefit of his grandson and the young Spaniard, who are, against all odds, enraptured. But you see the way Andy’s hand curls around his wine stem, the white of his thumb gone bloodless, and you feel the new coil of tension slither under the table straight from where he sits at the head of the table to where you sit on the other end.

When you excuse yourself to fetch dessert from the kitchen inside, Andy follows. He is so casual about it—“let me help,” because he always does as you two host these evenings—that no one at the table thinks twice. But when you pass from the spill of terrace light into the dimness of the patio leading up to the villa, you feel the change in pressure, the sharp coiled energy in the silence. You can feel every motion of Andy stalking behind you, every footstep measured, the gravity of his attention drawing up the length of your spine.

You step into the kitchen and turn to face him, but he’s already seized your wrist, pinning you to the cool marble counter with so little force it’s almost nothing, but you both know the implication. His eyes are dark, unblinking.

“Don’t do that again,” Andy says, voice only just above a whisper. “Don’t ever joke about me owning you.”

You stare at him, momentarily stunned by the vehemence, but you hardly miss a beat, and the words, “But you do, don’t you?” tumble out of your mouth.

You say it like a dare, but Andy steps even closer, eliminating the gap until your hip is pressed flat to the lip of the counter. “I would burn down everything you’ve ever loved before I let you make a cheap joke of this,” he says, but his hand is shaking, and he doesn’t even try to hide it. “Don’t do that again.” His grip tightens, a flash of heat, then he releases you. He turns away, breath ragged. You haven’t seen him so intensely worked up in months. You forgot this part of him existed.

You stay where you are, hand braced on the marble, as Andy looms back to his full height. You feel something flare at your core—that traitorous twist of desire when he’s like this, a spike of outrage that he’s resorted to it, the seams of both threading together tight as wire.

You tilt your chin up to meet his gaze, your pulse steadying into a challenge of its own. “It was only meant to be clever banter,” you say, careful to keep your voice low and even, but letting him hear the needle in it. “No one believed it.”

He doesn’t respond right away. Andy’s eyes bore into you, reading for signs of retreat or remorse. When he finds neither, he finally inhales—slow, deliberate, calming himself by increments.

“I know what you were doing,” he says. Because you know as well as he does that jokes are always a vector for the truth. “But I mean it. Don’t.”

He’s still a gracious, charming host the rest of the evening, but you see that it’s subdued, less warm.

The moment you’ve called out the last of your goodnights from the front steps as your guests wander home, Andy turns, looks at you with those hard, steel blue eyes, and goes inside without a word.

Now it’s you following him into the kitchen, because the clean up from these dinners with friends has become part of the closing ritual that you two share, as well, but when you step up next to Andy at the sink, he growls, “Leave it and go upstairs.”

You don’t bother to argue, to offer some response meant to salve either of you and smooth things over. Instead, you pivot with a clipped, “Fine,” and leave him. You don’t bother flipping on lights as you reach the master. You stand there in the dark, hearing your own heart thumping, feeling every inch of your skin alive and restless, your body trying to decide if it is angry or simply keyed up by the aftershock of that confrontation.

You pace the bedroom, back and forth, and finally drop onto the edge of the bed, arms crossed hard over your chest. For endless minutes, you’re just locked there in the moon-shadow, staring out over the black sweep of the lake, counting seconds. You’re waiting to hear Andy’s footsteps, the sound of him coming up to finish what he started, to demand a further reckoning.

When Andy finally comes upstairs, you’re ready for him. He enters without a word—just a sweep of dark eyes, a tightening of his mouth as he closes the door behind him, the quiet slide of the latch declaring this space sealed from the rest of the world. You don’t let him get two steps in before you say, “It’s not going to be anything like it is here when we go back to Boston, is it?”

He stops. The shadows cut the sharp lines of his bearded jaw, and for a second you wonder if he’ll lie—if he’ll even bother with a performance for your benefit or simply bulldoze past the question. Instead, he stands there, hands in his pockets, and weighs you like a problem.

“No,” he says. “It won’t.”

You push up from the bed and take a few steps forward. “Why?”

He stalks the edge of the bedroom, not coming closer, his hands still jammed in his pockets. His voice is quieter, but it vibrates at a pitch meant for you alone. “Because,” Andy says, each syllable landing deliberate, “a honeymoon is a liminal space, a fairytale. It isn’t real.”

You know what he means, but you want to punish him for the admission, want to see how far he’ll go in spelling it out. You cross your arms tighter, say nothing, hold the silence until he continues. He’s right, but this hurts because you wanted it to be more than temporary.

“This,” he gestures vaguely—at your body, at the lake, at the high, old bones of the house, and the air quivering between you—“is a retreat. It’s not the world. It’s not sustainable. I borrowed this time for us. But it can’t last.” You watch him, still and wary.

“Why can’t you fucking want us?” Andy asks.

You want to scream because somehow you’ve unraveled everything right back to the start in the space of mere hours. You don’t scream, but you do choke on a frustrating sob when you say, “Because you demanded it. I would have chosen you if you’d been kind instead of cruel, but you never even gave me a choice.”

You say that last part too loud, but you want him to hear the garble and the pain in it, that you want him to finally react as a person, not as an institution or a fortress. Andy holds very still.

“Don’t you see?” he says, and he’s close enough now that you can see the quiver in his left hand. Then his hands curl, not into fists, but into something worse—into the shape of wanting to touch you. He comes closer, walking with a kind of exhausted inevitability, and you can tell he’s been fighting with the words since before he came up the stairs. “If I didn’t take you, you would have run.”

