I am exactly the same as any other male. The only reason I don't go around raping and killing like every other worthless diseased parasite is because my maleness was beaten out of me young enough that I'm too afraid to ever hurt a woman. Even my violent tendencies, ones that all males have and that are the cause of every evil in the world, are directed at males. I fully support androcide because I was raised to have self-awareness, but it is still evil because I am incapable of good.

The only good thing about me is how much I love women. But I understand that I will never be equal to a woman no matter what I do, so my obsession is a logical response to divinity. If an ant were in the presence of a lion, it would be incapable of understanding or even fully perceiving the lion. I cannot empathize with God. I love women but my love isn't really love and I understand that I will never be worth anything and i hate it.

Any male with self-awareness would rather kill itself than exist. Maybe they're scared to hurt women even though their existence itself is a crime deserving of death. Maybe they see that women are worth something and they are not. Maybe they were raised right but understand that androcide can't happen unless they die too. But those who have the option to decide they might as well at least try to be a woman before they shoot themselves between the eyes because they're too cowardly to do the right thing and die.

I will never be a real woman. I accept that. I know that I am nothing but a disgusting freak of nature. But I still pray that I can trick people into thinking my life matters instead of them just seeing a worthless male.