You surge forward and raise your hand to slap him, but he catches your wrist before you can strike. You try to shake out of his hold, but he doesn’t let you.

“You don’t know that,” you argue. “You never even let me make the call.”

Andy doesn’t flinch, but his grip changes, less capture and more containment. Andy’s breaths are ugly and uneven. “I wasn’t going to risk it. I couldn’t.”

Your pulse is skittering under his thumb where it grips your wrist. You wish you could say the feelings are all anger, but the emotions are thick with something raw and unkillable that’s lived under your skin since the first week you met, all the more terrible and breathtaking now that whatever’s between you has evolved and expanded deeply here in Italy. You close your eyes, just for a second, because the only thing worse than being seen by Andy is seeing the want on his face.

He yanks your body tight to his, foreheads nearly colliding. You feel the way his whole being is trembling, probably close to shattering, you in the fallout zone. “You don’t understand,” Andy says, and you hear the ferocity in his conviction.

“Then make me,” you bite back.

You are thrust backward, the world contracting to the violence of his mouth on yours, then down the column of your neck, his tongue ferocious and wild. There is nothing careful in the way Andy drags you toward the bed, your body crashing against the mattress, his grip so absolute you know you’ll wear the ghost of his fingers for days. He tears at your clothes—not undressing you, but stripping you, rough and elemental—and pins your wrists above your head, his weight a pact that you are not leaving, not now, not ever.

He fucks you with a savagery you haven’t seen in him since the earliest days, when everything between you was a war, and then an addiction, and then a war again. There is no foreplay because your bodies remember every password, every escalation, and Andy knows yours by heart. He forces you open, mouths your skin so hard you arch up in shock, pleasure already a cry from your throat. He bites at your mouth, your jaw, the line of your neck.

He forces a knee between your legs, spreads you wide, and fucks into you in a single, savage thrust so deep your vision whites out for a second. There’s only the impact of Andy’s hips crashing into you, the push and force of hands you could never mistake for gentle. You are flipped as if you weigh nothing, your face pressed to the mattress, your body pinned in a way that is—should be—danger, but now reads as his. Because his cock finds you wet, spread, so ready you want to scream with the humiliation of it, and when he plunges in, you do scream, muffled by fists knotted in the bedding. He fucks you with a violence that lights up every nerve ending in your body, stroking so deep it feels like he’s remaking you, each thrust a seismic reminder that you are his, that you have always been his, that even now, especially now, you want it. You want it more than you want to win.

He is relentless. He takes you from behind so hard you nearly lose your bearings, his hands bruising your hips, his cock battering a rhythm into you with no mercy, no space for anything but the friction and fullness. He grunts into your shoulder, each sound a confirmation that the only thing he wants is more—more from you, more inside you, more of everything you have to give.

When you come, it’s not a climax so much as a collapse, a convulsion that tears something loose, but Andy doesn’t slow down. He fucks you through it, not letting up, as if your pleasure is a thing to be drained. You sob, raw, and he covers your mouth with his—biting, licking, silencing the sharpness with his tongue. He flips you again, manhandling you onto your back, and hooks your knees over his elbows, spreading you so wide you can barely breathe. His cock pistons in you, deeper, until you are gasping, keening, until you are reduced to the rawest version of yourself, nothing left but sensation, the feel of him, the violence of his wanting you.

He is not gentle, not even a little, and you don’t want gentle. You want to be consumed, and Andy obliges—he fucks you until your body is shaking, until the tears spill down your face, until your voice is hoarse from the pleading, the yes, the please, the more that you can’t help falling from your lips. He does not stop. Not until you are truly broken open, legs trembling, cunt so raw and used you think you will never get the ache out of your bones.

He circles back to your mouth, forces his tongue inside, kisses you with the same ferocity as he fucks you. He bites your lower lip until you taste blood, and then licks it away, tongue soft as an apology, but you know it is not one. You have been wrecked in the span of a few minutes, but it’s clear he’s not done.

He is going to fuck you until you don’t remember your own name.

He crawls up over your body, grabbing your jaw with his big hand and shoving the wet head of his cock between your lips, not waiting for an invitation. The first taste is salt and skin, your juices and his precum, the burn of him so deep on your tongue you gag, but Andy does not relent. He drives his cock into your throat, one hand fisting in your hair to keep you exactly where he needs you, the other bracing against the wall as he looms over you, and all you can do is take it. If you try to twist away, he holds you tighter. If you choke, he says, “Good girl,” and pushes in further. Your vision blurs with new tears as he fucks your face, the thick, hot shaft of him relentless, your mouth ruined already from the earlier kisses and now wrecked by the invasion.

You want to hate him for it, you’re sure you do, but you are gone, reduced to this animal need to please and to be conquered, to see how far he’ll push you and whether you’ll break. You need to be ruined by him, made anew, fucked out of even the memory of the anger that brought you here. You try to breathe through your nose but he’s too deep for too long, and when he finally lets go, you gasp so hard your lungs ache.

Andy groans as he fists himself furiously and then comes across your face, and shifts so he can shoot the rest of his load over your chest. When he finally releases your head, you collapse backward on the bed, breath heaving, spit and come and tears streaking your face. Andy towers over you, his own chest heaving in time with yours.

You feel the collapsing hush of the bedroom as Andy composes himself, standing at the edge of the mattress, his features still marred by the wet brilliance of anger and longing both. Your legs are spread, trembling, and you hate how much you love the weightless aftermath of being used until your head empties out, until there’s no room for doubt, only this: this knowing, this rawness, like a secret you must never confess.

You don’t flinch as he reaches for your chin, thumb smearing his come from the corner of your mouth and dragging it slow across your cheek, tracing his claim into the skin. It’s humiliating, and it’s the only thing that quells the shaking inside you.

He leans down, bracing his hands on either side of your head, and you see the play of war and reverence in his face—still caught between violence and awe. Then he kisses you, you, deep, with a hunger that seems bottomless, the heat of his tongue against your teeth and the salt-blind taste of your own tears and the ache he’s left in every muscle. The kiss is messy, open-mouthed, more bite than balm, but it binds you to him in ways words never could. You can taste the iron resolve in it, the promise of obliteration and devotion entwined. He doesn’t say “I love you” — and you don’t want him to. Not like this, not ever. All the same, you know the truth of it down to your marrow.

Andy injects his cursed, talented fingers into your cunt, tormenting you with the mess of your ruin, again, knuckles grazing your clit and making you buck up on reflex because you are so tender and slick all movement is pain-laced pleasure, so much more intense than usual. He probes two fingers inside, pressing deep and curling to stroke that perfect, devastating spot. “You’re dripping, cunt still gripping for me,” he murmurs with a strange reverence, as if confirming a suspicion about the physics of your body. He works his fingers in and out with increasing speed, and the obscene wet sound of it is so raw you want to die. “You take every inch of me,” he says, not as a question, but as the ending to an equation. “You’re made for me.”

He moves with a deliberate roughness, fucking you with his hand, thumb never leaving your clit, and in seconds you’re strung out and shuddering again, unable to stop. You wail into the darkness, no longer caring if it sounds like anger, or keening, or the wound of wanting. Andy doubles down, unrelenting, until your body spasms and you break yet another time for him, this time so wrung out you black the edges of your own consciousness, every muscle clamped and helpless to resist.

After, you lie there, wrecked, every limb trembling and dead, your breathing wild and uneven. Andy finally draws away from you, leaving, and you can’t pinpoint to where since you can hardly sustain your own functionality.

Andy’s presence is gone for less than a minute, but the void is so total it makes your ears ring. When he returns, he is silent. He carries a hand towel in one hand, and in the other, a damp cloth. You lie there, still splayed and shaking, and let him clean you—face, chin, the slick mess over your breasts. He is methodical, almost gentle, the movements so unlike the violence that came before you want to claw at him for the contradiction. You’d planned to meet his eyes, maybe spit a retort or something wounding to break the spell, but the look on his face is so devastating, so utterly intent on you, that you can only stare back and let him do what he will.

He wipes his hands and sets the towel aside. Then leans back, surveying you. He should be satisfied, should be spent, but you feel the air thicken again—the promise of more, of escalation. Without further warning, Andy slides his hands under your shoulder and thigh and flips you face-down to the mattress, your body a ragdoll in his grip. You are so dazed you don’t even register the force of it, the way he wrests your upper half down to the pillows while yanking your hips up with his other hand. You wind up face down, arms crushed beneath your chest, your ass arched in the air and on display, vulnerable and wide open.

You whimper, not even sure if it’s resistance or anticipation, and try to close your legs, but Andy just presses your knees wider, immobilizing you with a ruthlessness that’s almost tender.

He presses your chest to the mattress with one palm, weight pinning you flat, the other hand palming your ass, squeezing, kneading, as if cataloguing every inch of you before making a decision. You can’t see him, but you feel the heat of his breath ghost over your skin, and then—his tongue, hot and slick, working a slow, punishing stripe from your cunt to the rosebud of your asshole. You buck, shocked at the invasion, but Andy’s grip on your hip is iron.

The first lick is speculative, as if Andy is testing the edge of your reaction, what you have left in you tonight, but when your hips jerk and you press back, he doubles down, dragging his tongue in slow, obscene circles around your rim, then spearing it in with a precision that leaves you keening into the bedding. He holds you wide, open, and feasts on you, his tongue circling and plunging, working you in both places with obscene, relentless pressure. It is too much, and not enough, and you cannot believe you are so needy that when he works his thumb inside your ass, you nearly come from just that.

He fucks you with his tongue and his fingers and then both, alternating, escalating, until your thighs are slick and the sheets beneath them are soaked, and you have lost the thread of yourself entirely. There is no air, no sound but your own voice breaking, the wet slick of his mouth and the way your body trembles and begs for more. You arch, you plead, you scream into the mattress, devoured, mindless, reduced to a surface of nerves and a single quaking need. It is worse—better—when he spits on your asshole, massaging it with two wet fingers before working them in, stretching, filling, never ceasing his licking and sucking at your clit.

You sob, humiliated and mind-shattered, when Andy’s fingers press deeper, opening you; you arch and shudder, every part of you stinging, burning, exquisitely ruined. He pushes three fingers into your cunt, then adds a second into your ass, the double invasion so intense it makes you come almost instantly, the orgasm breaking through you like a blackout. You can’t move, can’t even process the pleasure—just take it, and take it, every aftershock.

Andy finishes you, and himself, in a blur of escalation and satisfaction, then, without ceremony, lifts you from the wreckage of the sheets—one arm under your knees, the other braced at your back. You’re so limp he might as well be carrying a sack of flour. He deposits you so achingly gently onto the still cool and untouched side f te bed, then climbs in beside you. He wraps both arms around you, winding you tight into his chest, flushed naked skin next to his flushed naked skin. You don’t fight him. In fact, you’re still so strung out that you cling to him, so spent it takes you a minute to realize he’s murmuring something—a string of words, low and urgent, nearly inaudible above the static in your ears.

You scrabble for a reply, but your own pulse is so loud it drowns out everything; your only coherent thought is the feel of his hand in your hair, the rough sweetness of it, an anchor to reality.

You drift toward sleep. Andy holds you so tightly you can’t tell if your ribs ache from the aftershocks or from the pressure of his arms. His breath comes in a slow, deliberate cadence, each inhale a claim, each exhale an ironclad reassurance.

He never releases you. Even as your breathing slows, even as your mind empties out, he keeps you pinned to him, chest to chest, as unwilling to let you drift in sleep as he is this marriage. You can’t move. You don’t want to. There’s nothing left in you that isn’t claimed, nothing untouched by Andy’s insistence. Even your bones feel different.

Andy presses a solemn kiss to your forehead, and the weight of it is so grave, so final, that for a moment you are sure you will never be released.

You try to stay awake, to hold on to something—anger, maybe, or identity—but it dissolves, every thought leaching out of you until only Andy’s grip remains, steady and absolute.

You wake at dawn with your thigh thrown over his hip, his hand still buried in your hair. The room is cold, but your body is kept warmed by his. He still has you locked, but the violence is gone, replaced by a solemn stillness that feels almost, but not quite, like peace. You move to extricate yourself, but he anticipates the

As the waves of everything that transpired the night before roll over you, battering your memory, your throat aches, and your eyes burn, and softly you start to cry.

The last time you were held like this was years ago, childhood, your mother tucking you in on the worst night of your life. The same hush, the same grave quiet, as if by clutching close she could keep the world from breaking you. Some animal core in you recognizes the shape of this hold, the way it’s designed not just to possess but to comfort, to render you safe against your will.

You hate him for it. You hate him in a way that loops back on itself and becomes something else entirely. You hate that he’s devastatingly handsome, that he’s capable, that he’s clever and so good at loving you—yes, loving, you are not a fool. You hate that he can make you want him even after he’s destroyed you, that he can ruin your body for anyone else and then hold you like you are a thing to be treasured.

Andy wakes exactly when you need him to, which is to say, when you are at your worst, about to break down. His arms shift; his breath changes. You sense him resurface and look at you, then the thumb at your cheek, rough but oddly tender, and he wipes away a tear.

“Don’t cry,” he soothes, and you lean into his touch for one brief last moment.

When you push to roll away, Andy lets you go. You shift to the other side of the mattress, heft your legs over the side, and pull yourself out of bed. “I want to go back,” you say, voice sanded raw. You don’t say back to where—you both already know.

Andy props himself on an elbow, gaze unreadable. “Good,” he says. “I already arranged it.” His tone is flat, businesslike. “But not until the end of the week.”

You blink, waiting for the justification, and he gives it without you having to ask. “We’re expected for dinner at Paolo’s tomorrow, brunch at Sarah’s on Thursday, and we owe our neighbors a few more nightly dinners, so they don’t think anything’s awry.”

“You just expect me to play house with you until you let us leave?”

“That’s exactly what I expect of you. The charming newlyweds who’ve welcomed so many new friends to their home wouldn’t leave without inviting everyone over for a farewell-for-now dinner.”

It takes everything in you not to stamp your foot. “You’re unbelievably infuriating.”

You don’t wait for Andy to respond, biting down the taste of an argument you know he won’t let you win. You dress in whatever shirt is closest, clambering into soft pants and hissing at the burn between your legs as you do. You stalk through the villa and out onto the upper terrace. The sun is not fully over the mountains, and wind off the lake stings your face, cooling the sweat and salt and tears you haven’t yet washed off.

You pace the perimeter path above the water for an hour before you realize you haven’t brought anything with you—no phone, no shoes, not even the scarf you’ve worn every morning for weeks. It doesn’t matter. You don’t need anything but the sensation of your feet striking the cold flagstones, don’t need anything but the air to burn out the memory of last night and everything that led to it.

You re-enter the villa through the kitchen, hoping for empty space, but Andy’s already there, leaning over the marble island, hunched in concentration as he prepares your preferred morning drink right alongside his. He doesn’t look up right away, only when he’s poured your cup and slides it across the counter to you.

You take it, despite yourself, and let the liquid sooth the rawness in your throat.

“Chef’s been notified to resume evening meals,” he says without any undercurrent. “I told her to stock us up for the week, until we leave. If there’s anything you want, just let me know.”

“I’d like to have no plans,” you say, and the words come out so blunt it surprises even you. “No social obligations. No guests. No performances.”

Andy shakes his head. “You already know that’s not up for negotiation.”

“I won’t share a room with you here anymore.”

Andy takes a beat, then nods. “Fine,” he says, and you can feel the shift in him—the hard retraction of self.

You did not expect him to agree to that. And certainly not so easily.

So you quickly add, “I don’t want to share a room when we get back to Boston, either.”

Andy scoffs, and his eyes narrow. “No deal. We both own that this honeymoon has been a suspension of real life, so separate rooms will do us both good to recalibrate. But when we get back to Boston, you are my wife. My wife, not my guest. We start our real life then.”

You wonder if Andy’s version of real is something you will even recognize, let alone want.

You set your mug down with care, fingers curling around the handle as if to anchor yourself. Andy watches, lips pressed thin, and you can see he's expecting a counter or a protest. Instead, you say, “I don’t know if why you never believed me or never understood, but I said it in the beginning, I said it last night, and I still mean it now: you never should have forced me into you bed or to accept your proposal. You keep making these choices for us, and you keep assuming I would have run if you hadn’t forced it.” You wait for him to look at you, to meet your eyes, and when he does, you let out a breath that tastes like iron. “But that night—the first night—if you’d asked, really asked, I would have chosen you. No threat, no blackmail, no war. I would have said yes.”

You say this, and your hands shake around the mug, but you don’t look away. Andy doesn’t either. The stillness is absolute—so sharp you hear the tremor in your pulse, the old house humming with the tension of two people who want, and are ruined, and will not concede.

You really would have said yes to that first night and undoubtedly so much more.

You didn't know he was this—the depth and breadth of so much good, so much bad, so much ugly—but part of you had wanted him and assumed he'd never seriously entertain your as an option.

He’d taken you so seriously you never saw him coming.

A fairytale honeymoon had been the curse, not the breaking of a spell, and the next chapter awaiting you in Boston? You truly didn’t know where you would land, how it would mold and carve itself, especially now that you knew what had existed here with him in Lake Como, both of you transformed, and now seemingly all of it lost.

This is how I feel posting this chapter. I've questioned going back on it all week, but ... I think the fact that I'm so conflicted means it was what needed to happen. I'm not second-guessing the longterm plot, I only feel bad about how it hits in this moment right now.

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To say that Andy is annoyed would be a damn understatement. He knew coming into this meeting with Dean was off to a rough start the moment he saw him smiling at a damn phone. And not just a simple smile, on no. It was that kind of smile that means he recently got laid. Of course it doesn’t end there, not if he is giggling like some stupid school girl.

Andy is too old for this bullshit, and his dick hasn’t gotten wet in a really long time. Not since after the divorce. The idea of a relationship sounds repulsive. But being able to smell a woman that is aroused, and feeling her delicate legs wrap around his waist, tightening as she reaches orgasm. The warmth of her cunt wrapped around him as he spills into her.

“Goddammit,” he groans, sitting down quickly. It’s been so long for him that just thinking about wet skin and his cum is making him hard.

Dean hides his phone into his lap, and looks up at Andy guiltily. Just like a small child. He’s a damn adult. “Yes, so we’re going over the Rogers V Carter case.”

“I thought I told you about phones in our meeting,” Andy growls. It isn’t necessarily Dean’s fault. He’s just a bit pissy that the man is clearly in the beginning of a relationship and currently residing in the sex is amazing and nonstop phase. Andy is currently in his bitter angry and need to fuck a woman stupid phase.

“Well,” he stutters, and looks back down to his lap. A grin pulls up his mouth, and Andy can only imagine what the younger man is discussing. Phone sex most likely. Maybe some teasing photos. Jealousy is an annoying emotion. “We, uh, I mean, you weren’t in here. And I was discussing this case with, no.”

Andy’s brow cocks up. Discussing a case does not make someone this fidgety. So clearly he’s lying. “Has what’s-her-face sent the notes for the day?” Dean looks at him confused, “The office manager.”

“Oh, you mean, Filly,” Dean wishes Andy would stop doing that with his brow. It’s unnerving how it quickly pops up. A question without words is not normal. “Well, th-that’s what I call her. M-my, no,” he shakes his head. “No, just Filly. She calls me a young buck, it’s kinda our thing.”

“Isn’t this trial next week?”

“Yup.”

“The notes?” Whatever woman that Dean has on his steady rotation must be good for him. The young man is acting dense as all get out.

“Oh, right,” he fumbles. “Just — I’ll send her a message,” clearing his throat, he sends you a quick message, and reaches for the projector. “It won’t take her long, she's very fast — efficient,” he nearly shouts at Andy. “I’ll, umm, put my phone away now.”

“Okay, so our time slot is,” Andy freezes. His eyes immediately stare unblinking at the screen. He has no idea what possessed you to send this photo, but you look glorious. Spread and bent into a pretzel. Not fully naked, but giving just enough away.

“Oh god,” Dean panics, clicking the remote, and each photo gets more and more explicit. “No. Nononononono,” you’re not completely alone in these photos. Hands pin you down, and spread you out. And that infuriating dummy is clicking through the photos too fast.

“Was that just a dick?” Yes, it was. It had you spread wide open. These are the most explicit photos he has ever seen, and he can’t even take the time to enjoy them. Not to mention his cock is fully hard, and he’s a grown professional man looking at porn with his partner while at work. Fuck he’s hard.

“Nope. Not a dick. Sir, I’m trying real hard…”

“Don’t use the word hard right now,” Andy growls, and Dean looks over to him. He is hardly even blinking. His eyes are trained on the screen in front of him, and his knuckles turn white with how hard he’s gripping the table.

“Are — are you getting hard?”

“No, inappropriate question.”

“Given the circumstance,” he shrugs, and looks back at the screen. A series of photos show up back to back. Fingers gathering the cum in your pussy. Fingers dripping the cum into your mouth. And that bastard sitting across from Andy, smiling as he puts his cock into your mouth while you clean it. “No!”

“What the actual fuck?”

“Sir, I can explain. She, uh…”

“Dean!” You burst into the meeting room. “I sent the wrong files. Oh god,” you stare horrified. The last photo of the group. Dean’s thick veiny cock shoved into your cheek while cum drips down your chin. “I can…I gotta go,” there is nothing else going through your head besides getting out of here.

Embarrassment doesn’t even begin to cover how humiliated you feel. Andy Barber saw yours and Dean’s homemade porn. Thankfully it wasn’t videos, but all the stylized photos that he had to make. He asked for the files. Of course he meant the case files. Not your fucking pussy!

“Sir, I can explain.”

“How do you explain that you’re fucking the office manager?”

Dean narrows his eyes as he tries to think, “I got nothing,” there’s no point. He’s fucked you, been fucking you, and he will continue to fuck you. It’s not that serious. You use him as a dildo at this point. And he obliges every single time.

“Is she a good lay?”

“What?” His voice squeaks looking at Andy.

“I’m asking…how she rides.”

“Did — did you just ask what I think you asked?”

Andy smirks. This couldn’t be more perfect. “I just saw your girlfriend’s cunt filled with your cum. Saw your fingers inside of her, dripping with said cum, and then letting her clean off those fingers and your cock. Asking how she rides is mild. I could ask how she tastes. How her cunt feels when she has you in a vice grip. Or I could even ask if she could handle two cocks.”

“Oh, well. Umm…can I get back with you?”

“See that you do,” Dean nods as he stands up. “Oh, and Dean? Make sure she understands. I’d hate to have to find a new office manager.”

“Yes, sir.”

“Good boy.”

——

“And what exactly do you want me to do?” You whisper scream at Dean. He cornered you. Stopped you right before you left work, and could pretend that this didn’t happen. Just how much had Andy seen? The man was still freshly divorced, and he probably thinks you were trying to come onto him.

You weren’t.

You’re not opposed to it. But you have convinced yourself that your odd morbid curiosity of wondering what everyone’s genitalia looks like is just some weird quirk. You didn’t actually desire to see Andy naked.

Unless he wanted to. There’s no way you would fight that man off.

”YOU SENT ME PICTURES OF YOU NAKED WHILE I WAS IN A WORK MEETING!” Dean looks frantic. You’re trying to be oblivious, and he’s making it impossible to. This is why you never should have agreed to him taking photos. And just when you were in the mood to start filming.

Dean is an incredible lay, but it’s purely just sex. No strings attached of course.

You shrug, trying to play it cool, “How many did he see?”

“All of them.”

“All of them?” You recall some were just Dean spreading you open before his incredible tongue started to spear into you.

“All. Of. Them.”

“Well, good thing it's the weekend. Come Monday this will all be a dream,” you try to leave. You are suffocating in this small space. Dean will come over tonight, and you will have your way with him until Sunday morning. That’s the arrangement. That’s how you like it. That’s all you want.

But instead of getting to leave and playing dumb, Dean grabs your arm, “I don’t think it’s going to be that easy. He’s Andy fucking Barrber. The damn district attorney.”

“Well, this is more of a you problem because you’re the one that showed the photos, and my face isn’t in the photos,” he cocks an eyebrow up at you. “Shit,” Dean has been lowering your walls too much. Sex is fun and healthy, and being playful and kinky with sex is fine. Your face is a new addition to the photos. “So what is the play?”

“You’re not going to like Andy’s suggestion.”

“Ugh,” there will be meetings. This will take too much of your extra time trying to make up for bad office behavior. “What, some classes?”

“You’re going to have to keep an open mind.”

“I am not doing some retreat.”

“Remember when we were having fun with my dick and a hot pink dildo?”

“Di Laurentis, I need to eat before you get me horny,” you remember. Dean is just as experimental as you. But you’re still at the office, and you would rather he get to Andy’s suggestion on your reprimanding.

“How do you feel about two at once?” Your eyes open wide as you gawk at him. “It sounds crazy.”

“It sounds fucking insane. No, thank you.”

“Andy’s persuasive,” you didn’t care. This is treading into territory that you had no business in being in. “Either two at once, or…I’m going to have to get you to clean out your desk.”

“Are you serious?” He nods. Andy did want to play. With him being newly divorced he doesn’t need anything serious either. You have wondered. There’ve been times he’s walked through that door wearing a magnificent peacoat, and you immediately want to get on your knees. Andy is more your speed. Dean is fun. But he’s lacking something you really need. But having both? It would fulfill every fantasy.

“You have been curious about double penetration, and double vaginal…,” you cover his mouth with your hands. You’re still at work. He didn’t need to mention this. He pulls your hand away from his mouth, and offers a very oddly satisfying smirk. “You did want me to find a third.”

Well well well. He does listen, “Good boy,” Dean gives a sickeningly sweet smile as he preens. “No one can know”

“Of course not.”

“And we’ll need insurances.”

“I don’t know what that means.”

“I want it filmed,” Dean gulps. He’s been begging on his knees, literally for this. “We have to protect ourselves.”

“Of course.”

“Are you ready?” He nods eagerly. Sweet boy. “Okay. You know the rules. Now, let me get some food and hydrate. You explain to Andy the rules. And Dean? Anything goes.”

“Yes, ma’am. Anything,” he is such a good boy.

——

“Who is this video for?” Andy asks, taking his belt off. You point to the chair over in the corner. Marriage is not in the future, but you will pretend that he’s your husband, and Dean is your boy toy. For now.

“Us,” you simply respond. Your voice is already hitting a different pitch. Andy tilts his head watching the younger man feast on your cunt. “You weren’t supposed to see those photos.”

“I wasn’t?” You shake your head no, and run your fingers through Dean’s golden locks. This man’s tongue is a work of art. “He comes inside you?”

“You can, too.”

“What protection do you have?”

“Are you clean?” He holds up his test results. “I have an IUD,” Andy clears his throat, and adjusts his pants. He might have questioned just how sexy watching another man fuck into a woman is, but he is immensely enjoying himself. You’d already shown him yours and Dean’s current results. Healthy sex is important.

“So how is this going to go,” his mouth falls open as you lean back. Dean’s hands have traveled up your stomach. Deft fingers tweak at your nipples, and his tongue...my god, his tongue alone could destroy you. “He’s…enthusiastic.”

“You have no idea,” your body starts to undulate with his ministrations. You don’t even care about the man with an uncomfortable looking bulge in the corner. All you care about is your wildest dreams starting to come true. “After I come on his tongue, you decide.”

“You sure about that?”

“Oh, Mr. Barber,” you coo. “I’ve always wanted someone to control me. Tell me what to do,” he gulps again. Laurie was probably very vanilla in the bed, but this man, this man is very open. “As long as we all get to come.”

“Both of us in your cunt?”

“Whatever you want.”

“What if I want for Dean to clean you up with his tongue?” You look down at Dean, and he looks so pretty staring up at you from between your thighs. He smiles before sucking your bundle of nerves, and you stare up at the ceiling, mewling out his name, “Very enthusiastic.”

Andy stalks towards the two of you. He isn’t going to wait for Dean to ride you through your undoing. You’ll have plenty of time for that. Right now, he is starving to be inside you. Leaning forward, he gives Dean a little swat to his naked ass, “Thanks for making her messy. Now move,” Dean leans back on his calves and pouts up at Andy.

Your body is pliant enough that the older man tosses you up the bed with no resistance. He practically rips his clothes off before he’s crawling onto the bed, and ripping your legs apart, “I’m not gentle.”

“And I’m not breakable,” it takes him two seconds before he is splitting you in half. One harsh and swift thrust, and he feeds your cunt full of him. You squeak at the feeling. The two of these men couldn’t be more different. Both sizable cocks, but wherever Andy lacks in length, Dean makes up for it. While Dean may have a beautifully long cock, Andy has the girth of the gods.

“Aww, she couldn’t take it all,” you sit up, looking between the two of you. Just where the two of you meet, he has you split wider than you ever have been before. And there are about three more inches to go. The base of his cock is too large. “Dean, quit your pouting, and spit on it. She needs help.”

Andy has both your legs in his hands, and he has you so sprawled out, you can hardly move. Hearing him command Dean to spit on you, and that angel sits up and listens does something to you. Dean lets a trail of his saliva drip down on Andy’s cock, and your boss pounds forward. Making your cunt swallow him balls deep, and you whimper.

“Is — is she okay?” Dean asks, looking up at Andy. Completely in a submissive state, now you get to enjoy yourself and go into your own sub mind.

“Oh, she’s fine. Aren’t you, Filly?” He doesn’t give you time to respond, only rockets in and out of you. He wasn’t lying, he is far from gentle. His thrusts are harsh. Snapping into you with so much force, your eyes roll into the back of your head, and words evade you. It’s only pure moans of pleasure.

“Hear that?” Dean gazes up at Andy before returning to look at him owning your body, “She loves it rough. She has wanted someone to destroy her, and we’re…we’re both going to own this messy little cunt. You think she can handle it?”

There is something so demeaning, and yet delicious about the two of them talking like you’re not there. Like you’re not seeing stars from his thunderous movements. Like you are nothing more than a plaything to them. God, this is what you’ve wanted. To get out of your brain, and go dumb. It’s what you’ve deserved. Life has been hellish since…

“Fuck you feel so damn good. Dean, you’ve been holding out on me,” Dean rejoices in the fact that he’s been getting to delight in your body. Dean may not fuck you like he owns you, always. But he satisfies an itch you never knew you had. You didn’t get to explore fantasies with your ex. It was the standard positions. Never bringing in toys. Never the dirty talk. Always feeling slightly unsatisfied.

“Oh, there she goes,” he chuckles, slapping your face lightly. “You still here, sweetheart,” barely. It’s all about the feeling of freedom, and right now you’re flying. He stuffs his thumb in your mouth, waiting for you to suck on the appendage before moving your head to look up at him.

You meet his gaze, loving the feel of his heated breath fanning across your face, “I’m going to roll us over, so you can straddle me, okay?” You nod dumbly. “And then that angel on the floor is going to come behind you, and he’s going to coat his cock in lube,” yes. Yesyesyesyesyes. You nod, mumbling around him. “And then he’s slowly going to push inside of your cunt, okay?” You nod again.

“Do you remember your safe word?”

“Appull,” you slur, and Andy beams at you. You’d never noticed how pretty the constellations of freckles that splay across his cheeks are.

“Good girl. Even when you’re just a dumb cockslut, ready for two cocks in this tight cunt, you’re still so smart, huh?” You preen at his praise. Sighing with happiness, and he drops to the bed, taking you with me. He never even leaves your warmth.

“Go on. Start riding daddy. Dean, grab that lube, we don’t want to hurt her, do we?”

“No. We don’t hurt her,” while Dean fiddles around with the bottle of lube, you grind over Andy. Arms firmly on his chest. He is all man. Hairy in all the right ways. And he feels so fucking good.

So good. So good. So good.

It’s a mantra in your head. Every bounce on him. So good.

Dean fists his cock as he positions himself, and Andy pulls you down to his chest. He centers your face to look directly at his eyes, “Don’t look away,” he growls. You gasp as the pressure of Dean’s cock pushes past your entrance. “Eyes on me. What’s my name?”

“Daddy?”

“Good girl. How does it feel?”

“It hurts,” more of a sting really. Not enough to want this to stop. You have never felt so full in your life. “Daddy!”

“You know the rules. You want us to stop, say the word,” you can’t. You’re too curious to know what it would feel like to have them both inside of you. To know that they want to do this again and again. To let your walls come down, and to fully immerse yourself into the beautiful soundless nothingness of euphoria. You shake your head no. “Fuck. She’s tight.”

Dean breathes heavily on your back. He slides all the way home, and his forehead collapses on your shoulder. “Fuck me!” Andy nearly screams. “Goddamn, this is heaven,” Dean gives your shoulder a nibble. “Don’t worry, I’ve got you. Get used to it.”

You don’t ever want to get used to this. This truly is heaven. This is everything. Your body molds to them perfectly. This is…it just is. It’s powerful even in this submissive state. You press onto Andy’s chest, and you lift yourself up. You need his body to anchor you, and you ride them. They don’t even move, and you’re able to fuck them both simultaneously. Taking all of your pleasure, and somehow they get something out of it too.

“Such a filthy girl. Got you dripping all over us. Go on,” unprompted, Dean spanks your ass, and you ride harder. Letting yourself drop onto them, fusing the three of you together in this weird ass triangle that you’re obsessed with.

“Fuck me,” Dean breathes onto your back, and you go harder. Harder. Tits bouncing in Andy’s face that he just can’t stand not to grab, and suck on them. Going back and forth between the two while he smiles up at you with so much awe. “God, you feel so fucking good. Take it. Take all of it, Filly.”

That’s just what you want. All of it. Dean looks over to the camera smiling. Out of his head, and enjoying the show, “You look like such a fucking slut. You are a slut.”

“Our slut,” Andy groans, and grips tight to your hips. “Only our slut, huh?”

“Yeah. Yeah! I’m your slut.”

“Every weekend,” well… “Work is going to be so hard. I won’t be able to think of anything but the way you feel wrapped around us.”

“I’m your dumb slut!” Your leg starts quivering, and your movements get quicker. Harder. Faster. Deeper. “I’m gonna…”

“We can tell,” Dean struggles to get out. “You’ve got us locked in so tight. You feel so good. So fucking good,” the praises! Another thing you never got. They cherish you. It’s just sex, but at this moment, you’re their very reason for breathing.

“Come on, baby, let go. Let go; we’re right behind you,” as much as you don’t want this to end, it’s almost too much. Everything is heightened, and tears spring to your eyes with how good it feels. You could have had this. You could have had someone that adores you so much that they’re begging for your release just so they can orgasm.

You intake a short breath, and everything explodes. Screams and trembles release just as you do. You can’t see. Can’t breathe. Can’t fathom what is happening. But you do feel Dean and Andy fuck you through your orgasm, and don’t stop until ropes of their hot sticky cum struggles to find a place to land with how much you’re stuffed full.

Immediately they begin to leak out of you. “Dean?” Andy huffs out. “I need you to pull out,” he looks at his boss oddly. “Then you’re going to spread her open, and lick us out of her cunt. Don’t swallow.”

Dean almost sounds pained as he exits your body, and Andy expertly turns you to the side. Getting to his knees, he runs his cocks through your lips. He grazes his messy cock, covered in their spend on your pillowy pout, while Dean gently licks through your swollen pussy. Every whimper out of your lips has him going softer. More gentle. Taking care of you in a way you never have dreamed of.

He truly is a god with his mouth. His hands press onto the side of your gaping cunt as he widens you, and he licks a stripe right up the middle. “Good boy, get her all cleaned up. Now come here,” Andy says before leaning back. “Drip it into her mouth,” Dean smiles before leaning over. Tongue hanging out, he lets the filth drip slowly past your lips, and you reach up to him. Fuck this.

You pull his mouth onto yours, and you suck on his tongue like you were born to do so. Swallowing every ounce of their cum as if it’s a life force. “Two little cum sluts,” Andy chuckles, and slowly grips his cock. “God this weekend is going to go by too fast. I’m going to enjoy you two.”

You fall back onto the bed, gasping for air. “I need you out by Sunday morning.”

“No, I need you to be sore on Monday.”

“Then you better fuck me until Sunday morning.”

Andy looks to Dean confused. A silence passes between them, and he looks at you, hoping to be told what to do. He sighs, “Her husband has to drop her kid off.”

“Husband?”

“Estranged, and about to be ex husband,” you look at him angrily. “Let me bask in post sex bliss before you piss me off.”

“I didn’t know…”

“Married only in the legal sense. I don't want a relationship. I want to have fun, and enjoy sex finally. Dean, will you stop the camera, and lock it in the vault? Andy, I take this very seriously so my douchebag of a husband has no reason to seek full custody. Now, while he’s doing that, start dry humping me, until you get hard. You owe me another orgasm. We’re not having this conversation again.”

“Okay. Nothing serious,” you give him a nod. “But…”

“Don’t.”

“I’m good with kids,” little fucker. Now is not the time for this discussion. Now is the time for orgasms, cum, and sweaty skin.

“Andy! Just make me come!”

He rolls his eyes before settling over you. “Fine,” he is supposed to want just sex. But after tonight? He wants it all. You. Dean. And a family. This is why he can’t spend too much time alone. He gets in his head. Gets lonely. Then gets attached.

“Andy, roll your body on me. And don’t make me command you to do anything for the rest of the weekend.”

“As you wish,” there’s time later. Time to get you on the right page. Dean already is. It could work. It will work.

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